a thought...coming to terms a bit....

Okay, so I think I've decided that I'm going to HAVE to journal what I eat and start counting my calories. I've have two weeks with a weight gain of 2-3+ pounds so I'd like to not have a big jump like that happen again. I HATE trying to keep a food journal! I MUST hate it since I've never really kept one more than 2 or 3 weeks! I kept one pretty decent-like when I was doing the Atkins deal. Perhaps I kept that journal then pretty well because I had to keep track of my carbs. I think it was 30 max a day in the Induction stage and I stayed there for the duration of the time I stayed on Atkins. Perhaps keeping track of my calories, the numbers and adding them up, ...maybe treating them like money...will help me stick with the recording?

I don't know why I hate the thought of having to count my calories? Is it because that's so bare bones and it kind of takes away yet another ounce of dietetic freedom I thought I had? Does it mean that I couldn't do it on my own in that area so I HAVE to start counting my calories more strictly and not just eyeball it? Am I lazy or angry or neither or both? Not really sure right now but having gained this past week and not really seeing it com.OOOOOOOOOOH...yeah...I JUST remembered...this past Sunday was our potluck dinner at church service. Second Sunday is the evening building fund service and even though the past couple of Sundays we haven't had the service because the fellowship kinda spilled past the 4pm start time.....we've still had the dinner. I remember that part of the leftover brought home were the rest of the cornbread our deaconess makes...and mom loooooves cornbread so they gave us the rest. I took the rest of the pasta salad that was really veggie heavy (yum) but I think it's gonna have to be tossed out cuz apparently that stuff can turn pretty quick and it's pretty much a week old now and we didn't take any with us to the hotel. Then I made chicken cacciatore Wednesday and whole wheat elbow macaroni to go with it. Plus the lower fat/lower cal dessert I made for Sunday...a lot was leftover so I brought that back and pretty much killed that myself from Sunday to Tuesday.

Welp, mystery solved. I may very well have lost some ounces or a pound the past couple of days but when you're trimming from a blowout gain from earlier in the week the numbers will still be higher. Okay, I know what I did wrong..and once again I need to fight those carb monsters or simmer them down a bit so I can turn the rabid pitbulls into cute lil poodles that I can play with every now and then.

So, even though I did recall what possibly led to this week's gain (and it still may be some sort of good gain, ie, muscle) I'll still try to count and record my calories so I know that if I have that 100 calorie snack pack (which I haven't had since I've started..yay) then that's just 100 calories gone. Oh well. And as much of a better option as they may be, I'm gonna have to say no to the grill chicken snack wraps at mcdonalds...or at least cut it from two to one. Two makes me pretty full, I'm sure one will keep me satisfied with an apple instead of a 2nd one, and some yummy yummy .....water. Can't have that ice filled sweet tea of theirs even though the last two times I've had it it's been on point!

okey dokey, way past bedtime....but does that mean I'm off to sleep....hmmmm


Blessings All.