math? what math?

last week I said I gave my son's daycare a 5 gallon bucket of icecream. well

I'M A DOLT! I realized that 5 Gallons would be one of those huge tubs of HOUSEPAINT!! what I meant was a 5 QUART bucket of icecream!! I was looking through a grocery circular and notice a 4 quart of ice cream on sale (nope, not getting it) and realized my oops moment!

I just like to correct myself. Especially if anyone was thinking I'm trying to kill these poor kids with not one but eventually TWO "5 gallon buckets" of ice cream!! yeah, math and I are civil neighbors at best most of the time.


Sooooo, yeah, it's 1:19AM cst and I really should have BEEN asleep about 3 hours ago! *sigh*....I have no idea what's goin' on with my summer/not having to go to work sleep cycle. I still have to get up to drop my son off and when I say I'm gonna come back and go back to sleep, a lot of times, I haven't.

I realized something. I remember Carnie Wilson talking about how she gave up her food addiction after the surgery...but then became somewhat addicted to alcohol. She traded one addiction for another. Don't call her weak or simple because I think I've just added more fuel to a spending problem I already have!

I've been doing good giving out gorging on foods, late night binging, sneaking away to drive-thrus for a burger and fries blowout, and other unsavory habits with food. I'm still having trouble eating these apples and oranges, and now grapefruits. I'm doing better with bananas and frozen fruit to make smoothies. Not sure what's going on there because I'm not using sugar...either Equal or Splenda..or the seltzer/crystal lite combo. Anyway, I'm getting my weight and eating habits in order. It's not perfect; I know it never will be. Doesn't mean one can't work towards perfection without losing a grip on reality.

My problem now is spending. I spend on things that are on sale, clearance, super discounted. I rarely buy things that are full price unless the full price is as good or better than another's sale price. I'm sort of working poor. If I didn't have a son and lived alone, I'd probably be considered upper-lower class or perhaps middle-class. But ANYWAY, getting to the point, my new dollar spiller of choice is make up! I've backed off of buying clothes. I keep trying to tell myself that I'm not going to buy clothes that I can't fit yet..but well, I don't want to keep myself in the state of mind that I'll have something to fall back on by buying clothes that I can fit now or even have a lil room in now.

The makeup kinda happened out of the blue! I was youtubing because I've decided I want to loc my hair. I haven't done it yet because...just because....waiting for that news basically. One youtube poster has BEAUTIFUL locs so I was viewing her vids and a lot of them are of her demonstrating how she does her different styles of eyeshadowing. A lot of brush talks, MAC products, etc etc etc. So I'm not saying I want to BE her, but I have makeup sitting around that I'm doing nothing with, I decided..well, you're losing weight...why not treat yourself to being a lil bit girly?

Well, Like I said, I have a lot..well, I'll say a "lot" of makeup I'm not using...and yet, I still went and got MORE! I've gone from the $1 and $1.99 range up to around $7. I haven't splurged yet on any $15 stuff....I'm thinking, since I'm not a pro, I don't want to spend that much unless I've received a one on one consultation on how to apply it and the different color combos that will work for my face shape, skintone, etc. It seems easy to say that because I'm art teacher and sometimes artist, I'd already know about color combos, and I have some ideas, but this is stuff going on my face. Rather than walk outside looking like a drowned clown...you know?

uuuuh, I think I'm doing some after 1am rambling!!! so sad!
but yes, I think I've always been the type of person where once I get it into my head that I want to GO SOMEWHERE to shop . . . even if I don't buy a thing (most likely i'll find SOMETHING to buy) I won't really be content until I've made that trip. I was like that before I had my own vehicle...it's worse now that I do!

I've been like that for the past couple of weeks. . .just GOTTA GO! Tomorrow I'm gung ho about checking out a not-too-far but not often visited mall and a never before visited store, Big Lots. I know they're nationwide but I've just never gone to one before. the number one item on my agenda....more makeup and brushes. Need to get an actual makeup box....perhaps a bigger jewelry box to hold the growing about of necklace sets and earrings. yeah.....Lord help me!


Since I've been awake for so long I'm hungry again but since I'm about to make myself fall asleep, I'm gonna just grab a banana and some more water.

No call from my doc today even though I left her a Voicemail. perhaps the results were not in yet to her office.

Thanks for stopping by! yeah, it's really time for me to shut down....keep seeing things!