Saturday, June 27, 2009
Weigh in
one word. pizza.
No biggie...I do know I need to up my intake of solid, "unsmoothied" fruit. I make my smoothies with water and a dash of sugar free fruit punch or sodium free seltzer water and equal or splenda and frozen mixed fruit or just strawberries. that might equal a couple of servings of fruit and that kind of fills me up but i need to really chow down these apples and oranges before they go rank!!!
so yea, I know the weakness and I know I need to limit that beast to once a week if I'm going to have it! Only thin crust and mainly cheese. I used turkey pepperoni but also bought regular in case I didn't like the turkey. But it tastes just the same with less calories and I think a bit less fat. Better option for those of you out there.
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And now.....
So, I had my biopsy yesterday morning. It wasn't bad at all. Just the thought of having a needle shoved inside of you to take samples of something that could ...COULD...be life threatening but I'm sure it's nothing, just normal stuff. Either way, please keep me in your prayers. Also, one of my fellow church members is in bought...I don't EVEN know of breast cancer herself and apparently yesterday she suffered a stroke. She can't be 45 yet and she has had breast cancer at LEAST 8 times already but she's been blessed and held on to the hand of the Lord.
So, this is a short post because I need to go get some ice for my armpit and try to keep my son from lying on my arm, boob, pit, all that stuff over there! I had my sis come out to the house to babysit for me while my mom and I attended a banquet. But I decided to skip it because I don't have any After Five wear (I don't do many banquets so why bother buying, especially if I'm losing weight and will pay $50 easy for an outfit that won't fit in a month or two). Mostly though, the biopsy took samples from two different areas so I have two small incisions so I can't put any deodorant on that pit. Shaved pit or not, it's hot out there and I don't wanna end up with one funky pit or salty sweat seeping under the steri-strips and stinging the tar outta me!
So we stayed in. and everyone ended up taking a late nap!! apparently Siesta came late, but it still showed up!
sidebar: who or WHAT is "Theodore Tugboat"?? Looks like a bastardized version of Thomas the Tank Engine!!!!! even with a human, the "Harbor Master" that intros the episode. he works from his....Harbor Master Office.....HMO...lil propaganda there eh? heh heh heh
okey dokey...
Monday, June 22, 2009
I bought a 5gallon tub of chocolate ice cream to take to my son's daycare tomorrow as a cold treat on a super hot day when they probably won't get to play outside.
I should probably stay awake to help all this digest but well, if sleep wins....
just a lil quick mmm post
Gonna finally make that homemade pepperoni pizza for my wee one! Will cut up some lettuce and tomato, and maybe cucumbers to go with it. Heat up some of this pan-roasted corn n' bell peppers as a bit of a side.
Tomorrow is on deck to be a hot one....heat index up to 100 degrees or something like that apparently. Hopefully Thursday will be cool..I forgot to mention that I think the Downtown Farmer's Market is on Thursdays in Chicago. I'm gonna look it up right now. I know I have at least the full month of July to enjoy supporting the downtown and neighborhood local farmer's markets but well, you know, this is the beginning of week 2 of summer break. *sigh*
Yeah, I dedicated a post to how good this simple sandwich was but well...yeah....
ah, week 6...in the mix....
It's a bar so you know you're not getting anything healthy...maybe some veggie sticks but well, even though it's the U of C, it's in a college/university community so yeah, greasy spoon! I opted for a grilled cheese and a small order of fries. I had some red wine as well...plus some water...lots of water! I shared the fries and also ended up eating half of the sandwich; gave the other half to my buddy! Later on she bought a cheeseburger and small fry and we split those as well. So yeah, I didn't gorge...I burned some calories talking and laughing so much so it was a great time! We'll have to do it again!
This week I'm going to hang with my sis while my son is in daycare getting his buddytime on!
Today, mom has a couple of doc appointments I'll be carting her around to...gonna be leaving for the first one in a couple of minutes actually.
Friday I have a biopsy that could make or break a weaker spirit but I'm convinced what's there are a couple of cysts I've had probs with before. If not then...well, I already know what I'll go through so. . .praying on that regardless.
Uuuuhm, what else...OH.yeah, i really need to either eat these apples fast or just not buy anymore for a while and grab canteloupes since I kinda owned those 3 I bought last week!! I was eating one yesterday and the seeds has started to SPROUT in the core!!! Not sick or anything...had I eaten them I'm sure it would have been like eating beans sprouts but yeah..I need to do something with these apples. I may just cook them with some water and splenda on the stove so they're cooked. And no, I'm not going to plant any apple seeds! The neighbor's plum trees are enough hell on OUR yard!!
Later all!
Saturday, June 20, 2009
HAZZAAAAAAAAAH....!!!...???
373.8!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so yeah, it may have been a bit of a glitch or offness of the weight or perhaps last week's weigh in was wrong...or perhaps I just dropped that much weight!! Stranger things have happened!!! Needless to say....it's a digital scale and I'm happy with what it read!!!!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
meh...
Live and learn. just buy new used or new!
now, my van is doing okay but it's 4 years younger than her car (same car company; Plymouth).
As for my essays that are due....a masterpiece of NOTHING! I decided that I'm going to just take the D and F I'll end up getting and retake the courses one at a time...however, not necessarily right this fall....I don't have to take the courses in any order accept the last, thesis course.
I decided on that because, while I'm going to have to eat the costs of those courses, I'm really stressed out when it comes to trying to even read the books to research the topics. The problem is everytime I get to reading one my mind wanders or I'm focused but then I get super sleepy!!! It's not like they aren't topics I have an interest in because I CHOSE THEM!!
I think I'm just intimidated by having to pull 10-12 pages out of my ass when the most I've written on a regular basis is maybe 5 pages and at most one or two 8pagers.
Now, this decision to just chuck 'em out and redo the courses later down the road won't be final until I've let Monday come and go and I've submitted nothing. Monday is the deadline, not Wednesday like I kept thinking. two days means a lot when you're a procrastinator!
I'm sure I'm going to try again..I've got tomorrow without the boy at home and then Friday I'm sure mom will cart him off downstairs while I try to get this stuff finished up here. I can only try. I've got that.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
weigh in
But sometimes, easy isn't always best so...
I should be able to get these papers finished though since my son will still be in daycare/preschool over the summer while I'm on summer break.
I need to update my lil ticker down there. At first, the scale said 379.1 or something like that but I was trying to get it to save the results for my user number and the tapping and standing thing I'm supposed to do wasn't working. So yesterday's results aren't saved. When I weigh this Saturday I will have re-read the manual again so I know what line dance movement I'm supposed to do to get it to work (tap tap shuffle turn scoot scoot your caboose)! But yeah, 379.1 then the last 3 times it said 380.4 so that's what I'm going with. No big deal (even if I didn't think that last night.
As usual I'm sleepy. . . so with that....
Peace and Be Blessed!
Saturday, June 13, 2009
slimmed down dessert
I'm sure hey won't complain and since I'd like to be able to have a taste of it without feeling like I've cheated, I need to make it this way. So be it.
I'm super sleepy so I need to get to cracking before I end up having to wake up tomorrow morning to make it!
Friday, June 12, 2009
howdy all
Sooo, I'm going to (again) look for recipes because days at home mean more opportunities to goof off with the food and eating right. I will be trying to get out and do some more walking. And ....use the dvds I bought.
So, yeah, I just had some light microwave popcorn (shared with my son), some slushified lemon soda (mmmm), water, and now here I am. Sleepy because of all the running around I've done the past couple of days and excitement. Gonna cut this here. If something more peaks my typing fancy, I'll be back.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
I'm soooo freaking tired!!
The party was very very nice and my mom was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SURPRISED!! They did a really good job and being who she is, my mom was helping to set up decorations because she just thought it was the end of the year party for the faculty and staff. She'd even paid her $25 for the lunch!!! she got it back in a card along with money gifts from everyone totaling $400!!! She CAN'T spend it on bills..has to be something for HER ONLY!! We're still trying to figure out what to get her with our kids funds or where to send her. Not as easy as we thought cuz she'll want one of us to go with her and if I go then I'm trying to get someone else to watch my son cuz it's really not a vacation with him...well, a relaxing one at least.
The menu was not horrible at all!!! I was very pleased! VERY Pleased. Green beens almondine with little or no sale added, mashed potatoes with gravy on the side, salad, fried AND BAKED chicken, 4" french bread rolls, and Italian beef with or without peppers.
I had salad with a drizzle of Italian dressing, a BAKED chicken breast, about 1/2 c. of green beans, no mashed potatoes, and a bread roll and Italian Beef. Everything was good too and I did have the cake but I didn't have any last night. Since about 1pm with the food was eaten I've had 1 1/2 beef sandwiches. and it's 11:32 now and I had the last one around 9:15. I wasn't going right to bed because I drove my sis back home so I was still up and about. I haven't had any fruit today though so I'm kinda iffy about that. I didn't feel like an apple or an orange. For breakfast I had my usual 1 cup of cold cereal and skim milk. After I got my sis we came back to the "main house" to wait for my bro and sis n law so we could head over to mom's school together. I had more water and a bit of trail mix..not even a 1/4 cup...and then a Bagelful.
Today was a good day. I can't say with honesty that I didn't have any of that cake on the stove though. When I got back home I got a taste (literrally like an ounce maybe) of that cake and icing and thought ...meh. If I don't have a whole piece..I'll live.
The uh oh moment of the day was not with food but with one of my tires blowing out. Apparently one of the downfalls of buying a super used vehicle is not knowing the age of the tires on it. This one gave a little over a year but I'm told it was dry-rotted and there was really nothing I did to cause it or anything I could do to prevent the pop!! Luckily it happend about 5 blocks from home and my mom has AARP Road and Tow coverage even though the only vehicle on it is mine. We were quoted that service would be there in an hour but he was there within about 20 minutes so that was a blessing. He put the "donut" on and I was now trying to find a place to buy a used tire because, while it's the last day before summer break, I still need to go to work tomorrow and a baby spare on the expressway is not the business for me! I wanted used because I eventually plan to get a newer used vehicle that I won't have to worry so much about. This one came to make with aobut 140K+ and It's got almost 167K now in a little over a year. Not sure if tha's average because this is my first vehicle that I own. My big red baby!
It all worked out, got a nice looking used for only 23.50 total. A new one from Sam's Club would have been $50+ AND $15 to put it on. I wouldn't have made it to them in time tonight and the other places were closed or equipment wasn't working. The bad equip guy told me about the one I ended up going to and it worked out. Even got to see a big ol' dog take a monster poop!!! That hasn't happened since I dog died 3 years ago!!! Yeah, gross but you need a giggle moment too!
Okay, I think I've got everything in ....will only get about 5 hours of sleep probably but it's better than nothing...or 1-3 hours. 1-3 hours is just plain wrong!!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I must remember...
Insert frustrated yell here.
I had to tell her, I CAN'T have that, it's fried. Her response, oh I forgot. I'm sorry. okay.
An age of mid 60s, early 80s, 100s, whatever . . . I've been obese my entire life...clearly there's no room for forgetting that your youngest daughter SHOULD NOT be eating fried food, fast food, take out food, whatever!
So I've had to resist the powerful temptation to go in there and have some cake or even OPEN THE BAG to see what kind it is!!!! I want no parts of that! I don't want to see if...I can only guess what kind it is that little kids would want to eat.
Now my sis made an okay point saying that my mom can't totally adjust what she does to accommodate my need to lose weight and not see the uh oh and no no foods she wants to bring home. Too much of a hassle to "hide" the cake downstairs and have to go down there to that fridge every time she wants a piece (we live in a 2 flat with full basement and full attic btw so that's why there's a fridge up and downstairs...2 apartments). However, is it too much for her to remember there are things I need to be doing to change my lifestyle? I mean, every now and then she goes into rants about how I need to watch what I'm eating and I need to exercise and "we gonna walk together, put gran-man in a stroller and take him with us" and then, You want some chicken? WTF?! Besides, right now I'm thinking, she goes down there every day anyway so why not but, not my house, not my rules. However, my sis has never had to consciously try to eat better to lose weight because she has a condition where she's gonna drop weight anyway, most times without even trying.
I really REALLY hate knowing that cake is in there. I'm gonna have to wake up in the night to take a pee cuz I've been drinking water late in the day! I've been strong so far but this is probably similar to how a recovering addict feels when they roommate still drinks, smokes, or does whatever drug they've quit but they can't really afford to move yet. I'm fighting with my mind right now to say YOU DON'T NEED IT.
On top of the cake issue, I'm afraid of what's going to be on the menu for this party tomorrow that I'll be able to actually eat without have to scalp it first. I should probably take my water jug with me. Oh crap, I need to pack my son's bag "to take to work with me since I'm taking him with me" ... that's the cover story I told my mom in case she wanted to call the daycare and they tell her that I never dropped him off or that he's not there, whatever.
I do hope I will have an empowering post for you all to read tomorrow that I was able to say NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO to the cake. But right now there's this vampire that hasn't had a fresh stream in a day or two like pang in my stomach and mouth that's like...come ooooon, a lil bit won't hurt. Well, for me...as I've stated before, it will. I'm not at that stage in the game where I an have a sliver and be satisfied.
I should have been asleep so I'm going to do that now and pray for strength that the potty trip is just that....go potty, come back to bed. don't even LOOK in that direction!!!
later, *wave*
Monday, June 8, 2009
into week 4
It's late but I wanted to blog something. I missed yesterday. This is the last week of school b4 break. I really should be trying to get a summer job to make some income on top of my pay from work over the summer. I probably won't. Will spend my summer at home in the garden/yard trying to manage the plum trees sprouting up everywhere, paying for a new fence for the backyard, and cleaning up inside the house. Maybe finally getting those floor tiles in the kitchen and bath and painting the walls. It's a lot but I've been doing it since 2006..yeah, it's not finished yet. go figure! At least the chance to burn some calories is there. I'm also hoping to get a good amount of painting completed and perhaps started. I have 4 works do complete that have been commissioned. Two are for my church and I'm probably not even gonna collect on the rest of that money. It's been since 2006 and they still aren't finished. So tell me why I took on two more posters last year? Cuz I have high hopes but then ..yeah...just like my grad courses....I take on projects that I should have some hindsight in by now.
For now, I'm thinking my health is first and foremost after my son's. I have to make sure I'm living so if that means just putting everything and everyone else on hold short of my job, so be it. I need to work on me. Even though I am working on some gifts those are no big deal They'll be finished by tomorrow (started them today). Time seemed to fly by today even though I had not a one student in my class today because hardly no one showed up and those who did chose to hang in another teacher's room. I'm going to have to take advantage of the down time to start the reading and finish the papers that are due.
Here's an ongoing prob for me though:
I'm wondering why I can't get through reading one page of reading before I'm yawning and just feeling overwhelmed with trying to get it read? Even magazine articles in a magazine I've bought because I like it! That's a real pisser when you're trying to browse through about 30 books and articles combined to get enough information to write two 10-12 page papers and one 5 page paper based on just one book. It really interferes with my progress in life recently. If I can't get the reading done I won't be able to get the papers written and there goes over $1600 down the drain because if I stay with this school and this degree then I'm going to have to take those two required courses again eventually...I don't have to repeat them asap...can take the courses in any order. Whatever course I take, whenever I take it, there's gonna be reading and paper writing and my brain is in "what are you crazy?!?" mode.
okay for real Good Night All
Saturday, June 6, 2009
oh yeah, forgot to mention this gem!
I treated the mom and son to a lunch at a restaurant that we had NEEEVER been to before despite their history of being just a few miles away. The food was delicious and I'm GLAD TO SAY, that there were not only two but THREE doggy bags leaving with us!!! Only a few weeks ago I would have devoured that plate/bowl of linguine with mushrooms, broccoli, and chicken in a white wine sauce that was enough for four people to get a decent helping. Instead, when I saw the food before the lovely waitress (Wendy, a doll :) ) was even good and ready to bring it to the table, I said ooooh, I'm so not gonna finish that food!! I had nibbled on salad and I think I did have too much bread before the food. There was just SOOO much salad that I couldn't finish it; I wanted to eat some of the entree. After lunch is when we went to Walmart so that was about an hour of on my feet time...enough for me to really realize that the new wedges I bought yesterday are for those times when you'll be sitting for the majority of your time wearing them! ouch! but it's not their fault . . . I need a wide width and they only camIe in regular but they still fit. I said, dab nabbit they're cute enough, Payless is having a BOGO sale, I want them. . . and and DOGGONIT I'd better be able to fit them better by summer's end! I'll always need a size 12...but not always a wide width. So I'm good.
I just had the contents of my doggy bag and when I put it on the plate that was when I realized that there was JUST SO MUCH of it! I ate it all and I feel full. Not stuffed, not still hungry or "hungry". Satisfied. I'm downing some water to help it along now and not to be gross but before I ate lunch and about an hour ago, I ..uuuh...emptied out and made room for more. So, I don't know if that sounds like I'm justifying eating the rest of the food but I don't feel like I just piled now food on top of old food so everything is just sitting around.
It seems like it was a bit of devine intervention to actually eat at that place. I'd planned on visiting a pancake house and hoping there would be something light like an eggwhite omelette and fresh fruit on the menu. BUUUUUUT, as I saw the first one that I'd forgotten about, too crowded...got to the one I was planning for, tooo crowded. Now, I know these kind of places usually have a high volume on Saturdays so I was expecting that but today? Today is graduation day for a lot of schools in the city so by 11:30am some were letting out and well, people wanna eat. No parking, looked like there was a standing room only wait, NEXT! So I was kinda in a bind. I was hungry; the Cheerios were wearing off, and I didn't want to go all the way to Red Lobster. Since I am still boycotting Applebees because of the crap service and food we received the last time we were there, it wasn't an option. I noticed the restaurant seemed to be open so I turned, parked, checked to see if they had seating, then checked the menu, saw some nice looking options (I was scanning for something healthy-esque and that I also didn't already have the makings for at home), went back out to scoop up the fam, then went back to check if they took cards cuz I don't carry cash much at all.
This was an Irish-style restaurant...I think mostly because it was in a historically Irish neighborhood (Evergreen Park). Actually, thinking about it, the menu was more Italian (pasta, pizza, oooh that pizza smelled divine!, etc.) than Irish...was there even a corned beef sandwich on the menu??? I had a thought about how the portions are so ... so huge. Then I thought about how greek restaurants (some) give you so much..hence, what I heard coined "Greek portions" or even Italian family style eating which seems to have nothing to do with the fact that you pass the platters of food around the family table and more to do with the fact that you get enough food for yourself to feed a family!! Yet, in the Mediteranean region where Italy and Greece are is where they're supposed to be so fit, etc. I think it's just because with Americanization comes the need to be bigger and better . . . however, that concept just DOESN'T WORK for every little thing. You can't have huge portions of food to justify the bigger price tag because well, you end up with over half of a country's occupants that are overweight, obese, or in my case morbidly obese. Okay, I know that it's about personal choices and no one told you to eat 4 Wendy's .99 burgers, fries, Frosty, and chicken nuggets or a TOTAL RAID of the McDonalds Dollar Menu!!!! But well, the whole concept of Americanization when it comes to marketing food to people is just sickening.
I think I lost my train of thought..............oh. Over in Italy and Greece...they do a loooooot of walking so they can have that big meal...but really, I don't even know if they have these BIG meals there like the "Italian" and "Greek" restaurants here in America...namely Chicago. But well, they have so much beautiful AWESOMELY BEAUTIFUL naturally beautiful and did I mention BEAUTIFUL landscape and old world architecture, art, and culture to walk and take in before, during, and after a meal. Where's my plane ticket and closed real estate deal at for Tuscany??? sigh
Well, despite my mini anti-American BIG EVERYTHING UP diet rant, I'm sure we'll eat there again...and I'm sure I'll be bringing home a doggy bag instead of forcing down an entree fit for four!
I think that's all. Gonna drink some more water. Peace and Blessings!
on track and happy
Welp, I was 386.1 or .8, I didnt write it down. However, a few minutes ago, my weight was 381.8.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
so yeah, I'm quite happy! Feeling pretty nice about that loss. So now, IF I'D JUST ADD THE EXERCISE TO THE SCHEDULE....wow. That loss is with walking only and not much more added to my daily routine than usual. I've added only a little bit more walking per day. I still have my dumbbells from years back and actually a weight set now that I remember it. Soooooooo, yeah, almost about 2 pounds a week. Average. Very content. Tomorrow begins Week 4.
So, bring on WEEK FOUR, LOSE SOME MORE!
light and easy breezy
well, i had a chicken salad sandwich a lil later than I should have but I figure it's better than what the alternative would have been a few weeks ago! While I was out today alone, I passed up so many restaurants and drive-thrus and that lil voice in me that says, hey, go get such-n-such had to be repressed and ignored. Glad to say, while I was out for about 5 hours before I returned home I didn't eat again after breakfast until I was back at home. Held out, ignored the mini-urges. It's amazing..AMAAAAAZING..how my mind can quickly forget that I'm trying to lose weight and quickly fall into hey, you're alone, you had to take a day off work so no one is at home when you return, you could just buy a crapload of crap food, get home, wallow in your own food and after-pity, and toss the evidence out into the trash cans outside. Yeah, I've done all of that before and I for the first time in my life I'm really aware of the fact that I am having to remind myself and tell myself NO, you'll EAT WHEN YOU GET HOME! YOU WILL ONLY EAT AT HOME FOOD YOU HAVE PREPARED YOURSELF!
Today, I'm proud of myself. I may have spent a bit too much money while I was out enjoying not having to worry about if my mom is stressed watching my son while I'm away from home and I need to get that in check SUPER FAST, like 10 years ago!! Okay, yeah, anyway, I'm trying to girly up my wardrobe again. That's how I know I'm doing a good job at making better choices...when I actually want to dress like I'm happy with my appearance. I'm not, but I know I'm taking steps to get there. And it's summer ...almost...despite what this doggone weather is doing I mean, we're a couple of weeks from summer and it was in the 50s during the day this week!!!...Anyway, I'm already heavy...I hate having full belly in summer heat so I tend to eat a bit lighter anyway unless I know I'm not going out (say, I'm visiting my bro out of town and we tend to sloth around) but this summer, I just don't think I'm going to be binging. Whether I'm working or not, I'm going to have to use my days wisely. Be active. Drive to the track or just to out and walk the blocks while my son is still in daycare school. He'll be in the official Pre-K program this fall. welp, sleep calls...kinda....it's been calling...I've been ignoring it.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
slow typing to remain quiet so i don't disturb the girls taking their exam...but...
I feel light today...well, light-ish. If I keep up the good work I'll be cool. I have black beans soaking in water to boil when I get home to add to the Taco casserole/pie for dinner. I think I'm going to do two things differently. Use shredded chicken instead of ground turkey, and tear or slice the tortillas instead of layering them whole. I think that will make for easier serving of smaller portions instead of trying to slice more than 6-8 slices which, if it's not cold and firm thus easier to slice (ie, slicing it soon after it is made) will just make a mess of it all. Will have lettuce and tomato with it and....water I guess, haven't really thought too much on the beverage. Maybe a decaf, skim, iced coffee? mocha? I've never made those so at home so . . . yeah, water sounds good. I think a smoothee will be too heavy for the meal. even with the skim milk I use. ooooh, a fruit fizzie...frozen fruit, splenda, and sodium-free club soda.
Monday, June 1, 2009
oooooweee!
Despite finding out today from the boss that the closing of my position at school at been completed and while she thinks she'll be able to get it back open and to not sign anything until I know for certain it won't be reopened, I can't wait. I have to apply, and then I'll be in a bind if I'm offered a position. On the one hand, I like my current position. On the other, if my position is reopened, what happens if either it or the entire school (BIG BIG IF, don't wanna speak life anything anything) is closed after 09-10? Then I'm right along with the crowd looking for a new position. All I know is I need to work. I have to work. I guess I wanna work ;), and I'd rather teach as my work. Despite all of that, I'm good. Not feeling horrible. Just sleepy...and kinda anxious. So yeah, it's sleepy time.
Week 3, Getting back to Me.
Last week I'm going to chalk up to too much meat and cake. Horrible week, horrible choices, but I think I sort of redeemed myself Saturday? Not sure. I need to figure out what to have for dinner this week so I won't be tempted to order out/in whatever you call it. I'm glad to say that I've gone another week with NO FAST FOOD! Not only just fast food, but no restaurant food at all. Feeling good about that. We did grocery shopping yesterday so I'm restocked on oranges, apples, and YES, this week is Chicken Salad week again! Made a big ol' 5 gallon ice cream bucket full of it. This time I have celery and eggs in the same batch. Got my mom to understand that if she wants to help me use up eggs, just boil them. no more cake. Had to tell her that if I had willpower to not eat all the cake or more than a small slice, then I wouldn't be almost 400 pounds right now! The point is I DON'T have that willpower that others have to stay the course and see past a month or so. I'm just trying to make it to the end of the day..as in 24 hours.. without slipping up. I say 24 hours because I could easily wake up during the night and munch on something or chug a glass of pop if it's in the house. luckily for me the only thing I want during the night most times is just water. i'm too doggone sleepy to ruin my sleep cycle with food! however, summer and summer break is fastly approaching..
Speaking of summer, I still have like 3 long papers to write for my online grad courses that I haven't even started the reading for. I requested an extention in both classes and they were approved however, it still does me no good because I really need the summer and the break from work it gives me to focus those hours of the weekdays to working on those papers. I can't really do it while I'm at work. For starters..it's like 66 degrees outside and probably humid, and yet it feels like friggin' 50 or so in this building! I seriously can't concentrate when my body temp is too cold! I can deal with warm and too warm, even hot, but not cold when I'm about to start shivering. I would open the window to let some warm ar in but the sun is not on this side of the building. So yeah, the building temp regulation SUCKS!!! no reason for the temp outside to be in the 30s and yet the vents are blowing out cool air, no air at all, or the air warms up around 2:04 when the students leave for the day and I'm only in my classroom for 41 more minutes tops!!! oy.
Anyway, I'm going to think of something to do with all these grains and legumes I have. I have lentils, black beans, black eye peas, great white northerns and pinto beans (tooo many of those and I don't really care for pintos) red beans, and a bean soup mix. Also I have brown rice .....and whole wheat pastas. I know the basic recipes for these things . . . like I have some soy "meat" crumble that I stir fry to heat through and then add that to some cooked lentils to make a lentil "dirty rice" thing. The black beans I've added with whole kernel canned corn (rinsed off) and added those to a taco bake with ground turkey, cheese, salsa, and layered flour tortillas. I haven't made that in a while...next time I make it, I'll probably skip the turkey and get the protein from the means and cheese. The red beans...red beans and brown rice. I made some white chicken chili with the great white northerns a while ago, around Thanksgiving, during my last weightloss attempt. The black eye peas..please, I'd eat those bad boys dry if it wouldn't crack my teeth!! I LOVE 'EM!
I'm want different recipes and I was looking online for some but, well, once I get into Facebook land it's pretty much over. I forget everything else I'd planned to do!! I'd make a list to remind me but...I forget to make the list! That's why I tell my students to work on their memories now and manage their time better now because it doesn't get easier when you're grown!!
Welp, it's lunch time so I'm gonna bring my grub back to the classroom cuz I know I'll probably have some girls running in trying to finish their work! Tomorrow is the final exam and then that's it. I put my grades in Wednesday at the latest and then zoof....