Week 3, Getting back to Me.

So yeah, I've been away from bloggin for too many days. What has happened in those days? I actually attended a party. I didn't feel tooooooo socially awkward because apparently texting during a party or any social gathering has become the new thing!! I found that I wasn't the only person staring at a cell phone or some other mobile device sending a text, checking an email, tweeting, updating a Facebook status...how sad. The social scene, for that, is DEAD! So I don't feel so outta place. I did still feel like the fattest thing in the room with all eyes on me...however, they weren't, and those that were probably could be neither here or there about my size. So yeah, doesn't matter today.

Last week I'm going to chalk up to too much meat and cake. Horrible week, horrible choices, but I think I sort of redeemed myself Saturday? Not sure. I need to figure out what to have for dinner this week so I won't be tempted to order out/in whatever you call it. I'm glad to say that I've gone another week with NO FAST FOOD! Not only just fast food, but no restaurant food at all. Feeling good about that. We did grocery shopping yesterday so I'm restocked on oranges, apples, and YES, this week is Chicken Salad week again! Made a big ol' 5 gallon ice cream bucket full of it. This time I have celery and eggs in the same batch. Got my mom to understand that if she wants to help me use up eggs, just boil them. no more cake. Had to tell her that if I had willpower to not eat all the cake or more than a small slice, then I wouldn't be almost 400 pounds right now! The point is I DON'T have that willpower that others have to stay the course and see past a month or so. I'm just trying to make it to the end of the day..as in 24 hours.. without slipping up. I say 24 hours because I could easily wake up during the night and munch on something or chug a glass of pop if it's in the house. luckily for me the only thing I want during the night most times is just water. i'm too doggone sleepy to ruin my sleep cycle with food! however, summer and summer break is fastly approaching..

Speaking of summer, I still have like 3 long papers to write for my online grad courses that I haven't even started the reading for. I requested an extention in both classes and they were approved however, it still does me no good because I really need the summer and the break from work it gives me to focus those hours of the weekdays to working on those papers. I can't really do it while I'm at work. For starters..it's like 66 degrees outside and probably humid, and yet it feels like friggin' 50 or so in this building! I seriously can't concentrate when my body temp is too cold! I can deal with warm and too warm, even hot, but not cold when I'm about to start shivering. I would open the window to let some warm ar in but the sun is not on this side of the building. So yeah, the building temp regulation SUCKS!!! no reason for the temp outside to be in the 30s and yet the vents are blowing out cool air, no air at all, or the air warms up around 2:04 when the students leave for the day and I'm only in my classroom for 41 more minutes tops!!! oy.

Anyway, I'm going to think of something to do with all these grains and legumes I have. I have lentils, black beans, black eye peas, great white northerns and pinto beans (tooo many of those and I don't really care for pintos) red beans, and a bean soup mix. Also I have brown rice .....and whole wheat pastas. I know the basic recipes for these things . . . like I have some soy "meat" crumble that I stir fry to heat through and then add that to some cooked lentils to make a lentil "dirty rice" thing. The black beans I've added with whole kernel canned corn (rinsed off) and added those to a taco bake with ground turkey, cheese, salsa, and layered flour tortillas. I haven't made that in a while...next time I make it, I'll probably skip the turkey and get the protein from the means and cheese. The red beans...red beans and brown rice. I made some white chicken chili with the great white northerns a while ago, around Thanksgiving, during my last weightloss attempt. The black eye peas..please, I'd eat those bad boys dry if it wouldn't crack my teeth!! I LOVE 'EM!

I'm want different recipes and I was looking online for some but, well, once I get into Facebook land it's pretty much over. I forget everything else I'd planned to do!! I'd make a list to remind me but...I forget to make the list! That's why I tell my students to work on their memories now and manage their time better now because it doesn't get easier when you're grown!!

Welp, it's lunch time so I'm gonna bring my grub back to the classroom cuz I know I'll probably have some girls running in trying to finish their work! Tomorrow is the final exam and then that's it. I put my grades in Wednesday at the latest and then zoof....