Saturday, October 24, 2009
dangit!
doggonit, I accidentally deleted all of my weightloss numbers on my ticker down there! I wanted to change the numbers to include my actual highest weight because I really wanted to show on the ticker where I've come from in weightloss. I did it but I wanted to also change the date to when I was 405 which was back in August 2008. Well yeah, I messed it up and put 405 as my current weight (it worked when I had it as my start weight) on 8/7/08 and bam, all my numbers from June 2009 til today were gone! DOH!! So I sent the maker a comment/suggestion asking if they still had that info saved in their system. yeah, I haven't been keeping a hardcopy of my progress. my scale only goes back 12 weeks from the time you step on it for a new weigh-in so that's not back to June . . . only til about July. Not bad, but it doesn't show all the ups and downs. I may have blogged the numbers as well but yeah, I'm lazy like that...don't really wanna go backtracking to find them. Heck, I don't even wanna clean this room but I need to cuz ...it just needs to, HAS TO be done!!
Friday, October 23, 2009
HELLO OUT THERE?
I hope everyone is still blogging "gotten in the way" for many of us but I'm still fighting that good fight to lose this weight! These circuits we're now doing in class are butt kicking but I'm learning a lot and feeling that good hurt. The hurt that lets you know..yeah, you're making things happen baby!
I just wanted to say hello and keep the faith high and the calories low!
I just wanted to say hello and keep the faith high and the calories low!
Monday, October 12, 2009
??
I guess everyone else is a lil quiet or busy as well. Hopefully there's not a boycott against me (lol). hey, my boy still thinks i'm cool as he climbs up behind me, gives me a neck hug, and is now eyeing how else he can get in trouble!!! aaaah, mommy's library book!!
anyway, last week was a good week. I hit the fitness center on a couple of off days (monday and friday) and made sure I was there friday because friday night my sister was having a birthday dinner and I wanted to be sure I had a good amount of room before going. however, I didn't eat too much at all and I had a long gap between lunch and that dinner.
So yeah, I'm doing good. Today the fitness center is closed so I'm gonna have to do some working out at home. oy.
right now, I'm stalling cleaning my bedroom. this is a wreck. it's a 100 years war! it's a work in progress that I'm really hoping will end soon!
anyway, last week was a good week. I hit the fitness center on a couple of off days (monday and friday) and made sure I was there friday because friday night my sister was having a birthday dinner and I wanted to be sure I had a good amount of room before going. however, I didn't eat too much at all and I had a long gap between lunch and that dinner.
So yeah, I'm doing good. Today the fitness center is closed so I'm gonna have to do some working out at home. oy.
right now, I'm stalling cleaning my bedroom. this is a wreck. it's a 100 years war! it's a work in progress that I'm really hoping will end soon!
Sunday, October 4, 2009
As I proceed to bend over to kick myself..
Ok, so I'm gonna b$#@! and then I'm gonna learn from it and move on.
I'm up 5 pounds in five days. I don't know if the scale needs a new battery because this is the second time I've had a 5# jump in less than a week. Either way, I could believe it thought because twice last week I indulged in fatty Chinese Food. I could have easily broken the meal up into 3 meals with a big salad and some fresh fruit to round it out. But no, I gorged on 6 big potstickers and 6 fried crab rangoons one day for lunch alone. I don't believe I had much else to eat later that day except some fresh fruit and water but still. too much.
Friday, being Friday and the day of the week where we leave with the students (a little after 2pm) I was feeling like some more potstickers and rangoons. This time, I added egg rolls and bbq pork to the mix. This time I had enough for my mom and my wee one. However, I gorged on the most because it's really like feeding 2 1/2 people because he's only 3. I REALLY need to just buy enough food for 2 people and then take part of our food and give that to him. Being 3, he's a picky eater.
So yeah, it may also be increased muscle because trust me...there's some new muscle in the short amount of time I've spent in that aerobics class because she had strength training and weights to it.
In conclusion, I must remember the old knowledge of not to be a slave to the scale. Muscle weighs more than fat right? Or it's denser? something like that. Anyway, I need to look at how my clothes fit more than what the scale says. Soooo yeah.
I also have to not beat myself up if I'm not in a size 26 or 28 by November 7th. As long as I keep pushing...I'll be at a size 28 guaranteed. Just need to give up all that food I KNOW I am not going to portion control, that I'm not going to take in moderation, that I'm not going to be able to just have a little bit of before I want to devour it all. I'll only have it if I'm out with 2 other GROWN people and we'll split the portions! And well, since I'm trying to get back to my discipline of no fast food or food made away from home (or non-homecooked, healthy food because sometimes I'm eating what someone else homecooked) I shouldn't have to worry about dividing an appetizer or whatnot up amongst people. I DO have 2 away from home eating engagements this weekend, possibly 3, and all will be to hang out/celebrate with family (my sis will be 35) and that's b4 my bday in November....and THAT'S supposed to be more about my "massive" weight loss which right now, isn't at the number I want it to be at.
But I won't be discouraged. Despite another situation rearing it's ugly head in my life, I will work through the pressure!!
Okay, he needs to be napping, I'm waiting for people to come over and pick up these pasta bakes I made for them, and I STILL had plans of running a few errands today. However, half of the day is already gone so I don't know if it's gonna happen.
I'm up 5 pounds in five days. I don't know if the scale needs a new battery because this is the second time I've had a 5# jump in less than a week. Either way, I could believe it thought because twice last week I indulged in fatty Chinese Food. I could have easily broken the meal up into 3 meals with a big salad and some fresh fruit to round it out. But no, I gorged on 6 big potstickers and 6 fried crab rangoons one day for lunch alone. I don't believe I had much else to eat later that day except some fresh fruit and water but still. too much.
Friday, being Friday and the day of the week where we leave with the students (a little after 2pm) I was feeling like some more potstickers and rangoons. This time, I added egg rolls and bbq pork to the mix. This time I had enough for my mom and my wee one. However, I gorged on the most because it's really like feeding 2 1/2 people because he's only 3. I REALLY need to just buy enough food for 2 people and then take part of our food and give that to him. Being 3, he's a picky eater.
So yeah, it may also be increased muscle because trust me...there's some new muscle in the short amount of time I've spent in that aerobics class because she had strength training and weights to it.
In conclusion, I must remember the old knowledge of not to be a slave to the scale. Muscle weighs more than fat right? Or it's denser? something like that. Anyway, I need to look at how my clothes fit more than what the scale says. Soooo yeah.
I also have to not beat myself up if I'm not in a size 26 or 28 by November 7th. As long as I keep pushing...I'll be at a size 28 guaranteed. Just need to give up all that food I KNOW I am not going to portion control, that I'm not going to take in moderation, that I'm not going to be able to just have a little bit of before I want to devour it all. I'll only have it if I'm out with 2 other GROWN people and we'll split the portions! And well, since I'm trying to get back to my discipline of no fast food or food made away from home (or non-homecooked, healthy food because sometimes I'm eating what someone else homecooked) I shouldn't have to worry about dividing an appetizer or whatnot up amongst people. I DO have 2 away from home eating engagements this weekend, possibly 3, and all will be to hang out/celebrate with family (my sis will be 35) and that's b4 my bday in November....and THAT'S supposed to be more about my "massive" weight loss which right now, isn't at the number I want it to be at.
But I won't be discouraged. Despite another situation rearing it's ugly head in my life, I will work through the pressure!!
Okay, he needs to be napping, I'm waiting for people to come over and pick up these pasta bakes I made for them, and I STILL had plans of running a few errands today. However, half of the day is already gone so I don't know if it's gonna happen.
My Apologies! Now GET UP!
Hello everyone! I apologize for being away for so long again!! I haven't been slipping up bad with the food however. I have been, but not horribly! I've been recognizing my weaknesses in the food game so I'm trying to just let those things stay on the store shelf! No matter how pretty the packaging or how much I try to tell myself, oh I'll just have one serving at a time and that's it. Not gonna happen. I was at Marshalls a couple weeks ago and bought 2 cans of these chocolate filled crispy wafer rolls. the visible fat alone once I opened the cans was enough to make the most unhealthy eater cringe a bit but ...looked past that. I was jonesin' for some chocolate!
Anyway, enough of that. My aerobics class started last month on the 22nd. That first day was woooooow! I thought I was gonna puke when I got home. It's been over 5 years since I was hitting a gym and exercising regularly!! I was exhausted. The class is on Tuesday and Thursday 6:30-7:45pm. Thursdays I have a bit of time to work with but on Tuesdays my son, for the next few weeks, has a scheduled appt. at 4:30pm. That runs for about an hour and then it's about 15 minutes getting home. I have to try and eat something before the class because I don't want to eat so late after it. Sometimes the class starts late, I guess to give stragglers a chance to get there, and it lets out closer to 8pm!!! I learned that first class that a big meal is NOOOOOOT going to make for a happy workout and rest afterward!
So, what I did last Tuesday was eat some salad during his appointment and an apple on the way to pick him up from school before the appointment. I just stretched my dinner out so it was there but not all lumped in at once.
I've learned there are things this 300+ pound body CAN do but I just don't want to have to do again until I'm healthier, more flexible, and of course, smaller in weight!!!
My weight has been fluctuating...I don't believe it's a plateau I'm in...it's a bad cycle of rationalizing eating what I KNOW I need to avoid! I'm working out now so I can splurge a bit. The problem with THAT is that I'm not eating those foods AFTER a hard workout so the calories will burn faster and the food will digest a lil quicker. But on top of that, I'm still only exercising 2x a week in class!! I DID receive the once per year free fitness center access via a prescription for exercise from my doctor, I just have to start putting the fitness center in my schedule on Mondays and Wednesdays after work. I'm QUITE sure I'll be going in earlier than 6:30 so it doesn't take so much of my after work time away. But I DO need to go. I can't use "I need a refresher course in using fitness equipment" as an excuse either because both classes last week were in the fitness center!! I guess the problem with taking an aerobics class at a public city park district is that you're pretty much only guaranteed the time slot but not the place on the property to have the class??? I think last Tuesday's class was planned to be in the fitness center but Thursday's class was there because both of the gyms in the main building were being used for something else.
Fitness center work wasn't horrible though. . .and the soreness that followed..well, we all know that's a good thing. But just you know, I had to take a pill on Thursday because that's when the soreness peaked for my lower body! Only to go in Thursday evening and work the upper body (Tues=upper, Thurs=lower). I'm looking forward to the end goal though!
As for my birthday that almost exactly a month away, if I'm planning on fitting one of these dresses I've got hanging up then I'm going to...REALLY GOING TO have to knuckle down down and up the exercising to 4x a week...5 if I'm not going out of town for a weekend and leaving right after work that Friday. However, I'd most likely only be going to see my bro so if I just danced around or ran up and down the hallway with my son which is all he wants to do while he's out there...30 minutes of cardio with that and lifting some cans of baked beans....hey, free workout!!
I know, I know, so if I KNOW what to do and what I need to do why can't I either piss or get off the pot? Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeell, we're all blogging about our struggle/journey/backslides/successess and above all ENCOURAGING EACH OTHER for a reason. Something hasn't stayed consistent and it's not our body..it's our way of thinking...it's our minds. The body can't move without the brain saying to do it and our brain does or thinks nothing just on it's own. . .at least I don't think it does. Where're the docs/scientists out there?
I think about you guys out there even when I'm not blogging like I should be. I hope that everyone is doing well and that the pounds are still decreasing/shedding/melting away!!! I hope that no one has falling back off he wagon and decided to just give up the fight. It's a fight, sometimes you win, sometimes you lose, but I've never seen a fighter, even one that's been knocked out cold, not get back up eventually! Get up! For us, it's detrimental for us to LITERALLY GET UP! Get up and get moving!
Speaking of get moving....we took the lil guy to the ER a little over a week ago because he had blood in his stools. Now, for a lil 3 year old, his movements are like, grown person sized!! it was a lil blood but the couple of days before we took him it had sort of tripled in how much was there. So I left a msg with the nurse at our doc office. Called back the next day and wanted us to take him to ER to be seen sooner than trying to make an appt. or coming as a walk-in. He was just diagnosed with constipation and that's what causes the blood when he has to push so hard. Plus he doesn't go everyday. Rx: MORE FIBER! Well, since we ALL need more fiber because I know we're not getting enough of it at home or at his school I bought some Benefiber. While there I saw some All-Bran fiber products that were on clearance. could be because they were discontinued but most likely because they expire next month. But well, I've seen old stuff on the shelves before so maybe they weren't selling good. I don't know. I just stocked up on the lil drink packets, wafer rolls, and fiber bars. Now if they only made these things with HFCS!!
Anyway, enough of that. My aerobics class started last month on the 22nd. That first day was woooooow! I thought I was gonna puke when I got home. It's been over 5 years since I was hitting a gym and exercising regularly!! I was exhausted. The class is on Tuesday and Thursday 6:30-7:45pm. Thursdays I have a bit of time to work with but on Tuesdays my son, for the next few weeks, has a scheduled appt. at 4:30pm. That runs for about an hour and then it's about 15 minutes getting home. I have to try and eat something before the class because I don't want to eat so late after it. Sometimes the class starts late, I guess to give stragglers a chance to get there, and it lets out closer to 8pm!!! I learned that first class that a big meal is NOOOOOOT going to make for a happy workout and rest afterward!
So, what I did last Tuesday was eat some salad during his appointment and an apple on the way to pick him up from school before the appointment. I just stretched my dinner out so it was there but not all lumped in at once.
I've learned there are things this 300+ pound body CAN do but I just don't want to have to do again until I'm healthier, more flexible, and of course, smaller in weight!!!
My weight has been fluctuating...I don't believe it's a plateau I'm in...it's a bad cycle of rationalizing eating what I KNOW I need to avoid! I'm working out now so I can splurge a bit. The problem with THAT is that I'm not eating those foods AFTER a hard workout so the calories will burn faster and the food will digest a lil quicker. But on top of that, I'm still only exercising 2x a week in class!! I DID receive the once per year free fitness center access via a prescription for exercise from my doctor, I just have to start putting the fitness center in my schedule on Mondays and Wednesdays after work. I'm QUITE sure I'll be going in earlier than 6:30 so it doesn't take so much of my after work time away. But I DO need to go. I can't use "I need a refresher course in using fitness equipment" as an excuse either because both classes last week were in the fitness center!! I guess the problem with taking an aerobics class at a public city park district is that you're pretty much only guaranteed the time slot but not the place on the property to have the class??? I think last Tuesday's class was planned to be in the fitness center but Thursday's class was there because both of the gyms in the main building were being used for something else.
Fitness center work wasn't horrible though. . .and the soreness that followed..well, we all know that's a good thing. But just you know, I had to take a pill on Thursday because that's when the soreness peaked for my lower body! Only to go in Thursday evening and work the upper body (Tues=upper, Thurs=lower). I'm looking forward to the end goal though!
As for my birthday that almost exactly a month away, if I'm planning on fitting one of these dresses I've got hanging up then I'm going to...REALLY GOING TO have to knuckle down down and up the exercising to 4x a week...5 if I'm not going out of town for a weekend and leaving right after work that Friday. However, I'd most likely only be going to see my bro so if I just danced around or ran up and down the hallway with my son which is all he wants to do while he's out there...30 minutes of cardio with that and lifting some cans of baked beans....hey, free workout!!
I know, I know, so if I KNOW what to do and what I need to do why can't I either piss or get off the pot? Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeell, we're all blogging about our struggle/journey/backslides/successess and above all ENCOURAGING EACH OTHER for a reason. Something hasn't stayed consistent and it's not our body..it's our way of thinking...it's our minds. The body can't move without the brain saying to do it and our brain does or thinks nothing just on it's own. . .at least I don't think it does. Where're the docs/scientists out there?
I think about you guys out there even when I'm not blogging like I should be. I hope that everyone is doing well and that the pounds are still decreasing/shedding/melting away!!! I hope that no one has falling back off he wagon and decided to just give up the fight. It's a fight, sometimes you win, sometimes you lose, but I've never seen a fighter, even one that's been knocked out cold, not get back up eventually! Get up! For us, it's detrimental for us to LITERALLY GET UP! Get up and get moving!
Speaking of get moving....we took the lil guy to the ER a little over a week ago because he had blood in his stools. Now, for a lil 3 year old, his movements are like, grown person sized!! it was a lil blood but the couple of days before we took him it had sort of tripled in how much was there. So I left a msg with the nurse at our doc office. Called back the next day and wanted us to take him to ER to be seen sooner than trying to make an appt. or coming as a walk-in. He was just diagnosed with constipation and that's what causes the blood when he has to push so hard. Plus he doesn't go everyday. Rx: MORE FIBER! Well, since we ALL need more fiber because I know we're not getting enough of it at home or at his school I bought some Benefiber. While there I saw some All-Bran fiber products that were on clearance. could be because they were discontinued but most likely because they expire next month. But well, I've seen old stuff on the shelves before so maybe they weren't selling good. I don't know. I just stocked up on the lil drink packets, wafer rolls, and fiber bars. Now if they only made these things with HFCS!!
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