I'm starting to feel pretty good about myself despite the pretty bad last aerobics class of this session last night. I still have some chest stuff happening and there was absolutely NO HEAT anywhere in those facilities. It's ENOUGH THAT THERE ARE BROKEN WINDOWS IN THE GYMS, we have to work out with no boilers? one "blew up" and the other was shut off on like Tuesday. I was wondering...uuuuh, WHYYYYYY is this fitness center so doggone FREEZING? I thought maybe because kids are never in the fitness center so perhaps they just figured us adults could "loosen up our muscles" and then try to achieve a body heat that would cancel out the 30+ degree temps seeping in through cracks and breaks and missing windows. Yeah, THAT NEVER HAPPENED!! so trying to do frickin fast-paced double high step aerobics with stiff legs from 2 days worth of lower body leg work and a chest thing happening in a frozen tundra....I was ready to cry, cuss, and walk tf out!!! but I stayed, I just kinda had to keep stopping because my legs were really just like, you keep going and we're shutting down leaving you a "cripple" for the rest of the night. we'll maybe give you some juice to drive home. sincerely, your original mode of transportation!
Sooooo, yeah, not going in I guess until monday but i'll do some upper body tonight and then sunday night....i have to add that rest day in there cuz well, after last night's debacle, I don't wanna counter what I'm trying to achieve.
And now, since I have this linked to my Facebook account....this should transfer right on over! yaaaaay
oh yeah, gettin' tired of ppl who think it's cute and funny to constantly say "ooooh, I'm gonna have to keep my eye on you" or "giiirl, you looking good! you uuuh, so what's goin' on" yeah...even if I was whoring around ....well.....no one knew my experience until i was pregnant so WTF are you keeping your eye on?!?!??! if it ain't one damn thing to constantly fuggin repeat to me EVERYTIME YOU SEE ME it's another! STF UP!!!
Friday, December 4, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
dangit!
doggonit, I accidentally deleted all of my weightloss numbers on my ticker down there! I wanted to change the numbers to include my actual highest weight because I really wanted to show on the ticker where I've come from in weightloss. I did it but I wanted to also change the date to when I was 405 which was back in August 2008. Well yeah, I messed it up and put 405 as my current weight (it worked when I had it as my start weight) on 8/7/08 and bam, all my numbers from June 2009 til today were gone! DOH!! So I sent the maker a comment/suggestion asking if they still had that info saved in their system. yeah, I haven't been keeping a hardcopy of my progress. my scale only goes back 12 weeks from the time you step on it for a new weigh-in so that's not back to June . . . only til about July. Not bad, but it doesn't show all the ups and downs. I may have blogged the numbers as well but yeah, I'm lazy like that...don't really wanna go backtracking to find them. Heck, I don't even wanna clean this room but I need to cuz ...it just needs to, HAS TO be done!!
Friday, October 23, 2009
HELLO OUT THERE?
I hope everyone is still blogging "gotten in the way" for many of us but I'm still fighting that good fight to lose this weight! These circuits we're now doing in class are butt kicking but I'm learning a lot and feeling that good hurt. The hurt that lets you know..yeah, you're making things happen baby!
I just wanted to say hello and keep the faith high and the calories low!
I just wanted to say hello and keep the faith high and the calories low!
Monday, October 12, 2009
??
I guess everyone else is a lil quiet or busy as well. Hopefully there's not a boycott against me (lol). hey, my boy still thinks i'm cool as he climbs up behind me, gives me a neck hug, and is now eyeing how else he can get in trouble!!! aaaah, mommy's library book!!
anyway, last week was a good week. I hit the fitness center on a couple of off days (monday and friday) and made sure I was there friday because friday night my sister was having a birthday dinner and I wanted to be sure I had a good amount of room before going. however, I didn't eat too much at all and I had a long gap between lunch and that dinner.
So yeah, I'm doing good. Today the fitness center is closed so I'm gonna have to do some working out at home. oy.
right now, I'm stalling cleaning my bedroom. this is a wreck. it's a 100 years war! it's a work in progress that I'm really hoping will end soon!
anyway, last week was a good week. I hit the fitness center on a couple of off days (monday and friday) and made sure I was there friday because friday night my sister was having a birthday dinner and I wanted to be sure I had a good amount of room before going. however, I didn't eat too much at all and I had a long gap between lunch and that dinner.
So yeah, I'm doing good. Today the fitness center is closed so I'm gonna have to do some working out at home. oy.
right now, I'm stalling cleaning my bedroom. this is a wreck. it's a 100 years war! it's a work in progress that I'm really hoping will end soon!
Sunday, October 4, 2009
As I proceed to bend over to kick myself..
Ok, so I'm gonna b$#@! and then I'm gonna learn from it and move on.
I'm up 5 pounds in five days. I don't know if the scale needs a new battery because this is the second time I've had a 5# jump in less than a week. Either way, I could believe it thought because twice last week I indulged in fatty Chinese Food. I could have easily broken the meal up into 3 meals with a big salad and some fresh fruit to round it out. But no, I gorged on 6 big potstickers and 6 fried crab rangoons one day for lunch alone. I don't believe I had much else to eat later that day except some fresh fruit and water but still. too much.
Friday, being Friday and the day of the week where we leave with the students (a little after 2pm) I was feeling like some more potstickers and rangoons. This time, I added egg rolls and bbq pork to the mix. This time I had enough for my mom and my wee one. However, I gorged on the most because it's really like feeding 2 1/2 people because he's only 3. I REALLY need to just buy enough food for 2 people and then take part of our food and give that to him. Being 3, he's a picky eater.
So yeah, it may also be increased muscle because trust me...there's some new muscle in the short amount of time I've spent in that aerobics class because she had strength training and weights to it.
In conclusion, I must remember the old knowledge of not to be a slave to the scale. Muscle weighs more than fat right? Or it's denser? something like that. Anyway, I need to look at how my clothes fit more than what the scale says. Soooo yeah.
I also have to not beat myself up if I'm not in a size 26 or 28 by November 7th. As long as I keep pushing...I'll be at a size 28 guaranteed. Just need to give up all that food I KNOW I am not going to portion control, that I'm not going to take in moderation, that I'm not going to be able to just have a little bit of before I want to devour it all. I'll only have it if I'm out with 2 other GROWN people and we'll split the portions! And well, since I'm trying to get back to my discipline of no fast food or food made away from home (or non-homecooked, healthy food because sometimes I'm eating what someone else homecooked) I shouldn't have to worry about dividing an appetizer or whatnot up amongst people. I DO have 2 away from home eating engagements this weekend, possibly 3, and all will be to hang out/celebrate with family (my sis will be 35) and that's b4 my bday in November....and THAT'S supposed to be more about my "massive" weight loss which right now, isn't at the number I want it to be at.
But I won't be discouraged. Despite another situation rearing it's ugly head in my life, I will work through the pressure!!
Okay, he needs to be napping, I'm waiting for people to come over and pick up these pasta bakes I made for them, and I STILL had plans of running a few errands today. However, half of the day is already gone so I don't know if it's gonna happen.
I'm up 5 pounds in five days. I don't know if the scale needs a new battery because this is the second time I've had a 5# jump in less than a week. Either way, I could believe it thought because twice last week I indulged in fatty Chinese Food. I could have easily broken the meal up into 3 meals with a big salad and some fresh fruit to round it out. But no, I gorged on 6 big potstickers and 6 fried crab rangoons one day for lunch alone. I don't believe I had much else to eat later that day except some fresh fruit and water but still. too much.
Friday, being Friday and the day of the week where we leave with the students (a little after 2pm) I was feeling like some more potstickers and rangoons. This time, I added egg rolls and bbq pork to the mix. This time I had enough for my mom and my wee one. However, I gorged on the most because it's really like feeding 2 1/2 people because he's only 3. I REALLY need to just buy enough food for 2 people and then take part of our food and give that to him. Being 3, he's a picky eater.
So yeah, it may also be increased muscle because trust me...there's some new muscle in the short amount of time I've spent in that aerobics class because she had strength training and weights to it.
In conclusion, I must remember the old knowledge of not to be a slave to the scale. Muscle weighs more than fat right? Or it's denser? something like that. Anyway, I need to look at how my clothes fit more than what the scale says. Soooo yeah.
I also have to not beat myself up if I'm not in a size 26 or 28 by November 7th. As long as I keep pushing...I'll be at a size 28 guaranteed. Just need to give up all that food I KNOW I am not going to portion control, that I'm not going to take in moderation, that I'm not going to be able to just have a little bit of before I want to devour it all. I'll only have it if I'm out with 2 other GROWN people and we'll split the portions! And well, since I'm trying to get back to my discipline of no fast food or food made away from home (or non-homecooked, healthy food because sometimes I'm eating what someone else homecooked) I shouldn't have to worry about dividing an appetizer or whatnot up amongst people. I DO have 2 away from home eating engagements this weekend, possibly 3, and all will be to hang out/celebrate with family (my sis will be 35) and that's b4 my bday in November....and THAT'S supposed to be more about my "massive" weight loss which right now, isn't at the number I want it to be at.
But I won't be discouraged. Despite another situation rearing it's ugly head in my life, I will work through the pressure!!
Okay, he needs to be napping, I'm waiting for people to come over and pick up these pasta bakes I made for them, and I STILL had plans of running a few errands today. However, half of the day is already gone so I don't know if it's gonna happen.
My Apologies! Now GET UP!
Hello everyone! I apologize for being away for so long again!! I haven't been slipping up bad with the food however. I have been, but not horribly! I've been recognizing my weaknesses in the food game so I'm trying to just let those things stay on the store shelf! No matter how pretty the packaging or how much I try to tell myself, oh I'll just have one serving at a time and that's it. Not gonna happen. I was at Marshalls a couple weeks ago and bought 2 cans of these chocolate filled crispy wafer rolls. the visible fat alone once I opened the cans was enough to make the most unhealthy eater cringe a bit but ...looked past that. I was jonesin' for some chocolate!
Anyway, enough of that. My aerobics class started last month on the 22nd. That first day was woooooow! I thought I was gonna puke when I got home. It's been over 5 years since I was hitting a gym and exercising regularly!! I was exhausted. The class is on Tuesday and Thursday 6:30-7:45pm. Thursdays I have a bit of time to work with but on Tuesdays my son, for the next few weeks, has a scheduled appt. at 4:30pm. That runs for about an hour and then it's about 15 minutes getting home. I have to try and eat something before the class because I don't want to eat so late after it. Sometimes the class starts late, I guess to give stragglers a chance to get there, and it lets out closer to 8pm!!! I learned that first class that a big meal is NOOOOOOT going to make for a happy workout and rest afterward!
So, what I did last Tuesday was eat some salad during his appointment and an apple on the way to pick him up from school before the appointment. I just stretched my dinner out so it was there but not all lumped in at once.
I've learned there are things this 300+ pound body CAN do but I just don't want to have to do again until I'm healthier, more flexible, and of course, smaller in weight!!!
My weight has been fluctuating...I don't believe it's a plateau I'm in...it's a bad cycle of rationalizing eating what I KNOW I need to avoid! I'm working out now so I can splurge a bit. The problem with THAT is that I'm not eating those foods AFTER a hard workout so the calories will burn faster and the food will digest a lil quicker. But on top of that, I'm still only exercising 2x a week in class!! I DID receive the once per year free fitness center access via a prescription for exercise from my doctor, I just have to start putting the fitness center in my schedule on Mondays and Wednesdays after work. I'm QUITE sure I'll be going in earlier than 6:30 so it doesn't take so much of my after work time away. But I DO need to go. I can't use "I need a refresher course in using fitness equipment" as an excuse either because both classes last week were in the fitness center!! I guess the problem with taking an aerobics class at a public city park district is that you're pretty much only guaranteed the time slot but not the place on the property to have the class??? I think last Tuesday's class was planned to be in the fitness center but Thursday's class was there because both of the gyms in the main building were being used for something else.
Fitness center work wasn't horrible though. . .and the soreness that followed..well, we all know that's a good thing. But just you know, I had to take a pill on Thursday because that's when the soreness peaked for my lower body! Only to go in Thursday evening and work the upper body (Tues=upper, Thurs=lower). I'm looking forward to the end goal though!
As for my birthday that almost exactly a month away, if I'm planning on fitting one of these dresses I've got hanging up then I'm going to...REALLY GOING TO have to knuckle down down and up the exercising to 4x a week...5 if I'm not going out of town for a weekend and leaving right after work that Friday. However, I'd most likely only be going to see my bro so if I just danced around or ran up and down the hallway with my son which is all he wants to do while he's out there...30 minutes of cardio with that and lifting some cans of baked beans....hey, free workout!!
I know, I know, so if I KNOW what to do and what I need to do why can't I either piss or get off the pot? Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeell, we're all blogging about our struggle/journey/backslides/successess and above all ENCOURAGING EACH OTHER for a reason. Something hasn't stayed consistent and it's not our body..it's our way of thinking...it's our minds. The body can't move without the brain saying to do it and our brain does or thinks nothing just on it's own. . .at least I don't think it does. Where're the docs/scientists out there?
I think about you guys out there even when I'm not blogging like I should be. I hope that everyone is doing well and that the pounds are still decreasing/shedding/melting away!!! I hope that no one has falling back off he wagon and decided to just give up the fight. It's a fight, sometimes you win, sometimes you lose, but I've never seen a fighter, even one that's been knocked out cold, not get back up eventually! Get up! For us, it's detrimental for us to LITERALLY GET UP! Get up and get moving!
Speaking of get moving....we took the lil guy to the ER a little over a week ago because he had blood in his stools. Now, for a lil 3 year old, his movements are like, grown person sized!! it was a lil blood but the couple of days before we took him it had sort of tripled in how much was there. So I left a msg with the nurse at our doc office. Called back the next day and wanted us to take him to ER to be seen sooner than trying to make an appt. or coming as a walk-in. He was just diagnosed with constipation and that's what causes the blood when he has to push so hard. Plus he doesn't go everyday. Rx: MORE FIBER! Well, since we ALL need more fiber because I know we're not getting enough of it at home or at his school I bought some Benefiber. While there I saw some All-Bran fiber products that were on clearance. could be because they were discontinued but most likely because they expire next month. But well, I've seen old stuff on the shelves before so maybe they weren't selling good. I don't know. I just stocked up on the lil drink packets, wafer rolls, and fiber bars. Now if they only made these things with HFCS!!
Anyway, enough of that. My aerobics class started last month on the 22nd. That first day was woooooow! I thought I was gonna puke when I got home. It's been over 5 years since I was hitting a gym and exercising regularly!! I was exhausted. The class is on Tuesday and Thursday 6:30-7:45pm. Thursdays I have a bit of time to work with but on Tuesdays my son, for the next few weeks, has a scheduled appt. at 4:30pm. That runs for about an hour and then it's about 15 minutes getting home. I have to try and eat something before the class because I don't want to eat so late after it. Sometimes the class starts late, I guess to give stragglers a chance to get there, and it lets out closer to 8pm!!! I learned that first class that a big meal is NOOOOOOT going to make for a happy workout and rest afterward!
So, what I did last Tuesday was eat some salad during his appointment and an apple on the way to pick him up from school before the appointment. I just stretched my dinner out so it was there but not all lumped in at once.
I've learned there are things this 300+ pound body CAN do but I just don't want to have to do again until I'm healthier, more flexible, and of course, smaller in weight!!!
My weight has been fluctuating...I don't believe it's a plateau I'm in...it's a bad cycle of rationalizing eating what I KNOW I need to avoid! I'm working out now so I can splurge a bit. The problem with THAT is that I'm not eating those foods AFTER a hard workout so the calories will burn faster and the food will digest a lil quicker. But on top of that, I'm still only exercising 2x a week in class!! I DID receive the once per year free fitness center access via a prescription for exercise from my doctor, I just have to start putting the fitness center in my schedule on Mondays and Wednesdays after work. I'm QUITE sure I'll be going in earlier than 6:30 so it doesn't take so much of my after work time away. But I DO need to go. I can't use "I need a refresher course in using fitness equipment" as an excuse either because both classes last week were in the fitness center!! I guess the problem with taking an aerobics class at a public city park district is that you're pretty much only guaranteed the time slot but not the place on the property to have the class??? I think last Tuesday's class was planned to be in the fitness center but Thursday's class was there because both of the gyms in the main building were being used for something else.
Fitness center work wasn't horrible though. . .and the soreness that followed..well, we all know that's a good thing. But just you know, I had to take a pill on Thursday because that's when the soreness peaked for my lower body! Only to go in Thursday evening and work the upper body (Tues=upper, Thurs=lower). I'm looking forward to the end goal though!
As for my birthday that almost exactly a month away, if I'm planning on fitting one of these dresses I've got hanging up then I'm going to...REALLY GOING TO have to knuckle down down and up the exercising to 4x a week...5 if I'm not going out of town for a weekend and leaving right after work that Friday. However, I'd most likely only be going to see my bro so if I just danced around or ran up and down the hallway with my son which is all he wants to do while he's out there...30 minutes of cardio with that and lifting some cans of baked beans....hey, free workout!!
I know, I know, so if I KNOW what to do and what I need to do why can't I either piss or get off the pot? Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeell, we're all blogging about our struggle/journey/backslides/successess and above all ENCOURAGING EACH OTHER for a reason. Something hasn't stayed consistent and it's not our body..it's our way of thinking...it's our minds. The body can't move without the brain saying to do it and our brain does or thinks nothing just on it's own. . .at least I don't think it does. Where're the docs/scientists out there?
I think about you guys out there even when I'm not blogging like I should be. I hope that everyone is doing well and that the pounds are still decreasing/shedding/melting away!!! I hope that no one has falling back off he wagon and decided to just give up the fight. It's a fight, sometimes you win, sometimes you lose, but I've never seen a fighter, even one that's been knocked out cold, not get back up eventually! Get up! For us, it's detrimental for us to LITERALLY GET UP! Get up and get moving!
Speaking of get moving....we took the lil guy to the ER a little over a week ago because he had blood in his stools. Now, for a lil 3 year old, his movements are like, grown person sized!! it was a lil blood but the couple of days before we took him it had sort of tripled in how much was there. So I left a msg with the nurse at our doc office. Called back the next day and wanted us to take him to ER to be seen sooner than trying to make an appt. or coming as a walk-in. He was just diagnosed with constipation and that's what causes the blood when he has to push so hard. Plus he doesn't go everyday. Rx: MORE FIBER! Well, since we ALL need more fiber because I know we're not getting enough of it at home or at his school I bought some Benefiber. While there I saw some All-Bran fiber products that were on clearance. could be because they were discontinued but most likely because they expire next month. But well, I've seen old stuff on the shelves before so maybe they weren't selling good. I don't know. I just stocked up on the lil drink packets, wafer rolls, and fiber bars. Now if they only made these things with HFCS!!
Monday, September 7, 2009
labor day blues
well, not really a sad day. I've gotten a lot of clerical/lesson planning work done. and I've got some time in the day before I really have to start winding down. And if Staples or whatever Office Depot is close enough now is open, let alone still open, I just might go in to make copies of forms, syllabi, etc. Problem with that is I don't want to pay for a bunch of copies I won't need because the enrollment is still rolling over and whatnot and if I make 200 copies but only have 150 students and we never have a turnover of those other 50 students...yeah, it can get a bit costly since I have a bit I want copy. Actually a couple of those things I still need to type up.
I've also been on a bit of a fast today. I JUST ate a bag of lite microwave popcorn about a couple hours ago and I've had a bit of water. The last meal I had before that was rib tips, fries, and bread around 4pm yesterday so I figured I needed to just lay low on food. I knew I wouldn't be going all out today and moving around so I wouldn't be super dizzy and tired and hungry. I've been sitting here typing and researching so I've saved some calories. I even resisted the urge to have another bag of popcorn. But well, the rib bones in the fridge, baked sweet potatoes and cabbage that I have yet to have and they were made by mom like ...Friday I think...are calling me! the boy is napping and I'm sure he'll be awake soon, within the 1/2 hour to hour and he'll want to grub...maybe....he didn't want any ribs or fries yesterday...think the sauce was a bit spicy for him and he fussed at the tingle! po baby!
okey dokey, not a long post but need to get back to posting. I'll understand if you all aren't commenting here because I haven't been stopping in on your blogs either. I hope to get back into a routine soon! I found out that I can purchase/find a cord that will allow me to use my own laptop at work through their wifi connection so I can leave that horribly slow ancient windows 95 or 98 computer they have there alone! and i don't even give those Macs a 2nd look unless it's a side-eye!! the combo of being a Mac AND being an older model...barf!!
I've also been on a bit of a fast today. I JUST ate a bag of lite microwave popcorn about a couple hours ago and I've had a bit of water. The last meal I had before that was rib tips, fries, and bread around 4pm yesterday so I figured I needed to just lay low on food. I knew I wouldn't be going all out today and moving around so I wouldn't be super dizzy and tired and hungry. I've been sitting here typing and researching so I've saved some calories. I even resisted the urge to have another bag of popcorn. But well, the rib bones in the fridge, baked sweet potatoes and cabbage that I have yet to have and they were made by mom like ...Friday I think...are calling me! the boy is napping and I'm sure he'll be awake soon, within the 1/2 hour to hour and he'll want to grub...maybe....he didn't want any ribs or fries yesterday...think the sauce was a bit spicy for him and he fussed at the tingle! po baby!
okey dokey, not a long post but need to get back to posting. I'll understand if you all aren't commenting here because I haven't been stopping in on your blogs either. I hope to get back into a routine soon! I found out that I can purchase/find a cord that will allow me to use my own laptop at work through their wifi connection so I can leave that horribly slow ancient windows 95 or 98 computer they have there alone! and i don't even give those Macs a 2nd look unless it's a side-eye!! the combo of being a Mac AND being an older model...barf!!
Saturday, September 5, 2009
*******
*mumble mumble mumble*
I have lost focus.
I have had too much food that I didn't prepare.
I don't think it ALL was junk food...but junk food has snuck back into my body.
I've just had too much food at one meal.
I will give myself credit that with getting back into the classroom this week to set things up (even though Ihave no artwork copies on the walls because I'm ordering big posters for that job until the students have work completed) and even though I may have indulged in the provide breakfast and lunch on Wednesday, I didn't eat again at home until around 8 and that was crackers.
I must get back on the saddle.
November will be here before I know it. And I WILL fit one of those dresses hanging up there.
I AM in a size 32 again after a while. My doctor pointed out that since August of last year I've lost over 40 pounds. Apparently I DID get over 400..it was 405 at one point. I guess the shock of seeing that number on the digital display was blocked from my memory.
Well, the students come back into the classroom on Tuesday. I'll start the aerobics class on the 21st. Need to start planning lunches to take for lunch. Wraps should work fine.
This boy needs to get a nap in and I should keep working on job stuff so....later all.
I have lost focus.
I have had too much food that I didn't prepare.
I don't think it ALL was junk food...but junk food has snuck back into my body.
I've just had too much food at one meal.
I will give myself credit that with getting back into the classroom this week to set things up (even though Ihave no artwork copies on the walls because I'm ordering big posters for that job until the students have work completed) and even though I may have indulged in the provide breakfast and lunch on Wednesday, I didn't eat again at home until around 8 and that was crackers.
I must get back on the saddle.
November will be here before I know it. And I WILL fit one of those dresses hanging up there.
I AM in a size 32 again after a while. My doctor pointed out that since August of last year I've lost over 40 pounds. Apparently I DID get over 400..it was 405 at one point. I guess the shock of seeing that number on the digital display was blocked from my memory.
Well, the students come back into the classroom on Tuesday. I'll start the aerobics class on the 21st. Need to start planning lunches to take for lunch. Wraps should work fine.
This boy needs to get a nap in and I should keep working on job stuff so....later all.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
:(
I need to put this past week behind me. I had horrible meals from last Sunday on to yesterday! yesterday we had fast food twice! total last week we had fast food about 4 times! Today, i haven't had much to eat...tea with generic equal this morning and boiled, lightly seasoned chicken breast and broth for lunch. why?
Could be a couple of reasons combined but I have a cold. I initially figured it was because friday night i didn't turn the table fan off by my bed so there was air blowing on me even though Friday and Saturday nights were pretty cool for August in Chicago. This has been a pretty...not so typical...Chicago summer btw. Anyway, today, I realized that might not be the only reason. Last week our church had our Back to School Bible Camp (VBS) so we had a lot of foreign germs in there with guest students from the neighborhood. not saying they're nasty or anything but...not sure how healthy a life they're living!!! I keep forgetting to take my vitamins so my immunity defenses are pretty down. Soooo, I've been taking psuedophed and I only have 2 left. i figured yesterda that today I'd grab some more to or from church but i didn't go because i woke up feeling like something ran over my head!
Mommy (yeah, i said mommy :P ) is boiling some more chicken for me, the boy has been napping for a while and he's already woken up once but he went back to sleep...however...is that him sighing now....uh oh. so yeah...I'm hoping this cold is gone by Thursday because that's when we're taking another staycation downtown! Weather forecast just went off and those days look good...really good.....not too hot, no rain forecast..we get rain on Tuesday or Wednesday but i'll probably have to water the potted plants outside before then anyway.
Soooooo, yeah, what happened last week with my eating? I could have easily made that pot of brown rice to go with the pepper steak and sweet n sour chicken I made but I didn't. instead, i turned the steak into wraps...not bad, had a lotta lettuce and some sliced tomatoes with that. The chicken though....I wrapped those in wonton wrappers and made FRIIIIIED eggrolls!!!! GRANTED I had sliced carrots, bell peppers, onions, and cabbage in that mix....would have been much healthier with a bit of brown rice. Plus I MAXED a bag of Boston Baked Beans candy AND some cookies. OY!! whole wheat pasta found it's way into the mix as well.
my weight fluctuated from like 365 to 360 to 362 to yesterday's 363.8 or .3 . Not sure what it is today.
A problem was I had to hurry up and cook a bunch of meat that I didn't freeze after buying it because I was like, well, do we have room in the freezers and I wanna hurry up and make something with these and blah blah blah. Well, it was a bad move. I've been doing good with making only enough food to last the day it's cooked and maybe the next day for leftovers. Cooking a fresh meal has helped keep me on track.
I also need to not have another bloggin drought. even if I stop in just to say feeling fine...or like crap..or whatever....
welp, the wee one is awake and hugging up on me!! he was just kissing my knee...then huggin my arm, now harrassing my knee again!!!
Could be a couple of reasons combined but I have a cold. I initially figured it was because friday night i didn't turn the table fan off by my bed so there was air blowing on me even though Friday and Saturday nights were pretty cool for August in Chicago. This has been a pretty...not so typical...Chicago summer btw. Anyway, today, I realized that might not be the only reason. Last week our church had our Back to School Bible Camp (VBS) so we had a lot of foreign germs in there with guest students from the neighborhood. not saying they're nasty or anything but...not sure how healthy a life they're living!!! I keep forgetting to take my vitamins so my immunity defenses are pretty down. Soooo, I've been taking psuedophed and I only have 2 left. i figured yesterda that today I'd grab some more to or from church but i didn't go because i woke up feeling like something ran over my head!
Mommy (yeah, i said mommy :P ) is boiling some more chicken for me, the boy has been napping for a while and he's already woken up once but he went back to sleep...however...is that him sighing now....uh oh. so yeah...I'm hoping this cold is gone by Thursday because that's when we're taking another staycation downtown! Weather forecast just went off and those days look good...really good.....not too hot, no rain forecast..we get rain on Tuesday or Wednesday but i'll probably have to water the potted plants outside before then anyway.
Soooooo, yeah, what happened last week with my eating? I could have easily made that pot of brown rice to go with the pepper steak and sweet n sour chicken I made but I didn't. instead, i turned the steak into wraps...not bad, had a lotta lettuce and some sliced tomatoes with that. The chicken though....I wrapped those in wonton wrappers and made FRIIIIIED eggrolls!!!! GRANTED I had sliced carrots, bell peppers, onions, and cabbage in that mix....would have been much healthier with a bit of brown rice. Plus I MAXED a bag of Boston Baked Beans candy AND some cookies. OY!! whole wheat pasta found it's way into the mix as well.
my weight fluctuated from like 365 to 360 to 362 to yesterday's 363.8 or .3 . Not sure what it is today.
A problem was I had to hurry up and cook a bunch of meat that I didn't freeze after buying it because I was like, well, do we have room in the freezers and I wanna hurry up and make something with these and blah blah blah. Well, it was a bad move. I've been doing good with making only enough food to last the day it's cooked and maybe the next day for leftovers. Cooking a fresh meal has helped keep me on track.
I also need to not have another bloggin drought. even if I stop in just to say feeling fine...or like crap..or whatever....
welp, the wee one is awake and hugging up on me!! he was just kissing my knee...then huggin my arm, now harrassing my knee again!!!
Monday, August 17, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
sorry so long gone!
I've just been away from bloggin...not away from eating better though. to prove that
I'M DOOOOOOOOOOOWN 30 POOOOOOOOOOOOUNDS!!!!! it may be a bit more by now because I weighed-in this past Sunday. Today, I'm going to go see District 9. Not sure if I'll even be able to chew any movie popcorn without annoyance and pain though!
why?
Last week I had my WISDOM TEETH PULLED!!!! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH THE HORROR!!! Nothing like hearing the slight crunch of tools and teeth from inside your head! I had to have stitches in one socket because she had to do a bit more surgery. Now I have to wonder if my cut up gum is ever going to heal right! I can only assume the other 3 sockets are healing okay. It's this bottom left side that's my small little hell right now! Not sure how she stitched that up but I won't really know what it's like until it's all healed. hmmm.
So I'm still here, and my sis is okay. I think you misread what Bonnie said. she was calling me sister!
I've just been a bit tired these past couple of weeks. Sorry to keep you all waiting.
I've also made another reservation for me, the boy, and my mom before I return back to work and she starts her real retirement! the boy, the only thing different for him is he's been able to sleep in a bit but he still goes to daycare. This year though, he'll be officially in Pre-School classes with the bigger kids! next year I think is when I'll enroll him in a bigger school.
I'M DOOOOOOOOOOOWN 30 POOOOOOOOOOOOUNDS!!!!! it may be a bit more by now because I weighed-in this past Sunday. Today, I'm going to go see District 9. Not sure if I'll even be able to chew any movie popcorn without annoyance and pain though!
why?
Last week I had my WISDOM TEETH PULLED!!!! OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH THE HORROR!!! Nothing like hearing the slight crunch of tools and teeth from inside your head! I had to have stitches in one socket because she had to do a bit more surgery. Now I have to wonder if my cut up gum is ever going to heal right! I can only assume the other 3 sockets are healing okay. It's this bottom left side that's my small little hell right now! Not sure how she stitched that up but I won't really know what it's like until it's all healed. hmmm.
So I'm still here, and my sis is okay. I think you misread what Bonnie said. she was calling me sister!
I've just been a bit tired these past couple of weeks. Sorry to keep you all waiting.
I've also made another reservation for me, the boy, and my mom before I return back to work and she starts her real retirement! the boy, the only thing different for him is he's been able to sleep in a bit but he still goes to daycare. This year though, he'll be officially in Pre-School classes with the bigger kids! next year I think is when I'll enroll him in a bigger school.
Sunday, August 2, 2009
I'm still breathing!
I'm still alive....I've lagged behind in the blogging area. I'll try to post more tonight or later after church.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
taking stock
quick note...I'll probably weigh in tomorrow. I'm ..."empty" but I also ate right before emptying out! yeah, another TMI moment but well...yeah.
I need to write down all of the food I have that really needs to be eaten!! Aside from maybe getting bread for mom and the boy, we REALLY could stand to just slow down our spending!!! I'm gonna have to try and get mom a home business or something to do...maybe she could start making clothes again...even if it's just baby clothes...maybe even baby clothes to donate to drug addicted or abandoned babies in hospitals or in the DCFS system. SOMETHING so she's not at home doing laundry, cleaning, or wanting to spend all of her money because she's retired and doesn't have to wake up anymore to head into work. Plus, it'll help keep her mind sharp I think. Not sure if we need to invest in a surveillance system or not.
Anyway, God is Good that we can afford these groceries...i just do NOT want her blowing through her money now when we really DON'T need to do much shopping right now.
We went to my sister's for a jewelry show this morning and b4 we left ran her by the grocery store. I didn't really think we needed anything yet we left with $40+ worth of stuff. That didn't include my sister's stuff...she paid for her own. So yeah, I really need make as accurate a list as I can so I can start to look at all these cookbooks I have and figure out what I can make that serves 3-4 people and won't be soooooo high in cals and fat!
Okey dokey, I hope everyone of you reading is well and doing great in your quest for a smaller you. Today, I wore a pair of jeans that .....wow, I'm really 20+ pounds lighter; just had to type what I was happily thinking....used to be a little tight. I'm not sure if I'm going to purchase jeans from that store anymore though...they all seem to be low-riding or lay about an inch below the waist line. Plus the crotch area never really comes UP to the crotch and yet the jeans don't stay up. not sure if that's a too small or too big issue or just a "you paid only $18 for these, what do you expect" issue? I really don't understand why you would make a size 30-ANYTHING in low rise or any unflattering cut of clothing in that size or bigger. I don't wanna wear it and I definitely don't wanna see it!!!
okey dokey...
I need to write down all of the food I have that really needs to be eaten!! Aside from maybe getting bread for mom and the boy, we REALLY could stand to just slow down our spending!!! I'm gonna have to try and get mom a home business or something to do...maybe she could start making clothes again...even if it's just baby clothes...maybe even baby clothes to donate to drug addicted or abandoned babies in hospitals or in the DCFS system. SOMETHING so she's not at home doing laundry, cleaning, or wanting to spend all of her money because she's retired and doesn't have to wake up anymore to head into work. Plus, it'll help keep her mind sharp I think. Not sure if we need to invest in a surveillance system or not.
Anyway, God is Good that we can afford these groceries...i just do NOT want her blowing through her money now when we really DON'T need to do much shopping right now.
We went to my sister's for a jewelry show this morning and b4 we left ran her by the grocery store. I didn't really think we needed anything yet we left with $40+ worth of stuff. That didn't include my sister's stuff...she paid for her own. So yeah, I really need make as accurate a list as I can so I can start to look at all these cookbooks I have and figure out what I can make that serves 3-4 people and won't be soooooo high in cals and fat!
Okey dokey, I hope everyone of you reading is well and doing great in your quest for a smaller you. Today, I wore a pair of jeans that .....wow, I'm really 20+ pounds lighter; just had to type what I was happily thinking....used to be a little tight. I'm not sure if I'm going to purchase jeans from that store anymore though...they all seem to be low-riding or lay about an inch below the waist line. Plus the crotch area never really comes UP to the crotch and yet the jeans don't stay up. not sure if that's a too small or too big issue or just a "you paid only $18 for these, what do you expect" issue? I really don't understand why you would make a size 30-ANYTHING in low rise or any unflattering cut of clothing in that size or bigger. I don't wanna wear it and I definitely don't wanna see it!!!
okey dokey...
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
la la la la la la laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
numming on a 80cal, 0 fat Peach yogurt. I've learned that well, I just need to pay a lil extra for this Dannon Light & Fit brand and save 20 calories cuz the portion is 2 oz. smaller...and make up for the smaller amount but higher cost with bigger taste! I'd been getting the cheaper, 8oz. Aldi brand yogurt and after having the Dannon..and then going back to the Aldi brand...I just...I couldn't stay! Luckily Jewel usually has it on sale 10/$5...the sale that ended today was 10/$4...not sure if that's part of their price knock down thing they've been doing recently but I'll take it! grabbed 6 peach and 4 lemon chiffon.
So, without keeping a physical, written journal, I believe I have stayed below 2000 calories since Sunday. Since I've decided to start watching what I eat more closely and preparing 95% of my meals (I add that -%5 because I do sometimes have McDonalds and try to allow for some "spoil the family" with a meal out) I've been naturally staying under 2000 calories. It's somewhere between 400 and 900 more calories when the pounds don't come off...they stay stagnant or increase. I prefer a loss.
I also bought some whole wheat or whole grain bread products that are 100 cals a serving. Still a bit high but some are mini bagels to go with this whipped cream cheese w/honey&nuts that I'll indulge in a couple or so mornings or for a midday snack. The other is a new product...at least I've never seen it before...100 cals for it's like a sandwich bun that's been reduced to two mini-flat breads. one slice alone of this whole wheat (real ww, not white bread with some sprinkles of wheat and caramel coloring) bread I get at Aldi is 100 alone! I realized that last week and had to cut back my turkey burger from 2 slices to 1 slice cut/torn in half. Better option, and it's still a sandwich. And while I had the turkey burger with cheese, I've had lettuce and tomato with it. :D
soooooo, today I had a bowl of red berries Special K and 1/2 c. of skim milk (150), then 3/4 c. brown rice and about 1c. of chicken cacciatore sauce with vegs and about hmmmm, 3 or 4 oz. of chicken breast (est. 300 calories 350 max...could be wrong but the brown rice was only 70 i think and the tomato based "stew" is pretty lean), dinner was 1 1/2 c. collard greens, some rotisserie curry seasoned chicken..about 5 oz., and the fatty bad part was 2 2" pieces of cornbread. (I estimate that at about 450 calories).
It'd been about 5 hours+ since my last meal and I did some grocery shopping x2 before returning home and theeen I was trying to prep dinner. I was super dizzy...which happens to me a lot when I'm low on food and water..go figure. I felt sick, went to potty, didn't feel too much better after lightening my load (ha) so I had to sit again b4 falling out. Finally got the energy to get dinner and nuke it in the microwave. Knew I was gonna go for the greens so I figured...yeah. I want some cornbread
Just had the 80 calorie yogurt so I ESTIMATE (only 2 or 3 items are package info verified) that my total for today is 980...yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeah....no good....I need to eat more..at least I know I should have today...Oh wait, I had a boiled egg with that cereal this morning! not much of a big difference though.
sooooo, yeah, need to make sure I'm getting all my food in for the day so I'm not starving my metabolism.
sigh...i need to try and get to sleep before 10:30 because as long as I'm awake, the boy is awake because he still snuggles in my lil bed with me!
Don't judge me...some of y'all got fuc...uuuuh, jacked up living situations too!! LOL!!!
later all.
Be Blessed
So, without keeping a physical, written journal, I believe I have stayed below 2000 calories since Sunday. Since I've decided to start watching what I eat more closely and preparing 95% of my meals (I add that -%5 because I do sometimes have McDonalds and try to allow for some "spoil the family" with a meal out) I've been naturally staying under 2000 calories. It's somewhere between 400 and 900 more calories when the pounds don't come off...they stay stagnant or increase. I prefer a loss.
I also bought some whole wheat or whole grain bread products that are 100 cals a serving. Still a bit high but some are mini bagels to go with this whipped cream cheese w/honey&nuts that I'll indulge in a couple or so mornings or for a midday snack. The other is a new product...at least I've never seen it before...100 cals for it's like a sandwich bun that's been reduced to two mini-flat breads. one slice alone of this whole wheat (real ww, not white bread with some sprinkles of wheat and caramel coloring) bread I get at Aldi is 100 alone! I realized that last week and had to cut back my turkey burger from 2 slices to 1 slice cut/torn in half. Better option, and it's still a sandwich. And while I had the turkey burger with cheese, I've had lettuce and tomato with it. :D
soooooo, today I had a bowl of red berries Special K and 1/2 c. of skim milk (150), then 3/4 c. brown rice and about 1c. of chicken cacciatore sauce with vegs and about hmmmm, 3 or 4 oz. of chicken breast (est. 300 calories 350 max...could be wrong but the brown rice was only 70 i think and the tomato based "stew" is pretty lean), dinner was 1 1/2 c. collard greens, some rotisserie curry seasoned chicken..about 5 oz., and the fatty bad part was 2 2" pieces of cornbread. (I estimate that at about 450 calories).
It'd been about 5 hours+ since my last meal and I did some grocery shopping x2 before returning home and theeen I was trying to prep dinner. I was super dizzy...which happens to me a lot when I'm low on food and water..go figure. I felt sick, went to potty, didn't feel too much better after lightening my load (ha) so I had to sit again b4 falling out. Finally got the energy to get dinner and nuke it in the microwave. Knew I was gonna go for the greens so I figured...yeah. I want some cornbread
Just had the 80 calorie yogurt so I ESTIMATE (only 2 or 3 items are package info verified) that my total for today is 980...yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeah....no good....I need to eat more..at least I know I should have today...Oh wait, I had a boiled egg with that cereal this morning! not much of a big difference though.
sooooo, yeah, need to make sure I'm getting all my food in for the day so I'm not starving my metabolism.
sigh...i need to try and get to sleep before 10:30 because as long as I'm awake, the boy is awake because he still snuggles in my lil bed with me!
Don't judge me...some of y'all got fuc...uuuuh, jacked up living situations too!! LOL!!!
later all.
Be Blessed
Monday, July 20, 2009
that scale is on crack
the scale has me down to 367.2 or some such foolery again. I got outta the shower and just outta morbid curiosity I took it outta the box and stepped on it again.
anyway, not so much worried about that as I am about this lump in my lower cheek outside of my lower jaw. my tooth/teeth have been hurting back there for about a week now. I figured it was just a cavity at it's brink or my wisdom tooth back there acting up. This morning the pain started again and again I assumed it was the bottom teeth....even though sometime last week I thought the pain might be originated at the top....so I touched my cheek to see if it was swollen and pressed and something moved. so i felt around and the lower jaw area is where there's a lil lump. I figure it's an abscess....why do those things love me so??!! I have to have my teeth cleaned and cavities filled anyway but they're probably gonna take those wisdom teeth out too. That's gonna be a bill despite having coverage!!!! And I'm really gonna need to get in to see a dentist fast so all the work can get started before work starts back.
oy.
anyway, not so much worried about that as I am about this lump in my lower cheek outside of my lower jaw. my tooth/teeth have been hurting back there for about a week now. I figured it was just a cavity at it's brink or my wisdom tooth back there acting up. This morning the pain started again and again I assumed it was the bottom teeth....even though sometime last week I thought the pain might be originated at the top....so I touched my cheek to see if it was swollen and pressed and something moved. so i felt around and the lower jaw area is where there's a lil lump. I figure it's an abscess....why do those things love me so??!! I have to have my teeth cleaned and cavities filled anyway but they're probably gonna take those wisdom teeth out too. That's gonna be a bill despite having coverage!!!! And I'm really gonna need to get in to see a dentist fast so all the work can get started before work starts back.
oy.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
the math...is F*&&y^ KILLING ME!!!
Okay, so I'm trying to figure out if I wanna do 2000, then 1800 then maybe drop down to a steady 1600 calories a day or just go with 1800 for the duration.
Then I'm trying to figure out which of these formulas I want to use to break down where I'm getting my calories from: the "recommended" 50% carbs, 20% protein, 30% fat or my preferred 45% carbs, 35% protein, 20% fat.
However, with that above system, whichever I chose, neither adds up to what the mypyramid.gov charts for a 2000 cal diet recommends after I've calculated how many calories, grams, then ounces are in each group..namely the protein (meats and beans) and carbs (grains). Plus I don't know how to count my vegetables. I know they have calories I mean, most are under 100 per serving of a whole veg (the leafy greens or nonstarchy vegs) but they still have calories.
Sooooo yeah, I might just go back to this plan I used back in 97 and did well on...see if it's breakdown sort of matches what the usda recommended for either 2000 or 2005 (new charts come out next year). Or I might just go ahead and follow what the usda recommends for the 2000, 1800, and 1600 calorie diets.
Any recommendations? Anyone out there breaking up where their calories are going? Carbs and starchies here, meats and beans here, fat here if any extra other than what's in your lean meats???
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So far today I've had 1c. of special k, one cup of skimmed milk, and one banana. Just had about a cup of wheat elbow macaroni and chicken cacciatore, that had perhaps about 1 1/2 cups of chicken and the rest was like tomato sauce with some pepper and onion slices.
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I MUST be putting too much into this. But I figure, those calculations are out there for a reason....not just to make nutritionist and dietitians some income....hmmm.
if nothing else, it's been interesting to search the net for all this stuff. right now..my brain hurts. and since my son is napping, i probably should too.
Then I'm trying to figure out which of these formulas I want to use to break down where I'm getting my calories from: the "recommended" 50% carbs, 20% protein, 30% fat or my preferred 45% carbs, 35% protein, 20% fat.
However, with that above system, whichever I chose, neither adds up to what the mypyramid.gov charts for a 2000 cal diet recommends after I've calculated how many calories, grams, then ounces are in each group..namely the protein (meats and beans) and carbs (grains). Plus I don't know how to count my vegetables. I know they have calories I mean, most are under 100 per serving of a whole veg (the leafy greens or nonstarchy vegs) but they still have calories.
Sooooo yeah, I might just go back to this plan I used back in 97 and did well on...see if it's breakdown sort of matches what the usda recommended for either 2000 or 2005 (new charts come out next year). Or I might just go ahead and follow what the usda recommends for the 2000, 1800, and 1600 calorie diets.
Any recommendations? Anyone out there breaking up where their calories are going? Carbs and starchies here, meats and beans here, fat here if any extra other than what's in your lean meats???
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So far today I've had 1c. of special k, one cup of skimmed milk, and one banana. Just had about a cup of wheat elbow macaroni and chicken cacciatore, that had perhaps about 1 1/2 cups of chicken and the rest was like tomato sauce with some pepper and onion slices.
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I MUST be putting too much into this. But I figure, those calculations are out there for a reason....not just to make nutritionist and dietitians some income....hmmm.
if nothing else, it's been interesting to search the net for all this stuff. right now..my brain hurts. and since my son is napping, i probably should too.
a thought...coming to terms a bit....
Okay, so I think I've decided that I'm going to HAVE to journal what I eat and start counting my calories. I've have two weeks with a weight gain of 2-3+ pounds so I'd like to not have a big jump like that happen again. I HATE trying to keep a food journal! I MUST hate it since I've never really kept one more than 2 or 3 weeks! I kept one pretty decent-like when I was doing the Atkins deal. Perhaps I kept that journal then pretty well because I had to keep track of my carbs. I think it was 30 max a day in the Induction stage and I stayed there for the duration of the time I stayed on Atkins. Perhaps keeping track of my calories, the numbers and adding them up, ...maybe treating them like money...will help me stick with the recording?
I don't know why I hate the thought of having to count my calories? Is it because that's so bare bones and it kind of takes away yet another ounce of dietetic freedom I thought I had? Does it mean that I couldn't do it on my own in that area so I HAVE to start counting my calories more strictly and not just eyeball it? Am I lazy or angry or neither or both? Not really sure right now but having gained this past week and not really seeing it com.OOOOOOOOOOH...yeah...I JUST remembered...this past Sunday was our potluck dinner at church service. Second Sunday is the evening building fund service and even though the past couple of Sundays we haven't had the service because the fellowship kinda spilled past the 4pm start time.....we've still had the dinner. I remember that part of the leftover brought home were the rest of the cornbread our deaconess makes...and mom loooooves cornbread so they gave us the rest. I took the rest of the pasta salad that was really veggie heavy (yum) but I think it's gonna have to be tossed out cuz apparently that stuff can turn pretty quick and it's pretty much a week old now and we didn't take any with us to the hotel. Then I made chicken cacciatore Wednesday and whole wheat elbow macaroni to go with it. Plus the lower fat/lower cal dessert I made for Sunday...a lot was leftover so I brought that back and pretty much killed that myself from Sunday to Tuesday.
Welp, mystery solved. I may very well have lost some ounces or a pound the past couple of days but when you're trimming from a blowout gain from earlier in the week the numbers will still be higher. Okay, I know what I did wrong..and once again I need to fight those carb monsters or simmer them down a bit so I can turn the rabid pitbulls into cute lil poodles that I can play with every now and then.
So, even though I did recall what possibly led to this week's gain (and it still may be some sort of good gain, ie, muscle) I'll still try to count and record my calories so I know that if I have that 100 calorie snack pack (which I haven't had since I've started..yay) then that's just 100 calories gone. Oh well. And as much of a better option as they may be, I'm gonna have to say no to the grill chicken snack wraps at mcdonalds...or at least cut it from two to one. Two makes me pretty full, I'm sure one will keep me satisfied with an apple instead of a 2nd one, and some yummy yummy .....water. Can't have that ice filled sweet tea of theirs even though the last two times I've had it it's been on point!
okey dokey, way past bedtime....but does that mean I'm off to sleep....hmmmm
Blessings All.
I don't know why I hate the thought of having to count my calories? Is it because that's so bare bones and it kind of takes away yet another ounce of dietetic freedom I thought I had? Does it mean that I couldn't do it on my own in that area so I HAVE to start counting my calories more strictly and not just eyeball it? Am I lazy or angry or neither or both? Not really sure right now but having gained this past week and not really seeing it com.OOOOOOOOOOH...yeah...I JUST remembered...this past Sunday was our potluck dinner at church service. Second Sunday is the evening building fund service and even though the past couple of Sundays we haven't had the service because the fellowship kinda spilled past the 4pm start time.....we've still had the dinner. I remember that part of the leftover brought home were the rest of the cornbread our deaconess makes...and mom loooooves cornbread so they gave us the rest. I took the rest of the pasta salad that was really veggie heavy (yum) but I think it's gonna have to be tossed out cuz apparently that stuff can turn pretty quick and it's pretty much a week old now and we didn't take any with us to the hotel. Then I made chicken cacciatore Wednesday and whole wheat elbow macaroni to go with it. Plus the lower fat/lower cal dessert I made for Sunday...a lot was leftover so I brought that back and pretty much killed that myself from Sunday to Tuesday.
Welp, mystery solved. I may very well have lost some ounces or a pound the past couple of days but when you're trimming from a blowout gain from earlier in the week the numbers will still be higher. Okay, I know what I did wrong..and once again I need to fight those carb monsters or simmer them down a bit so I can turn the rabid pitbulls into cute lil poodles that I can play with every now and then.
So, even though I did recall what possibly led to this week's gain (and it still may be some sort of good gain, ie, muscle) I'll still try to count and record my calories so I know that if I have that 100 calorie snack pack (which I haven't had since I've started..yay) then that's just 100 calories gone. Oh well. And as much of a better option as they may be, I'm gonna have to say no to the grill chicken snack wraps at mcdonalds...or at least cut it from two to one. Two makes me pretty full, I'm sure one will keep me satisfied with an apple instead of a 2nd one, and some yummy yummy .....water. Can't have that ice filled sweet tea of theirs even though the last two times I've had it it's been on point!
okey dokey, way past bedtime....but does that mean I'm off to sleep....hmmmm
Blessings All.
Saturday, July 18, 2009
oooooh vacation
I'm back up to 372.4.....boooooooooooooooooooo...starch is my enemy. okay, not my enemy, i just don't control my intake of it well! So yeah, I need to start measuring my portions, cut down on the bread....i mean, i only had 5 slices this week but....perhaps I had too much cereal? most likely too much pasta..even though it was only eaten 2 days this week (Wednesday and Thursday b4 leaving for the hotel.
We did a lot of calorie burning, at least I did, hauling that heavy duffle bag Thursday and today and the walking at the zoo...even the walking to and from the bus stops.
This is one of those times a food journal would've come in handy quite well. hmmm, well, I'm just trying to get to the 360 then 350 mark so this is a sorta blow to the course. Won't let it set me back horribly though. I WAS wearing my underwear this time on the scale though so....yeah. don't think it made THAT much of a difference!!
I'm okay people...not gonna cry..just a lil confused right now..
OH YEAH, i forgot, it could be muscle weight gain but still a fat loss. I mean, I'm beginning to see some smaller me in the mirror. I mean...us women know ..the "girls" are always the first to go so....at least my bras are fitting again.
meh......well, gonna go reevaluate.
Blessings.
We did a lot of calorie burning, at least I did, hauling that heavy duffle bag Thursday and today and the walking at the zoo...even the walking to and from the bus stops.
This is one of those times a food journal would've come in handy quite well. hmmm, well, I'm just trying to get to the 360 then 350 mark so this is a sorta blow to the course. Won't let it set me back horribly though. I WAS wearing my underwear this time on the scale though so....yeah. don't think it made THAT much of a difference!!
I'm okay people...not gonna cry..just a lil confused right now..
OH YEAH, i forgot, it could be muscle weight gain but still a fat loss. I mean, I'm beginning to see some smaller me in the mirror. I mean...us women know ..the "girls" are always the first to go so....at least my bras are fitting again.
meh......well, gonna go reevaluate.
Blessings.
Friday, July 17, 2009
but I miss ol' flat 'n lumpy!!!!
This has been a really nice stay....even though the boy has had repeated meltdowns today...especially at the zoo!! ugh...
My body was too sore after last night's sleep though...apparently my body has become accustomed to the fat and lumpy mattress that's...hmmm, 6 years old? Paid $400 for it...and it's pretty much crap now...but it's my crap!! and my body has molded it to the lumps and sink-holes it wants. These newer mattresses . . . like the one my bro has...that's like a soft firm...UUUUUGH...i wake up so horribly sore!!!! It's so sad!
We hit the zoo today. packed us a nice lil sack lunch.
Just got back from The Rainforest Cafe about an hour or so ago. racked up on a buncha lil stuffs for the wee one. It's just a lil loud and kinda scary for toddlers though!! the animatronics (hanging anaconda sized snakes, gorillas, waterfalls, fake thunderstorms...) .. my son wasn't the only one that kept having little freakouts.
It's pretty dang cool here in Chicago for the middle of July. I think the reality of the cooldown hit me most cuz i didn't bring a jacket or sweatshirt... didn't think I'd need to so bad even though I knew the forecast (which added rain last night!) plus that would be one extra thing to carry and getting here Thursday...I would have melted having it on or stuffing it in bag or carrying it on my arm.
Did a good amount of walking today. a lil gassy from the milk...not sure why it's affecting me grosslike today. usually it takes me having a dairy blowout for the symptoms of lactose intolerance to kick in. Didn't wanna wait today....WOOOOO!!!
Hopefully I won't blow either of them outta the bed tonight!! HEH!
I'll weigh in tomorrow. I'm stuffed right now. Probably need to run around the block a couple of times!
My sis is trippin' on the fact that we've got cable in the room but we've watched local channels like we were at home! HA!! With the illegal posting of movies on Youtube I'm set! hahaha sorry. had a lil moment there.
THIS BOY!!
I have to remember to change my reservation for the end of August since the VBS dates at church seemed to have changed and they're now that same week. I hope I can get the same weekend at that hotel which is the one I originally wanted but this one rocked so if I have to come back to this one it won't be horrible.
Blessings and toodles.
My body was too sore after last night's sleep though...apparently my body has become accustomed to the fat and lumpy mattress that's...hmmm, 6 years old? Paid $400 for it...and it's pretty much crap now...but it's my crap!! and my body has molded it to the lumps and sink-holes it wants. These newer mattresses . . . like the one my bro has...that's like a soft firm...UUUUUGH...i wake up so horribly sore!!!! It's so sad!
We hit the zoo today. packed us a nice lil sack lunch.
Just got back from The Rainforest Cafe about an hour or so ago. racked up on a buncha lil stuffs for the wee one. It's just a lil loud and kinda scary for toddlers though!! the animatronics (hanging anaconda sized snakes, gorillas, waterfalls, fake thunderstorms...) .. my son wasn't the only one that kept having little freakouts.
It's pretty dang cool here in Chicago for the middle of July. I think the reality of the cooldown hit me most cuz i didn't bring a jacket or sweatshirt... didn't think I'd need to so bad even though I knew the forecast (which added rain last night!) plus that would be one extra thing to carry and getting here Thursday...I would have melted having it on or stuffing it in bag or carrying it on my arm.
Did a good amount of walking today. a lil gassy from the milk...not sure why it's affecting me grosslike today. usually it takes me having a dairy blowout for the symptoms of lactose intolerance to kick in. Didn't wanna wait today....WOOOOO!!!
Hopefully I won't blow either of them outta the bed tonight!! HEH!
I'll weigh in tomorrow. I'm stuffed right now. Probably need to run around the block a couple of times!
My sis is trippin' on the fact that we've got cable in the room but we've watched local channels like we were at home! HA!! With the illegal posting of movies on Youtube I'm set! hahaha sorry. had a lil moment there.
THIS BOY!!
I have to remember to change my reservation for the end of August since the VBS dates at church seemed to have changed and they're now that same week. I hope I can get the same weekend at that hotel which is the one I originally wanted but this one rocked so if I have to come back to this one it won't be horrible.
Blessings and toodles.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
when you're on a roll...
..just make sure it's whole wheat or multigrain (RIMSHOT!!!) hahahh..
nah...I said that because I pretty much posted an entire blog entry into someone else's blog comments section!!!! I was on a roll with my post and I knew I was going to end up pasting it here!! So..here it is...
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Your potential new buddy and possible mentee will be in my prayers. There is NOTHING WORSE than dying from something that . . . pretty much was preventable and most likely your own fault. Some people have heart problems through no fault of their own but when something is brought on by an addiction of the mind and body such as food, drugs, alcohol..even sex (HIV or AIDS or syphilis resulting in death) it just puts such a blow to you (well, aside from dying) and those you've left behind.
This goes hand and hand with your leader comments. I need my son to see his mommy eating healthier and even though i'm not exercising as much yet eventually he'll see me doing aerobics, walking more, dancing around with him...I mean...we have some lil wrestling sessions and we dance around now a bit now...but he needs to see me moving more and being happy more. It was one thing to have the fear of my obesity being the cause of my death or downward health spiral when I had no kids but now that I have a son...it just...WOW!
I'm not speaking for anyone else but I'm sure the sentiment is similar if not the same but having obesity be the cause of my death after so many attempts, successes, then setbacks to more weight than I started with is just a crushing thought. Why couldn't I conquer this? Why couldn't I have more power over my body and mind? Why did I fail at controlling myself?!? I've lost it in the past when thinking of all the things I have NO control over and the one thing I SHOULD I didn't either!
I'm really thinking I'm better than that now! ...didn't mean to take up your comment section...I think I'm going to do something I've done before and copy this comment onto my own blog!
btw, luckily for me, once my weight is gone people will have my sister to thank if they still recognize me. They'll know who I am because they know her...or they'll just think I'm her! If I eventually dreadlock my hair, by the time the weight is gone it'll probably being about 7inches long so they'll think she just locked up her hair!!
I'm 3 years younger than her but we look like twins so it's really not far-fetched!
Blessings!
July 15, 2009 7:00 AM
MightySGRhofromChicaGO said...
OH YEAH!! I have my moments of impatience but SURPRISINGLY this time around I'm not on pins and needles! I'm charged and feeling it's going to happen this time!! I really believe my faith is a bit stronger this time...it's kinda a nonchalant faith but I know where my help is coming from! I also credit this blog and the support of you all following it and leaving me comments! SEAN IS THE ULTIMATE MOTIVATOR! I think we're all putting ourselves out there for others and that sort of makes us accountable for staying on track. I'm hoping none of us ends our blogging just because we've reached our goal weight! I think that's what slips up a lot of celebs who put their weightloss out there for the public to follow and then they gain it all back. Plus they try to put their unfortunate weight gain on a "hectic lifestyle" and blah blah blah. We need to stop making excuses and just say ..it's us..it's me...Hectic lifestyle just means you have to plan your meals better. choose your snacks wiser. And if you're a Hollywood celeb with Hundreds of thousands if not millions in the bank..yeeeeah, you really have no excuse. You can afford a ..topnotch home gym, personal trainer, HECK Seattle Suttons home mean delivery!!
I also think having that digital scale to let me know that I may not have lost more than a pound but I may have lost some ounces is a big help! If I've lost 2 ounces I take it! Just this morning I was at the sink pouring water in my cereal to knock my 2% milk down to a skim substitute (oooh, don't act like you all haven't done it!!) and I thought about how I just need to keep doing what I'm doing. It's working. I'm eating what I want and I'm cool with losing only a pound a week. I know it's not going to be overnight but I'll get there....Lord willing!
okay, I think that's the rest!
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Sean posted about man he'll be meeting today that has been given a "Seal of Death", collect your flowers now notice from his doctors about his heart. I'm assuming it's all obesity related otherwise I don't think he would have been contacted through the mini-grapevine.
I've been told about the pre-diabetes markers on my skin I have by my doctor. I've said in this blog before that my dad had diabetes and before that congestive heart failure and it was a "myocardial infarction" that took him. I said what the death cert. said because I'm guessing that's a bit different from a heart attack. Or it could very well just be the medical term for a heart attack and not like cardiac arrest which could INCLUDE a heart attack eventually or something. I don't know...I'm not a doctor and I didn't WebMd any info. The point is dad is dead because of his weight. I don't want to be dead because of my weight. And I'm praying God by the hand and suffering of Jesus allows me to LIVE a long life A.W.L. ***After Weight Loss***!!!!! I'd hate to finally lose all this fat I'm working to lose with no intervention of drugs or surgery or even programs or possibly even a personal trainer short of a DVD or aerobics class leader....and on the way to a victory banquet I'm shot or involved in an auto crash that takes my life!
THAT
WOULD
SUCK!!!!!
I would also like to lose it before my grandmother passes away so she can live to see that I did it! The last time she saw me lose a lot of weight was back in 2004 when I was on the Atkins approach. I dropped about 65 pounds with hitting the gym b4 work and whatnot. But that wasn't like a size 14 or 16 which is what I'm shooting for. If I can get down to a 8 or 10 that's fine too but that's not my realistic goal until I've met my first goal. Gran'mother will be 92 tomorrow. God Bless her...she's outlived all of her siblings (7 total I think) ex-husband, one son, 3 grandchildren, a grand-niece, and I'm sure a host of cousins..she may be the last on that tier of that side of my family living. and she is a three or four times great grandmother. She's also overweight/obese and her living conditions, while quiet and suburban, aren't always peaceful for her mind and spirit.
I'd like my mom to be able to see me that downsized as well.
Growing up with an obese and rather outspoken dad....and not only feeling the embarrassment of being a fat kid, I also had to feel the embarrassment of having a big dad. That said, I don't want my son to have to feel that embarrassment of having a big mom show up for whatever. However, at the rate the U.S. is going, by the time I lose all of this weight, I'll be in an even smaller minority of healthy weight individuals than exists now! America needs to heal itself y'all!
And yet....McDonalds has introduced it's new Angus burger...what is that thing, a 1/3 pounder?!!? Really??? Yes Yes, I've said it before that people are the ultimate deciders of what they eat and parents are the ultimate decider of what their young children eat....but if you're in a bit of a bind for time or you'd just like to go treat the kids to "fast food" can't we have more options of healthier food? With more and more people crossing over into the overweight and obese category of Americans...and I'm thinking that everyone that was already there not very many have died or dropped out of the category with weight loss...who do you is helping the number increase? Children...teens...those who've probably spent so much time hating fatties or vowing NEVER to become fat catching their come-uppins...or new mothers who haven't dropped the extra weight or have gained more postpartum (I've been there...I'm STILL there..but it didn't start happening until shortly before I stopped nursing).
How are all of these people crossing over? Well, lack of exercise and moving is obvious, but I'm a current testimony that weight can be lost without exercising...it's not the best way (because you might end up losing muscle as well as fat so I have to get moving and training) and it will take you longer. But...slow and steady still wins the race.
The real problem is the diet of America is horrible. Only here do we have places suggesting to add more, make it bigger, you want this or that with this or that? We drown salads in bottled dressings without regard to how we've pretty much RUINED the formerly healthy salad! We have more stores in poorer neighborhoods that sell a umpteenth amount of junk foods, processed and prepared meats and foods, sugary, HFCS drinks, and booze & cigarettes aplenty but no FRESH MEATS, FRESH FRUITS, FRESH VEGETABLES!!!! A greasy spoon on every block. The poor even have unhealthy banking habits!! Using a currency exchange as a bank and changing making system is just....it makes my skin itch!!! People end up paying money to GET their money. I don't know if they just have no trust of banks (I don't trust leaving a currency exchange with $300 in cash after cashing a SS or public aid check in the hood) or they've messed up their credit so bad that not only are utility bills in a child's name so you're messing their credit up too, but you can't even get a REAL BANK ACCOUNT because you're ssn has been red flagged? I really don't know. It could also be because they're going to go right to the dope man to blow it all on ...whatever..or to the liquor store to get drunk..
Yeah. that last part took a personal turn....gonna try and go back to sleep now. maybe it'll happen...probably won't ...especially if I do what I'm thinking of doing and pop a dvd in!
okey dokey..I may post later!
Blessing all!
nah...I said that because I pretty much posted an entire blog entry into someone else's blog comments section!!!! I was on a roll with my post and I knew I was going to end up pasting it here!! So..here it is...
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Your potential new buddy and possible mentee will be in my prayers. There is NOTHING WORSE than dying from something that . . . pretty much was preventable and most likely your own fault. Some people have heart problems through no fault of their own but when something is brought on by an addiction of the mind and body such as food, drugs, alcohol..even sex (HIV or AIDS or syphilis resulting in death) it just puts such a blow to you (well, aside from dying) and those you've left behind.
This goes hand and hand with your leader comments. I need my son to see his mommy eating healthier and even though i'm not exercising as much yet eventually he'll see me doing aerobics, walking more, dancing around with him...I mean...we have some lil wrestling sessions and we dance around now a bit now...but he needs to see me moving more and being happy more. It was one thing to have the fear of my obesity being the cause of my death or downward health spiral when I had no kids but now that I have a son...it just...WOW!
I'm not speaking for anyone else but I'm sure the sentiment is similar if not the same but having obesity be the cause of my death after so many attempts, successes, then setbacks to more weight than I started with is just a crushing thought. Why couldn't I conquer this? Why couldn't I have more power over my body and mind? Why did I fail at controlling myself?!? I've lost it in the past when thinking of all the things I have NO control over and the one thing I SHOULD I didn't either!
I'm really thinking I'm better than that now! ...didn't mean to take up your comment section...I think I'm going to do something I've done before and copy this comment onto my own blog!
btw, luckily for me, once my weight is gone people will have my sister to thank if they still recognize me. They'll know who I am because they know her...or they'll just think I'm her! If I eventually dreadlock my hair, by the time the weight is gone it'll probably being about 7inches long so they'll think she just locked up her hair!!
I'm 3 years younger than her but we look like twins so it's really not far-fetched!
Blessings!
July 15, 2009 7:00 AM
MightySGRhofromChicaGO said...
OH YEAH!! I have my moments of impatience but SURPRISINGLY this time around I'm not on pins and needles! I'm charged and feeling it's going to happen this time!! I really believe my faith is a bit stronger this time...it's kinda a nonchalant faith but I know where my help is coming from! I also credit this blog and the support of you all following it and leaving me comments! SEAN IS THE ULTIMATE MOTIVATOR! I think we're all putting ourselves out there for others and that sort of makes us accountable for staying on track. I'm hoping none of us ends our blogging just because we've reached our goal weight! I think that's what slips up a lot of celebs who put their weightloss out there for the public to follow and then they gain it all back. Plus they try to put their unfortunate weight gain on a "hectic lifestyle" and blah blah blah. We need to stop making excuses and just say ..it's us..it's me...Hectic lifestyle just means you have to plan your meals better. choose your snacks wiser. And if you're a Hollywood celeb with Hundreds of thousands if not millions in the bank..yeeeeah, you really have no excuse. You can afford a ..topnotch home gym, personal trainer, HECK Seattle Suttons home mean delivery!!
I also think having that digital scale to let me know that I may not have lost more than a pound but I may have lost some ounces is a big help! If I've lost 2 ounces I take it! Just this morning I was at the sink pouring water in my cereal to knock my 2% milk down to a skim substitute (oooh, don't act like you all haven't done it!!) and I thought about how I just need to keep doing what I'm doing. It's working. I'm eating what I want and I'm cool with losing only a pound a week. I know it's not going to be overnight but I'll get there....Lord willing!
okay, I think that's the rest!
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Sean posted about man he'll be meeting today that has been given a "Seal of Death", collect your flowers now notice from his doctors about his heart. I'm assuming it's all obesity related otherwise I don't think he would have been contacted through the mini-grapevine.
I've been told about the pre-diabetes markers on my skin I have by my doctor. I've said in this blog before that my dad had diabetes and before that congestive heart failure and it was a "myocardial infarction" that took him. I said what the death cert. said because I'm guessing that's a bit different from a heart attack. Or it could very well just be the medical term for a heart attack and not like cardiac arrest which could INCLUDE a heart attack eventually or something. I don't know...I'm not a doctor and I didn't WebMd any info. The point is dad is dead because of his weight. I don't want to be dead because of my weight. And I'm praying God by the hand and suffering of Jesus allows me to LIVE a long life A.W.L. ***After Weight Loss***!!!!! I'd hate to finally lose all this fat I'm working to lose with no intervention of drugs or surgery or even programs or possibly even a personal trainer short of a DVD or aerobics class leader....and on the way to a victory banquet I'm shot or involved in an auto crash that takes my life!
THAT
WOULD
SUCK!!!!!
I would also like to lose it before my grandmother passes away so she can live to see that I did it! The last time she saw me lose a lot of weight was back in 2004 when I was on the Atkins approach. I dropped about 65 pounds with hitting the gym b4 work and whatnot. But that wasn't like a size 14 or 16 which is what I'm shooting for. If I can get down to a 8 or 10 that's fine too but that's not my realistic goal until I've met my first goal. Gran'mother will be 92 tomorrow. God Bless her...she's outlived all of her siblings (7 total I think) ex-husband, one son, 3 grandchildren, a grand-niece, and I'm sure a host of cousins..she may be the last on that tier of that side of my family living. and she is a three or four times great grandmother. She's also overweight/obese and her living conditions, while quiet and suburban, aren't always peaceful for her mind and spirit.
I'd like my mom to be able to see me that downsized as well.
Growing up with an obese and rather outspoken dad....and not only feeling the embarrassment of being a fat kid, I also had to feel the embarrassment of having a big dad. That said, I don't want my son to have to feel that embarrassment of having a big mom show up for whatever. However, at the rate the U.S. is going, by the time I lose all of this weight, I'll be in an even smaller minority of healthy weight individuals than exists now! America needs to heal itself y'all!
And yet....McDonalds has introduced it's new Angus burger...what is that thing, a 1/3 pounder?!!? Really??? Yes Yes, I've said it before that people are the ultimate deciders of what they eat and parents are the ultimate decider of what their young children eat....but if you're in a bit of a bind for time or you'd just like to go treat the kids to "fast food" can't we have more options of healthier food? With more and more people crossing over into the overweight and obese category of Americans...and I'm thinking that everyone that was already there not very many have died or dropped out of the category with weight loss...who do you is helping the number increase? Children...teens...those who've probably spent so much time hating fatties or vowing NEVER to become fat catching their come-uppins...or new mothers who haven't dropped the extra weight or have gained more postpartum (I've been there...I'm STILL there..but it didn't start happening until shortly before I stopped nursing).
How are all of these people crossing over? Well, lack of exercise and moving is obvious, but I'm a current testimony that weight can be lost without exercising...it's not the best way (because you might end up losing muscle as well as fat so I have to get moving and training) and it will take you longer. But...slow and steady still wins the race.
The real problem is the diet of America is horrible. Only here do we have places suggesting to add more, make it bigger, you want this or that with this or that? We drown salads in bottled dressings without regard to how we've pretty much RUINED the formerly healthy salad! We have more stores in poorer neighborhoods that sell a umpteenth amount of junk foods, processed and prepared meats and foods, sugary, HFCS drinks, and booze & cigarettes aplenty but no FRESH MEATS, FRESH FRUITS, FRESH VEGETABLES!!!! A greasy spoon on every block. The poor even have unhealthy banking habits!! Using a currency exchange as a bank and changing making system is just....it makes my skin itch!!! People end up paying money to GET their money. I don't know if they just have no trust of banks (I don't trust leaving a currency exchange with $300 in cash after cashing a SS or public aid check in the hood) or they've messed up their credit so bad that not only are utility bills in a child's name so you're messing their credit up too, but you can't even get a REAL BANK ACCOUNT because you're ssn has been red flagged? I really don't know. It could also be because they're going to go right to the dope man to blow it all on ...whatever..or to the liquor store to get drunk..
Yeah. that last part took a personal turn....gonna try and go back to sleep now. maybe it'll happen...probably won't ...especially if I do what I'm thinking of doing and pop a dvd in!
okey dokey..I may post later!
Blessing all!
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
tourist in my own town
So my sis and I did the architecture boat tour on the parts of the river downtown this morning. Had lunch at McDonalds...the sweet tea and 2 grilled chicken wraps. Knowing that I have my own skills to make those at home..I'm most likely going to just make them and then wrap them to go and eat them ..cold or cool...when I think I'm going to be away from home long enough to get hungry. That way I KNOW what I'm getting and how it was prepared. kudos.
Can't wait to figure out what we're gonna do while we're at the hotel this week. I'm mostly going to try and stay focused and have fun! Not worry about what's happening and try to get my mom to not worry about what's going on with money, bills, the house, etc. this is a retirement gift to her that we were thinking of doing anyway aside from the new tv we all bought her...that STILL isn't set up and since there's no converter on her old one..she's not watching tv in her bedroom! just so happens that I'm paying for the whole trip now instead of the 4 kids splitting it. which is why I'm going with her...and bring the boy..NYAH!
nah, like I said before, she'd most likely HATE the idea of being anywhere alone without someone who knows their way around faster than she'd even find that info in the first place. I love my mom.
I'm hoping to get a lotta walking in and hopefully my son won't get too tired and cranky. I don't think he can fit into his umbrella stroller anymore but I should probably check first. I'd like to go to the zoo, maybe the childrens' floor of the main library for him. I'm thinking of doing the House of Blues for dinner with my sis riding down from her apt to join us. I'm still searching for a nice RED eye shadow and my last check could be the MAC shop on Michigan Avenue. I doubt I'll find one....guess I'll just have to order it online.
hmmm, another meltdown...gotta go.....
Think I'll start saving up for a Tuscany trip next summer or January 2010??? by then, i KNOW i'll have earned it!!!
Can't wait to figure out what we're gonna do while we're at the hotel this week. I'm mostly going to try and stay focused and have fun! Not worry about what's happening and try to get my mom to not worry about what's going on with money, bills, the house, etc. this is a retirement gift to her that we were thinking of doing anyway aside from the new tv we all bought her...that STILL isn't set up and since there's no converter on her old one..she's not watching tv in her bedroom! just so happens that I'm paying for the whole trip now instead of the 4 kids splitting it. which is why I'm going with her...and bring the boy..NYAH!
nah, like I said before, she'd most likely HATE the idea of being anywhere alone without someone who knows their way around faster than she'd even find that info in the first place. I love my mom.
I'm hoping to get a lotta walking in and hopefully my son won't get too tired and cranky. I don't think he can fit into his umbrella stroller anymore but I should probably check first. I'd like to go to the zoo, maybe the childrens' floor of the main library for him. I'm thinking of doing the House of Blues for dinner with my sis riding down from her apt to join us. I'm still searching for a nice RED eye shadow and my last check could be the MAC shop on Michigan Avenue. I doubt I'll find one....guess I'll just have to order it online.
hmmm, another meltdown...gotta go.....
Think I'll start saving up for a Tuscany trip next summer or January 2010??? by then, i KNOW i'll have earned it!!!
I don't even know right now
what week is this? Nine?
I'm posting when I should have been asleep considering I'm meeting my sis downtown for a 10am Chicago architecture boat tour along the river. will be the 2nd boat tour this summer with my sissy :). The first was just the lake's shoreline.
Perhaps tomorrow will offer more sunlight than that day did but the forecast calls for rain tomorrow night so the clouds may already be gathering. hmmmm. well....
Anyway, I read my last post and realized that while I think I'd weighed myself that day, I didn't put my new weight in my blog post. I recorded it on my data chart but I don't know what my body was doing but I'd dropped from 370.2 (on doc's scale, .4 on mine) last Tuesday (which itself was about a 3 pound drop from I think the previous Friday) to 367.8 last Thursday. Again, digital scales and they've been pretty accurate so far. I don't care if it was just water weight..I'M SUPER GLAD! I had to resist the mini urge to step on the scale today. I'll try to wait until Saturday even though I'll be returning back home from the swanky downtown hotel getaway I've arranged for my mom, my son, and myself this weekend. A chain of 3 hotels are holding a discounted rates for teachers promo so I jumped on the opportunity! I wanted to just have my mom go and then I'd stay home with the wee one but she'd feel like a fish outta water trying to get around downtown I already know this. Trying to keep up with her room key and money and cellphone and IDs and all kinds of stuff that would keep her from relaxing! Can't afford the room service I'm sure even though they have this lil free wine hour with appetizers and breakfast or some such something. need to read the details again. I'll get a free bottle of wine though for mentioning the deal!
So yeah, I also booked a private getaway at the one of the 3 locations I'd wanted to stay out in the first place but it wasn't available. however, I learned on Sunday that I'm going to have to try and change the date. It might have to be pushed back to December :(. will see. if so, then .ugh...meh. will see.
Okey dokey, I really need to sleep. my knee hurts...i need to start walking! I'll do more tomorrow. maybe get off a few stops early and walk to lunch from there. ah, while i am up, i should look for some cheapy places that won't break the bank or my wallet so horribly. would like to do something other than the grilled chicken wrap at Mcdonalds. i should start getting that with no sauce though if I get it again. forgot about that.
NIGHT ALL!
I'm posting when I should have been asleep considering I'm meeting my sis downtown for a 10am Chicago architecture boat tour along the river. will be the 2nd boat tour this summer with my sissy :). The first was just the lake's shoreline.
Perhaps tomorrow will offer more sunlight than that day did but the forecast calls for rain tomorrow night so the clouds may already be gathering. hmmmm. well....
Anyway, I read my last post and realized that while I think I'd weighed myself that day, I didn't put my new weight in my blog post. I recorded it on my data chart but I don't know what my body was doing but I'd dropped from 370.2 (on doc's scale, .4 on mine) last Tuesday (which itself was about a 3 pound drop from I think the previous Friday) to 367.8 last Thursday. Again, digital scales and they've been pretty accurate so far. I don't care if it was just water weight..I'M SUPER GLAD! I had to resist the mini urge to step on the scale today. I'll try to wait until Saturday even though I'll be returning back home from the swanky downtown hotel getaway I've arranged for my mom, my son, and myself this weekend. A chain of 3 hotels are holding a discounted rates for teachers promo so I jumped on the opportunity! I wanted to just have my mom go and then I'd stay home with the wee one but she'd feel like a fish outta water trying to get around downtown I already know this. Trying to keep up with her room key and money and cellphone and IDs and all kinds of stuff that would keep her from relaxing! Can't afford the room service I'm sure even though they have this lil free wine hour with appetizers and breakfast or some such something. need to read the details again. I'll get a free bottle of wine though for mentioning the deal!
So yeah, I also booked a private getaway at the one of the 3 locations I'd wanted to stay out in the first place but it wasn't available. however, I learned on Sunday that I'm going to have to try and change the date. It might have to be pushed back to December :(. will see. if so, then .ugh...meh. will see.
Okey dokey, I really need to sleep. my knee hurts...i need to start walking! I'll do more tomorrow. maybe get off a few stops early and walk to lunch from there. ah, while i am up, i should look for some cheapy places that won't break the bank or my wallet so horribly. would like to do something other than the grilled chicken wrap at Mcdonalds. i should start getting that with no sauce though if I get it again. forgot about that.
NIGHT ALL!
Friday, July 10, 2009
Revealing the Wizard!!!
So I've decided to say screw who knows how much I weigh!! Not important because this blogging ...well, this time around...and having the support of others on their own journey...has me in a new sense of YES, I'M GONNA DO IT-ism!!! So I've decided to add a picture so you all get to see who you're talking to and who's talking to you!!!
I'll most likely be rotating these pics so don't get used to one!
ok, so let me explain this pic!! This was taken Christmas '08. My sis, for some odd reason, decided to give me an impulse-buy gift...of an eye-patch!! not sure if I even know where that thing is. I think it was a pirate joke!
Christmas '08 really pissed me off though..well, Christmas Eve and it carried over into Day!! I won't get into it so much as to say that I'm really tired of the selfishness of others. It's just .. . ugh.
So yeah, I'm trying to pump a lotta water in today.
my church is sponsoring a lil field trip to a children's museum here in town tomorrow morning for the lil wee ones. after that, lunch at McDonalds. So glad I REFUSED to stop and grab us some lunch earlier this morning after I went to pick up my son super early. his daycare was closing early because only 2 kids were there.
sidebar: This show, "The Ghost Whisperer" is kinda spooking me out a bit!! I can finally get CBS on my tv with this new antenna and converter box and the channels I wanna watch...apparently there's a power failure at the station so the stations aren't putting out a signal! boooooo!
I made some whole wheat pasta with jar pesto and a bit of milk to help it sauce up for lunch...along with baked chicken. Gonna have to try to get my mom to resist the urge to buy those ready to take and eat roasted chickens at Jewel. this one we got at Walmart last week...it was good but I have to wonder if the stores use roasters or fryers. those of you who aren't in the know, a fryer has way more fat because it's meant to be cut up and fried so the fat would mostly cook/melt away.
I'm gonna have to try and hit up Jewel to pick up a couple of roasters. I used the last one a few weeks back and didn't realize it was the last one until I went to get it. Those things come in real handy when you're up for some roast Grecian chicken
uh oh...son is having an outta the blue meltdown!! went from reading to tantrum!!!
geeez..HELP!!
I'll most likely be rotating these pics so don't get used to one!
ok, so let me explain this pic!! This was taken Christmas '08. My sis, for some odd reason, decided to give me an impulse-buy gift...of an eye-patch!! not sure if I even know where that thing is. I think it was a pirate joke!
Christmas '08 really pissed me off though..well, Christmas Eve and it carried over into Day!! I won't get into it so much as to say that I'm really tired of the selfishness of others. It's just .. . ugh.
So yeah, I'm trying to pump a lotta water in today.
my church is sponsoring a lil field trip to a children's museum here in town tomorrow morning for the lil wee ones. after that, lunch at McDonalds. So glad I REFUSED to stop and grab us some lunch earlier this morning after I went to pick up my son super early. his daycare was closing early because only 2 kids were there.
sidebar: This show, "The Ghost Whisperer" is kinda spooking me out a bit!! I can finally get CBS on my tv with this new antenna and converter box and the channels I wanna watch...apparently there's a power failure at the station so the stations aren't putting out a signal! boooooo!
I made some whole wheat pasta with jar pesto and a bit of milk to help it sauce up for lunch...along with baked chicken. Gonna have to try to get my mom to resist the urge to buy those ready to take and eat roasted chickens at Jewel. this one we got at Walmart last week...it was good but I have to wonder if the stores use roasters or fryers. those of you who aren't in the know, a fryer has way more fat because it's meant to be cut up and fried so the fat would mostly cook/melt away.
I'm gonna have to try and hit up Jewel to pick up a couple of roasters. I used the last one a few weeks back and didn't realize it was the last one until I went to get it. Those things come in real handy when you're up for some roast Grecian chicken
uh oh...son is having an outta the blue meltdown!! went from reading to tantrum!!!
geeez..HELP!!
Thursday, July 9, 2009
what was up with that last post?!?!
okay, what you all DIDN'T SEE was me having to delete the original posting of that last past because for some reason the font just go RIDICULOUSLY HUGE!!! In the original I had some words in a bigger font and different color but well, I guess this thing wasn't trying to feel that this time around! geeez..touchy touchy! I reduced the font...still jacked up...I changed it all back to black font color...no change. I just had to totally delete the original post and paste it into OpenOffice, change it all to regular 12pt font and then paste it back in a new posting window...a couple of times because then it started giving me html errors! I'm like uuuh...hmm, well, like right now..I'm in the edit html and this is NOT which option pops open on the regular when I'm typing a new blog post. what sort of crack is blogger smoking tonight?!??!?! geez..
well, let's see if THIS one posts with no problems!
well, let's see if THIS one posts with no problems!
I think I restarted this journey on May 17, 2009. I had a doctor appointment on the 17th ...I think. I was back-tracking through old post from May. I say that because I had another appointment today. Just to followup and check my progress. Ladies and gentleman....even though my ticker down there only says 11.4 because I didn't start using one until the end of June....
I've lost
a little over
TWENTY POOOOOOOOUNDS!
My doctor was so happy she hugged me!!! I lost twenty pounds in ...what week is this...uuuh..hmmm...this is week eight so yeah about two months...WITHOUT EXERCISING MORE THAN JUST a bit of tidying up and some shop walking!!!
The AMAZING THING AS WELL IS THIS: So I weighed myself on Tuesday...I was late because I wasn't home for the 4th and I wanted to weigh on my scale so it would be recorded. If you check my ticker down there you'll see that on Tuesday I was back down to 373.8. I'd lost that pound I gained a couple of weeks ago so I was glad about that. I figured I'd probably lost a little more but with the holiday AND my monthly visitor upping my cravings (sorry guys, but it had to be said..but Sean, you live with a buncha ladies so hahah) I ate a lil out of cut but it was still a pound less.
When my vitals and weight was taken today, their digital scale read 370.4. I thought..well, it must be off but at least it's not more than 373.8!
So I just weighed myself at home on my scale.......and it says......
370.2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!! THE MADNESS!! THE MAYHEM!! HA HA HA HA HAAAA!!!
ahem...sorry.... No madness or mayhem just .....
HALLELUJAH!!!!!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!
I'm just very very grateful and happy and ecstatic that I'm losing!!! I guess I haven't been eating as much as I thought I was! I have realized that my Achilles heel is BREAD!! not even pasta..but BREAD!! So I need to just lay low on the bread for a bit. Even though I limit my bread to real whole wheat or whole grain and if I do want pizza (with the exception of a couple of thin crust, frozen pizzas I had with salad only because I was totally exhausted and didn't want to cook) I make it myself. And if I make another pizza it's going to be one made with whole wheat added.
Also, apparently here in Chicago, if you have a prescription from your doc (written on prescrip. pad paper) to use the fitness centers in our park districts, you can use them for free!!! so I have one (one for my mom too cuz she's like pre-osteo and 66+); doc suggested doing the water aerobics. I can also use the equipment. I figure ..for free, and it gives me something to do that's PRODUCTIVE..since I haven't started seriously cleaning up my bedroom and other rooms yet...YIPPY!! I'm just kinda afraid of pools but as long as both my feet don't have to leave the bottom and if they do my arms are holding onto the side....YIPPYYYYYY!!!
I'm happy. even have to chuckle at my doc noticing that I was wearing eye shadow and other makeup and then she asked if I was on birth control....what was my birth control situation?!! hahahahahahahha....it's abstinence and my son!!!! I'm afraid of getting pregnant again and I'm still not married!! I guess she's thinking that with my "girley-ing" it up I might start dating and getting looks and yadda yadda yadda. While I do hope to be married one day..it's not square one on my checkerboard of things to do/accomplish right now in my life!
So, yes, it's been a minutes since I last posted but while I'd planned to at least try to come and say hello or something to let you all know I'm still alive...this just HAD ...HAAAAAD to be said!!!
Blessings!!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
BENIGN!!!
ALL IS WELL!!! The doctor called a few minutes ago and said it was benign. I've had abscesses in both of my armpits in the past, the most recent one in my left back in summer '07. had to have it drained, packed, etc.
From the biopsy, my arm still hurts and there're probably things I should have asked her while I had her on the phone but I was just happy to hear the good news.
the area is bruising up now..I guess it's normal??? just need to put some ice to it again. I kinda slept on the area a lil awkward last night.
I'm just very very happy!!
This will be a short post because I can't type it all!
thank you all for your prayers! Prayers works, answers problems, eases worries!!
Be blessed!
From the biopsy, my arm still hurts and there're probably things I should have asked her while I had her on the phone but I was just happy to hear the good news.
the area is bruising up now..I guess it's normal??? just need to put some ice to it again. I kinda slept on the area a lil awkward last night.
I'm just very very happy!!
This will be a short post because I can't type it all!
thank you all for your prayers! Prayers works, answers problems, eases worries!!
Be blessed!
math? what math?
last week I said I gave my son's daycare a 5 gallon bucket of icecream. well
I'M A DOLT! I realized that 5 Gallons would be one of those huge tubs of HOUSEPAINT!! what I meant was a 5 QUART bucket of icecream!! I was looking through a grocery circular and notice a 4 quart of ice cream on sale (nope, not getting it) and realized my oops moment!
I just like to correct myself. Especially if anyone was thinking I'm trying to kill these poor kids with not one but eventually TWO "5 gallon buckets" of ice cream!! yeah, math and I are civil neighbors at best most of the time.
Sooooo, yeah, it's 1:19AM cst and I really should have BEEN asleep about 3 hours ago! *sigh*....I have no idea what's goin' on with my summer/not having to go to work sleep cycle. I still have to get up to drop my son off and when I say I'm gonna come back and go back to sleep, a lot of times, I haven't.
I realized something. I remember Carnie Wilson talking about how she gave up her food addiction after the surgery...but then became somewhat addicted to alcohol. She traded one addiction for another. Don't call her weak or simple because I think I've just added more fuel to a spending problem I already have!
I've been doing good giving out gorging on foods, late night binging, sneaking away to drive-thrus for a burger and fries blowout, and other unsavory habits with food. I'm still having trouble eating these apples and oranges, and now grapefruits. I'm doing better with bananas and frozen fruit to make smoothies. Not sure what's going on there because I'm not using sugar...either Equal or Splenda..or the seltzer/crystal lite combo. Anyway, I'm getting my weight and eating habits in order. It's not perfect; I know it never will be. Doesn't mean one can't work towards perfection without losing a grip on reality.
My problem now is spending. I spend on things that are on sale, clearance, super discounted. I rarely buy things that are full price unless the full price is as good or better than another's sale price. I'm sort of working poor. If I didn't have a son and lived alone, I'd probably be considered upper-lower class or perhaps middle-class. But ANYWAY, getting to the point, my new dollar spiller of choice is make up! I've backed off of buying clothes. I keep trying to tell myself that I'm not going to buy clothes that I can't fit yet..but well, I don't want to keep myself in the state of mind that I'll have something to fall back on by buying clothes that I can fit now or even have a lil room in now.
The makeup kinda happened out of the blue! I was youtubing because I've decided I want to loc my hair. I haven't done it yet because...just because....waiting for that news basically. One youtube poster has BEAUTIFUL locs so I was viewing her vids and a lot of them are of her demonstrating how she does her different styles of eyeshadowing. A lot of brush talks, MAC products, etc etc etc. So I'm not saying I want to BE her, but I have makeup sitting around that I'm doing nothing with, I decided..well, you're losing weight...why not treat yourself to being a lil bit girly?
Well, Like I said, I have a lot..well, I'll say a "lot" of makeup I'm not using...and yet, I still went and got MORE! I've gone from the $1 and $1.99 range up to around $7. I haven't splurged yet on any $15 stuff....I'm thinking, since I'm not a pro, I don't want to spend that much unless I've received a one on one consultation on how to apply it and the different color combos that will work for my face shape, skintone, etc. It seems easy to say that because I'm art teacher and sometimes artist, I'd already know about color combos, and I have some ideas, but this is stuff going on my face. Rather than walk outside looking like a drowned clown...you know?
uuuuh, I think I'm doing some after 1am rambling!!! so sad!
but yes, I think I've always been the type of person where once I get it into my head that I want to GO SOMEWHERE to shop . . . even if I don't buy a thing (most likely i'll find SOMETHING to buy) I won't really be content until I've made that trip. I was like that before I had my own vehicle...it's worse now that I do!
I've been like that for the past couple of weeks. . .just GOTTA GO! Tomorrow I'm gung ho about checking out a not-too-far but not often visited mall and a never before visited store, Big Lots. I know they're nationwide but I've just never gone to one before. the number one item on my agenda....more makeup and brushes. Need to get an actual makeup box....perhaps a bigger jewelry box to hold the growing about of necklace sets and earrings. yeah.....Lord help me!
Since I've been awake for so long I'm hungry again but since I'm about to make myself fall asleep, I'm gonna just grab a banana and some more water.
No call from my doc today even though I left her a Voicemail. perhaps the results were not in yet to her office.
Thanks for stopping by! yeah, it's really time for me to shut down....keep seeing things!
I'M A DOLT! I realized that 5 Gallons would be one of those huge tubs of HOUSEPAINT!! what I meant was a 5 QUART bucket of icecream!! I was looking through a grocery circular and notice a 4 quart of ice cream on sale (nope, not getting it) and realized my oops moment!
I just like to correct myself. Especially if anyone was thinking I'm trying to kill these poor kids with not one but eventually TWO "5 gallon buckets" of ice cream!! yeah, math and I are civil neighbors at best most of the time.
Sooooo, yeah, it's 1:19AM cst and I really should have BEEN asleep about 3 hours ago! *sigh*....I have no idea what's goin' on with my summer/not having to go to work sleep cycle. I still have to get up to drop my son off and when I say I'm gonna come back and go back to sleep, a lot of times, I haven't.
I realized something. I remember Carnie Wilson talking about how she gave up her food addiction after the surgery...but then became somewhat addicted to alcohol. She traded one addiction for another. Don't call her weak or simple because I think I've just added more fuel to a spending problem I already have!
I've been doing good giving out gorging on foods, late night binging, sneaking away to drive-thrus for a burger and fries blowout, and other unsavory habits with food. I'm still having trouble eating these apples and oranges, and now grapefruits. I'm doing better with bananas and frozen fruit to make smoothies. Not sure what's going on there because I'm not using sugar...either Equal or Splenda..or the seltzer/crystal lite combo. Anyway, I'm getting my weight and eating habits in order. It's not perfect; I know it never will be. Doesn't mean one can't work towards perfection without losing a grip on reality.
My problem now is spending. I spend on things that are on sale, clearance, super discounted. I rarely buy things that are full price unless the full price is as good or better than another's sale price. I'm sort of working poor. If I didn't have a son and lived alone, I'd probably be considered upper-lower class or perhaps middle-class. But ANYWAY, getting to the point, my new dollar spiller of choice is make up! I've backed off of buying clothes. I keep trying to tell myself that I'm not going to buy clothes that I can't fit yet..but well, I don't want to keep myself in the state of mind that I'll have something to fall back on by buying clothes that I can fit now or even have a lil room in now.
The makeup kinda happened out of the blue! I was youtubing because I've decided I want to loc my hair. I haven't done it yet because...just because....waiting for that news basically. One youtube poster has BEAUTIFUL locs so I was viewing her vids and a lot of them are of her demonstrating how she does her different styles of eyeshadowing. A lot of brush talks, MAC products, etc etc etc. So I'm not saying I want to BE her, but I have makeup sitting around that I'm doing nothing with, I decided..well, you're losing weight...why not treat yourself to being a lil bit girly?
Well, Like I said, I have a lot..well, I'll say a "lot" of makeup I'm not using...and yet, I still went and got MORE! I've gone from the $1 and $1.99 range up to around $7. I haven't splurged yet on any $15 stuff....I'm thinking, since I'm not a pro, I don't want to spend that much unless I've received a one on one consultation on how to apply it and the different color combos that will work for my face shape, skintone, etc. It seems easy to say that because I'm art teacher and sometimes artist, I'd already know about color combos, and I have some ideas, but this is stuff going on my face. Rather than walk outside looking like a drowned clown...you know?
uuuuh, I think I'm doing some after 1am rambling!!! so sad!
but yes, I think I've always been the type of person where once I get it into my head that I want to GO SOMEWHERE to shop . . . even if I don't buy a thing (most likely i'll find SOMETHING to buy) I won't really be content until I've made that trip. I was like that before I had my own vehicle...it's worse now that I do!
I've been like that for the past couple of weeks. . .just GOTTA GO! Tomorrow I'm gung ho about checking out a not-too-far but not often visited mall and a never before visited store, Big Lots. I know they're nationwide but I've just never gone to one before. the number one item on my agenda....more makeup and brushes. Need to get an actual makeup box....perhaps a bigger jewelry box to hold the growing about of necklace sets and earrings. yeah.....Lord help me!
Since I've been awake for so long I'm hungry again but since I'm about to make myself fall asleep, I'm gonna just grab a banana and some more water.
No call from my doc today even though I left her a Voicemail. perhaps the results were not in yet to her office.
Thanks for stopping by! yeah, it's really time for me to shut down....keep seeing things!
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Weigh in
I'm up a pound this week but it's no mystery how/why! too many carbs!!! that puts me up to uuuuuh, 374.8.
one word. pizza.
No biggie...I do know I need to up my intake of solid, "unsmoothied" fruit. I make my smoothies with water and a dash of sugar free fruit punch or sodium free seltzer water and equal or splenda and frozen mixed fruit or just strawberries. that might equal a couple of servings of fruit and that kind of fills me up but i need to really chow down these apples and oranges before they go rank!!!
so yea, I know the weakness and I know I need to limit that beast to once a week if I'm going to have it! Only thin crust and mainly cheese. I used turkey pepperoni but also bought regular in case I didn't like the turkey. But it tastes just the same with less calories and I think a bit less fat. Better option for those of you out there.
I'd like to welcome two know blog followers: Losing Waist! and Stephen Baird! Thanks for the add!
Also, I'd like to Thank my other blog followers: Chubby Chick, Sean Anderson, Don, Sunny Girl, thatTOPSlady, and Stephen (Who Ate My Blog?).
Your comments and personal blogs are an encouragement to me! Let's all keep it up!!
And now.....
So, I had my biopsy yesterday morning. It wasn't bad at all. Just the thought of having a needle shoved inside of you to take samples of something that could ...COULD...be life threatening but I'm sure it's nothing, just normal stuff. Either way, please keep me in your prayers. Also, one of my fellow church members is in bought...I don't EVEN know of breast cancer herself and apparently yesterday she suffered a stroke. She can't be 45 yet and she has had breast cancer at LEAST 8 times already but she's been blessed and held on to the hand of the Lord.
So, this is a short post because I need to go get some ice for my armpit and try to keep my son from lying on my arm, boob, pit, all that stuff over there! I had my sis come out to the house to babysit for me while my mom and I attended a banquet. But I decided to skip it because I don't have any After Five wear (I don't do many banquets so why bother buying, especially if I'm losing weight and will pay $50 easy for an outfit that won't fit in a month or two). Mostly though, the biopsy took samples from two different areas so I have two small incisions so I can't put any deodorant on that pit. Shaved pit or not, it's hot out there and I don't wanna end up with one funky pit or salty sweat seeping under the steri-strips and stinging the tar outta me!
So we stayed in. and everyone ended up taking a late nap!! apparently Siesta came late, but it still showed up!
sidebar: who or WHAT is "Theodore Tugboat"?? Looks like a bastardized version of Thomas the Tank Engine!!!!! even with a human, the "Harbor Master" that intros the episode. he works from his....Harbor Master Office.....HMO...lil propaganda there eh? heh heh heh
okey dokey...
one word. pizza.
No biggie...I do know I need to up my intake of solid, "unsmoothied" fruit. I make my smoothies with water and a dash of sugar free fruit punch or sodium free seltzer water and equal or splenda and frozen mixed fruit or just strawberries. that might equal a couple of servings of fruit and that kind of fills me up but i need to really chow down these apples and oranges before they go rank!!!
so yea, I know the weakness and I know I need to limit that beast to once a week if I'm going to have it! Only thin crust and mainly cheese. I used turkey pepperoni but also bought regular in case I didn't like the turkey. But it tastes just the same with less calories and I think a bit less fat. Better option for those of you out there.
I'd like to welcome two know blog followers: Losing Waist! and Stephen Baird! Thanks for the add!
Also, I'd like to Thank my other blog followers: Chubby Chick, Sean Anderson, Don, Sunny Girl, thatTOPSlady, and Stephen (Who Ate My Blog?).
Your comments and personal blogs are an encouragement to me! Let's all keep it up!!
And now.....
So, I had my biopsy yesterday morning. It wasn't bad at all. Just the thought of having a needle shoved inside of you to take samples of something that could ...COULD...be life threatening but I'm sure it's nothing, just normal stuff. Either way, please keep me in your prayers. Also, one of my fellow church members is in bought...I don't EVEN know of breast cancer herself and apparently yesterday she suffered a stroke. She can't be 45 yet and she has had breast cancer at LEAST 8 times already but she's been blessed and held on to the hand of the Lord.
So, this is a short post because I need to go get some ice for my armpit and try to keep my son from lying on my arm, boob, pit, all that stuff over there! I had my sis come out to the house to babysit for me while my mom and I attended a banquet. But I decided to skip it because I don't have any After Five wear (I don't do many banquets so why bother buying, especially if I'm losing weight and will pay $50 easy for an outfit that won't fit in a month or two). Mostly though, the biopsy took samples from two different areas so I have two small incisions so I can't put any deodorant on that pit. Shaved pit or not, it's hot out there and I don't wanna end up with one funky pit or salty sweat seeping under the steri-strips and stinging the tar outta me!
So we stayed in. and everyone ended up taking a late nap!! apparently Siesta came late, but it still showed up!
sidebar: who or WHAT is "Theodore Tugboat"?? Looks like a bastardized version of Thomas the Tank Engine!!!!! even with a human, the "Harbor Master" that intros the episode. he works from his....Harbor Master Office.....HMO...lil propaganda there eh? heh heh heh
okey dokey...
Monday, June 22, 2009
uuuugh, stuffed....pizza was okay...probably could have been better but it was a canned/pre-made pizza dough (pillsbury i think) and canned pizza sauce I used so. It was more for my son than me. I may have come out with less fat than a pizza joint pie. Probably not much but I know for certain I will need NOTHING ELSE to eat for the rest of the evening! I did cut some lettuce and slice a tomato for some salad. Even tossed a couple of boiled eggs left over from mom's boiling to help me eat them into the salad. That wasn't all for me, it was divided by 2 1/2 people so don't think I ate a whole bunch of salad! :)
I bought a 5gallon tub of chocolate ice cream to take to my son's daycare tomorrow as a cold treat on a super hot day when they probably won't get to play outside.
I should probably stay awake to help all this digest but well, if sleep wins....
I bought a 5gallon tub of chocolate ice cream to take to my son's daycare tomorrow as a cold treat on a super hot day when they probably won't get to play outside.
I should probably stay awake to help all this digest but well, if sleep wins....
just a lil quick mmm post
So, a couple of Steak'Umms have been sitting in a, pretty much, open/unsealed box in the freezer for a good while now. Not sure if it's a good thing that they weren't freezer burned but maaaan, they were good.
Gonna finally make that homemade pepperoni pizza for my wee one! Will cut up some lettuce and tomato, and maybe cucumbers to go with it. Heat up some of this pan-roasted corn n' bell peppers as a bit of a side.
Tomorrow is on deck to be a hot one....heat index up to 100 degrees or something like that apparently. Hopefully Thursday will be cool..I forgot to mention that I think the Downtown Farmer's Market is on Thursdays in Chicago. I'm gonna look it up right now. I know I have at least the full month of July to enjoy supporting the downtown and neighborhood local farmer's markets but well, you know, this is the beginning of week 2 of summer break. *sigh*
Yeah, I dedicated a post to how good this simple sandwich was but well...yeah....
Gonna finally make that homemade pepperoni pizza for my wee one! Will cut up some lettuce and tomato, and maybe cucumbers to go with it. Heat up some of this pan-roasted corn n' bell peppers as a bit of a side.
Tomorrow is on deck to be a hot one....heat index up to 100 degrees or something like that apparently. Hopefully Thursday will be cool..I forgot to mention that I think the Downtown Farmer's Market is on Thursdays in Chicago. I'm gonna look it up right now. I know I have at least the full month of July to enjoy supporting the downtown and neighborhood local farmer's markets but well, you know, this is the beginning of week 2 of summer break. *sigh*
Yeah, I dedicated a post to how good this simple sandwich was but well...yeah....
ah, week 6...in the mix....
...started yesterday. Duh, that was a reason for posting. however, I was going to post on something else yesterday but didn't. I went out to a Tap/Bar whatever u wanna call it Friday night with an old coworker but still buddy that I had not seen in a lil over 2 years! It was cool. She's been going through some times so I figure, if she wanted to head out, I'd oblige. Heck, I WANTED OUT!! The only problem was that we decided on a night when buckets of rain decided to drop down!! Still went out though. It was nice. I made a pretty decent food choice as well.
It's a bar so you know you're not getting anything healthy...maybe some veggie sticks but well, even though it's the U of C, it's in a college/university community so yeah, greasy spoon! I opted for a grilled cheese and a small order of fries. I had some red wine as well...plus some water...lots of water! I shared the fries and also ended up eating half of the sandwich; gave the other half to my buddy! Later on she bought a cheeseburger and small fry and we split those as well. So yeah, I didn't gorge...I burned some calories talking and laughing so much so it was a great time! We'll have to do it again!
This week I'm going to hang with my sis while my son is in daycare getting his buddytime on!
Today, mom has a couple of doc appointments I'll be carting her around to...gonna be leaving for the first one in a couple of minutes actually.
Friday I have a biopsy that could make or break a weaker spirit but I'm convinced what's there are a couple of cysts I've had probs with before. If not then...well, I already know what I'll go through so. . .praying on that regardless.
Uuuuhm, what else...OH.yeah, i really need to either eat these apples fast or just not buy anymore for a while and grab canteloupes since I kinda owned those 3 I bought last week!! I was eating one yesterday and the seeds has started to SPROUT in the core!!! Not sick or anything...had I eaten them I'm sure it would have been like eating beans sprouts but yeah..I need to do something with these apples. I may just cook them with some water and splenda on the stove so they're cooked. And no, I'm not going to plant any apple seeds! The neighbor's plum trees are enough hell on OUR yard!!
Later all!
It's a bar so you know you're not getting anything healthy...maybe some veggie sticks but well, even though it's the U of C, it's in a college/university community so yeah, greasy spoon! I opted for a grilled cheese and a small order of fries. I had some red wine as well...plus some water...lots of water! I shared the fries and also ended up eating half of the sandwich; gave the other half to my buddy! Later on she bought a cheeseburger and small fry and we split those as well. So yeah, I didn't gorge...I burned some calories talking and laughing so much so it was a great time! We'll have to do it again!
This week I'm going to hang with my sis while my son is in daycare getting his buddytime on!
Today, mom has a couple of doc appointments I'll be carting her around to...gonna be leaving for the first one in a couple of minutes actually.
Friday I have a biopsy that could make or break a weaker spirit but I'm convinced what's there are a couple of cysts I've had probs with before. If not then...well, I already know what I'll go through so. . .praying on that regardless.
Uuuuhm, what else...OH.yeah, i really need to either eat these apples fast or just not buy anymore for a while and grab canteloupes since I kinda owned those 3 I bought last week!! I was eating one yesterday and the seeds has started to SPROUT in the core!!! Not sick or anything...had I eaten them I'm sure it would have been like eating beans sprouts but yeah..I need to do something with these apples. I may just cook them with some water and splenda on the stove so they're cooked. And no, I'm not going to plant any apple seeds! The neighbor's plum trees are enough hell on OUR yard!!
Later all!
Saturday, June 20, 2009
HAZZAAAAAAAAAH....!!!...???
I'm sure I'm going to redo this tonight but I got outta the shower, dried off, got on teh scale...and low and behold that bad boy said.......
373.8!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so yeah, it may have been a bit of a glitch or offness of the weight or perhaps last week's weigh in was wrong...or perhaps I just dropped that much weight!! Stranger things have happened!!! Needless to say....it's a digital scale and I'm happy with what it read!!!!
373.8!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so yeah, it may have been a bit of a glitch or offness of the weight or perhaps last week's weigh in was wrong...or perhaps I just dropped that much weight!! Stranger things have happened!!! Needless to say....it's a digital scale and I'm happy with what it read!!!!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
meh...
meh....feelin' decent. waiting to hear from the towing company assigned by Kars 4 Kids to pick up the busted car I bought for my sis. Okay, I didn't know it was busted and her friend didn't have it totally looked over save for the radiator she knew needed replacing. Paid $500 for the car and $300+ for the new radiator. She paid $70 to have a full diagnostic done on the car and the repairs it needs are way more than the care is even WORTH! (needs a new transmission which I could feel shortly after buying it even though I test drove it myself.)
Live and learn. just buy new used or new!
now, my van is doing okay but it's 4 years younger than her car (same car company; Plymouth).
As for my essays that are due....a masterpiece of NOTHING! I decided that I'm going to just take the D and F I'll end up getting and retake the courses one at a time...however, not necessarily right this fall....I don't have to take the courses in any order accept the last, thesis course.
I decided on that because, while I'm going to have to eat the costs of those courses, I'm really stressed out when it comes to trying to even read the books to research the topics. The problem is everytime I get to reading one my mind wanders or I'm focused but then I get super sleepy!!! It's not like they aren't topics I have an interest in because I CHOSE THEM!!
I think I'm just intimidated by having to pull 10-12 pages out of my ass when the most I've written on a regular basis is maybe 5 pages and at most one or two 8pagers.
Now, this decision to just chuck 'em out and redo the courses later down the road won't be final until I've let Monday come and go and I've submitted nothing. Monday is the deadline, not Wednesday like I kept thinking. two days means a lot when you're a procrastinator!
I'm sure I'm going to try again..I've got tomorrow without the boy at home and then Friday I'm sure mom will cart him off downstairs while I try to get this stuff finished up here. I can only try. I've got that.
Live and learn. just buy new used or new!
now, my van is doing okay but it's 4 years younger than her car (same car company; Plymouth).
As for my essays that are due....a masterpiece of NOTHING! I decided that I'm going to just take the D and F I'll end up getting and retake the courses one at a time...however, not necessarily right this fall....I don't have to take the courses in any order accept the last, thesis course.
I decided on that because, while I'm going to have to eat the costs of those courses, I'm really stressed out when it comes to trying to even read the books to research the topics. The problem is everytime I get to reading one my mind wanders or I'm focused but then I get super sleepy!!! It's not like they aren't topics I have an interest in because I CHOSE THEM!!
I think I'm just intimidated by having to pull 10-12 pages out of my ass when the most I've written on a regular basis is maybe 5 pages and at most one or two 8pagers.
Now, this decision to just chuck 'em out and redo the courses later down the road won't be final until I've let Monday come and go and I've submitted nothing. Monday is the deadline, not Wednesday like I kept thinking. two days means a lot when you're a procrastinator!
I'm sure I'm going to try again..I've got tomorrow without the boy at home and then Friday I'm sure mom will cart him off downstairs while I try to get this stuff finished up here. I can only try. I've got that.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
weigh in
With the dessert prep (which was just a delicious as it's regular counterpart btw) last night I forgot to do my weigh-in until late last night. I'm down to 380.4! Not quite a 2 pound loss but I had to tell myself IT'S A LOSS so DO NOT FEEL LIKE YOU SUCK AT THIS! I'm going to fight with myself to stay awake (if that means downing a pot of coffee then bring on Mr. Coffee and Juan Valdez to create unholy partnership of caffeine and heat) and get these papers finished and submitted this week so I can be DONE with these to grad courses once and for all!! I'm really rethinking it. I still want/need the master degree but do I want to continue to pursue it the online route? I know it's me and my horrid time management but for now, it's the easiest way to go.
But sometimes, easy isn't always best so...
I should be able to get these papers finished though since my son will still be in daycare/preschool over the summer while I'm on summer break.
I need to update my lil ticker down there. At first, the scale said 379.1 or something like that but I was trying to get it to save the results for my user number and the tapping and standing thing I'm supposed to do wasn't working. So yesterday's results aren't saved. When I weigh this Saturday I will have re-read the manual again so I know what line dance movement I'm supposed to do to get it to work (tap tap shuffle turn scoot scoot your caboose)! But yeah, 379.1 then the last 3 times it said 380.4 so that's what I'm going with. No big deal (even if I didn't think that last night.
As usual I'm sleepy. . . so with that....
Peace and Be Blessed!
But sometimes, easy isn't always best so...
I should be able to get these papers finished though since my son will still be in daycare/preschool over the summer while I'm on summer break.
I need to update my lil ticker down there. At first, the scale said 379.1 or something like that but I was trying to get it to save the results for my user number and the tapping and standing thing I'm supposed to do wasn't working. So yesterday's results aren't saved. When I weigh this Saturday I will have re-read the manual again so I know what line dance movement I'm supposed to do to get it to work (tap tap shuffle turn scoot scoot your caboose)! But yeah, 379.1 then the last 3 times it said 380.4 so that's what I'm going with. No big deal (even if I didn't think that last night.
As usual I'm sleepy. . . so with that....
Peace and Be Blessed!
Saturday, June 13, 2009
slimmed down dessert
Building Fund service is tomorrow evening at 4 and we have a potluck dinner in between services. I'm going to take a Tiramisu Bowl ( http://www.kraftfoods.com/kf/recipes/tiramisu-bowl-106862.aspx ) that is trimmed back a bit. I've had and made it the regular way before but, well, not only do I need to lose weight but so many in our small congregation need to as well and/or are diabetic. So I'm going to use fat-free/sugar-free vanilla pudding, skim milk (outta skim so watered down whole instead), Reduced Fat Vanilla Wafers, 1/3less fat cream cheese, Splenda, uuuuuuh oh, and either fat-free or low-fat whipped topping.
I'm sure hey won't complain and since I'd like to be able to have a taste of it without feeling like I've cheated, I need to make it this way. So be it.
I'm super sleepy so I need to get to cracking before I end up having to wake up tomorrow morning to make it!
I'm sure hey won't complain and since I'd like to be able to have a taste of it without feeling like I've cheated, I need to make it this way. So be it.
I'm super sleepy so I need to get to cracking before I end up having to wake up tomorrow morning to make it!
Friday, June 12, 2009
howdy all
Perhaps it was the excitement of today being the last day of school and they beginning of summer break and the fact that I'd have some time to myself before I had to go pick up the boy but the only thing I had to eat...or drink...was the bowl of Cheerios around 7am. I didn't eat again until about 2:30pm. I could have grabbed something at Panera Bread but I refused. I could have stopped somewhere but I didn't. I wasn't starving and I remembered I had an apple in the van. I still didn't eat until I got home. And I did a LOT between getting to work and returning back home! Did some last minute straightening up of my room, then after I left I went to World Market a few blocks away from work. I was in the mood for a bottle of red to let sit. I'm afraid of the one I have though (suggested) because it only has an alcohol volume of 5.5% which seems like it's going to be very very week and possibly too sweet...like a port. And I don't want a port. I guess I'll have to stick to a 12.5% and let it breathe a little longer before drinking it. I'll judge it once I try it. I've still got a Chianti sitting from my last visit there. I also picked up some Italian Lemon Soda...really good...I could make it myself with some club soda, fresh lemon juice, and instead of the cane sugar, I'd have splenda...maybe honey. Save myself some calories. Plus, I picked up some sun-dried tomatoes and dry salami. The salami smelled like spicy a$$...and tasted like it smelled. Something told me NOT to get it but I did. 2.49 pissed away cuz I tossed that and spit out what I had and rinsed my mouth it was so bad! I'll just stick to regular old Genoa hard salami if I want a treat. Aldi has that already sliced.....AAAAND, fresh mozzerrella!! I know this because I stopped by there to replenish some fresh veggies and booooy howdy, they had strawberries for .99, cantelope for .99, and red grapefruits for .29!! Those were right by the entrance!! YAY! Picked up some Roma tomatoes, a couple of cucumbers and heads of lettuce, some bags of frozen chicken breasts and a whole fryer chicken. I trim the excess fat from the chicken and roast it with herbs. I can't wait to cook this one...it's in the fridge thawing now. I have some red potatoes to roast as well. Perhaps some fresh green beans. Speaking of which, I need to go put those beans in the ground! The peas are growing nicely and I'm sure it's time to pick some more collards.
Sooo, I'm going to (again) look for recipes because days at home mean more opportunities to goof off with the food and eating right. I will be trying to get out and do some more walking. And ....use the dvds I bought.
So, yeah, I just had some light microwave popcorn (shared with my son), some slushified lemon soda (mmmm), water, and now here I am. Sleepy because of all the running around I've done the past couple of days and excitement. Gonna cut this here. If something more peaks my typing fancy, I'll be back.
Sooo, I'm going to (again) look for recipes because days at home mean more opportunities to goof off with the food and eating right. I will be trying to get out and do some more walking. And ....use the dvds I bought.
So, yeah, I just had some light microwave popcorn (shared with my son), some slushified lemon soda (mmmm), water, and now here I am. Sleepy because of all the running around I've done the past couple of days and excitement. Gonna cut this here. If something more peaks my typing fancy, I'll be back.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
I'm soooo freaking tired!!
So as not to keep you all waiting...I made it through the night and today with none of that cake!!! YAY!! However, I DID have some of the cake served at my mom's retirement party. At first I was going to split a piece 3 ways with my sis and my son...then decided to get my own piece because, I knew I'd only have one piece, (and thank goodness there was NONE leftover) and it was a reasonable size piece.
The party was very very nice and my mom was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SURPRISED!! They did a really good job and being who she is, my mom was helping to set up decorations because she just thought it was the end of the year party for the faculty and staff. She'd even paid her $25 for the lunch!!! she got it back in a card along with money gifts from everyone totaling $400!!! She CAN'T spend it on bills..has to be something for HER ONLY!! We're still trying to figure out what to get her with our kids funds or where to send her. Not as easy as we thought cuz she'll want one of us to go with her and if I go then I'm trying to get someone else to watch my son cuz it's really not a vacation with him...well, a relaxing one at least.
The menu was not horrible at all!!! I was very pleased! VERY Pleased. Green beens almondine with little or no sale added, mashed potatoes with gravy on the side, salad, fried AND BAKED chicken, 4" french bread rolls, and Italian beef with or without peppers.
I had salad with a drizzle of Italian dressing, a BAKED chicken breast, about 1/2 c. of green beans, no mashed potatoes, and a bread roll and Italian Beef. Everything was good too and I did have the cake but I didn't have any last night. Since about 1pm with the food was eaten I've had 1 1/2 beef sandwiches. and it's 11:32 now and I had the last one around 9:15. I wasn't going right to bed because I drove my sis back home so I was still up and about. I haven't had any fruit today though so I'm kinda iffy about that. I didn't feel like an apple or an orange. For breakfast I had my usual 1 cup of cold cereal and skim milk. After I got my sis we came back to the "main house" to wait for my bro and sis n law so we could head over to mom's school together. I had more water and a bit of trail mix..not even a 1/4 cup...and then a Bagelful.
Today was a good day. I can't say with honesty that I didn't have any of that cake on the stove though. When I got back home I got a taste (literrally like an ounce maybe) of that cake and icing and thought ...meh. If I don't have a whole piece..I'll live.
The uh oh moment of the day was not with food but with one of my tires blowing out. Apparently one of the downfalls of buying a super used vehicle is not knowing the age of the tires on it. This one gave a little over a year but I'm told it was dry-rotted and there was really nothing I did to cause it or anything I could do to prevent the pop!! Luckily it happend about 5 blocks from home and my mom has AARP Road and Tow coverage even though the only vehicle on it is mine. We were quoted that service would be there in an hour but he was there within about 20 minutes so that was a blessing. He put the "donut" on and I was now trying to find a place to buy a used tire because, while it's the last day before summer break, I still need to go to work tomorrow and a baby spare on the expressway is not the business for me! I wanted used because I eventually plan to get a newer used vehicle that I won't have to worry so much about. This one came to make with aobut 140K+ and It's got almost 167K now in a little over a year. Not sure if tha's average because this is my first vehicle that I own. My big red baby!
It all worked out, got a nice looking used for only 23.50 total. A new one from Sam's Club would have been $50+ AND $15 to put it on. I wouldn't have made it to them in time tonight and the other places were closed or equipment wasn't working. The bad equip guy told me about the one I ended up going to and it worked out. Even got to see a big ol' dog take a monster poop!!! That hasn't happened since I dog died 3 years ago!!! Yeah, gross but you need a giggle moment too!
Okay, I think I've got everything in ....will only get about 5 hours of sleep probably but it's better than nothing...or 1-3 hours. 1-3 hours is just plain wrong!!
The party was very very nice and my mom was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SURPRISED!! They did a really good job and being who she is, my mom was helping to set up decorations because she just thought it was the end of the year party for the faculty and staff. She'd even paid her $25 for the lunch!!! she got it back in a card along with money gifts from everyone totaling $400!!! She CAN'T spend it on bills..has to be something for HER ONLY!! We're still trying to figure out what to get her with our kids funds or where to send her. Not as easy as we thought cuz she'll want one of us to go with her and if I go then I'm trying to get someone else to watch my son cuz it's really not a vacation with him...well, a relaxing one at least.
The menu was not horrible at all!!! I was very pleased! VERY Pleased. Green beens almondine with little or no sale added, mashed potatoes with gravy on the side, salad, fried AND BAKED chicken, 4" french bread rolls, and Italian beef with or without peppers.
I had salad with a drizzle of Italian dressing, a BAKED chicken breast, about 1/2 c. of green beans, no mashed potatoes, and a bread roll and Italian Beef. Everything was good too and I did have the cake but I didn't have any last night. Since about 1pm with the food was eaten I've had 1 1/2 beef sandwiches. and it's 11:32 now and I had the last one around 9:15. I wasn't going right to bed because I drove my sis back home so I was still up and about. I haven't had any fruit today though so I'm kinda iffy about that. I didn't feel like an apple or an orange. For breakfast I had my usual 1 cup of cold cereal and skim milk. After I got my sis we came back to the "main house" to wait for my bro and sis n law so we could head over to mom's school together. I had more water and a bit of trail mix..not even a 1/4 cup...and then a Bagelful.
Today was a good day. I can't say with honesty that I didn't have any of that cake on the stove though. When I got back home I got a taste (literrally like an ounce maybe) of that cake and icing and thought ...meh. If I don't have a whole piece..I'll live.
The uh oh moment of the day was not with food but with one of my tires blowing out. Apparently one of the downfalls of buying a super used vehicle is not knowing the age of the tires on it. This one gave a little over a year but I'm told it was dry-rotted and there was really nothing I did to cause it or anything I could do to prevent the pop!! Luckily it happend about 5 blocks from home and my mom has AARP Road and Tow coverage even though the only vehicle on it is mine. We were quoted that service would be there in an hour but he was there within about 20 minutes so that was a blessing. He put the "donut" on and I was now trying to find a place to buy a used tire because, while it's the last day before summer break, I still need to go to work tomorrow and a baby spare on the expressway is not the business for me! I wanted used because I eventually plan to get a newer used vehicle that I won't have to worry so much about. This one came to make with aobut 140K+ and It's got almost 167K now in a little over a year. Not sure if tha's average because this is my first vehicle that I own. My big red baby!
It all worked out, got a nice looking used for only 23.50 total. A new one from Sam's Club would have been $50+ AND $15 to put it on. I wouldn't have made it to them in time tonight and the other places were closed or equipment wasn't working. The bad equip guy told me about the one I ended up going to and it worked out. Even got to see a big ol' dog take a monster poop!!! That hasn't happened since I dog died 3 years ago!!! Yeah, gross but you need a giggle moment too!
Okay, I think I've got everything in ....will only get about 5 hours of sleep probably but it's better than nothing...or 1-3 hours. 1-3 hours is just plain wrong!!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I must remember...
...that some people just won't change. Subject A: My mom. Today the classroom teacher who's room she's assigned to gave her a couple of balloons, cards from herself and the kids, and a cake for my mom's retirement. I'm guessing they wanted to do something early with the kids since they wouldn't be there all day on Friday and not at all tomorrow, hence the surprise party at her school. So, naturally the leftover cake is hers so she brought it home. This a day, ONE DAY, after she brought home leftover fried chicken and fries from lunch...and asked me if I wanted some.
Insert frustrated yell here.
I had to tell her, I CAN'T have that, it's fried. Her response, oh I forgot. I'm sorry. okay.
An age of mid 60s, early 80s, 100s, whatever . . . I've been obese my entire life...clearly there's no room for forgetting that your youngest daughter SHOULD NOT be eating fried food, fast food, take out food, whatever!
So I've had to resist the powerful temptation to go in there and have some cake or even OPEN THE BAG to see what kind it is!!!! I want no parts of that! I don't want to see if...I can only guess what kind it is that little kids would want to eat.
Now my sis made an okay point saying that my mom can't totally adjust what she does to accommodate my need to lose weight and not see the uh oh and no no foods she wants to bring home. Too much of a hassle to "hide" the cake downstairs and have to go down there to that fridge every time she wants a piece (we live in a 2 flat with full basement and full attic btw so that's why there's a fridge up and downstairs...2 apartments). However, is it too much for her to remember there are things I need to be doing to change my lifestyle? I mean, every now and then she goes into rants about how I need to watch what I'm eating and I need to exercise and "we gonna walk together, put gran-man in a stroller and take him with us" and then, You want some chicken? WTF?! Besides, right now I'm thinking, she goes down there every day anyway so why not but, not my house, not my rules. However, my sis has never had to consciously try to eat better to lose weight because she has a condition where she's gonna drop weight anyway, most times without even trying.
I really REALLY hate knowing that cake is in there. I'm gonna have to wake up in the night to take a pee cuz I've been drinking water late in the day! I've been strong so far but this is probably similar to how a recovering addict feels when they roommate still drinks, smokes, or does whatever drug they've quit but they can't really afford to move yet. I'm fighting with my mind right now to say YOU DON'T NEED IT.
On top of the cake issue, I'm afraid of what's going to be on the menu for this party tomorrow that I'll be able to actually eat without have to scalp it first. I should probably take my water jug with me. Oh crap, I need to pack my son's bag "to take to work with me since I'm taking him with me" ... that's the cover story I told my mom in case she wanted to call the daycare and they tell her that I never dropped him off or that he's not there, whatever.
I do hope I will have an empowering post for you all to read tomorrow that I was able to say NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO to the cake. But right now there's this vampire that hasn't had a fresh stream in a day or two like pang in my stomach and mouth that's like...come ooooon, a lil bit won't hurt. Well, for me...as I've stated before, it will. I'm not at that stage in the game where I an have a sliver and be satisfied.
I should have been asleep so I'm going to do that now and pray for strength that the potty trip is just that....go potty, come back to bed. don't even LOOK in that direction!!!
later, *wave*
Insert frustrated yell here.
I had to tell her, I CAN'T have that, it's fried. Her response, oh I forgot. I'm sorry. okay.
An age of mid 60s, early 80s, 100s, whatever . . . I've been obese my entire life...clearly there's no room for forgetting that your youngest daughter SHOULD NOT be eating fried food, fast food, take out food, whatever!
So I've had to resist the powerful temptation to go in there and have some cake or even OPEN THE BAG to see what kind it is!!!! I want no parts of that! I don't want to see if...I can only guess what kind it is that little kids would want to eat.
Now my sis made an okay point saying that my mom can't totally adjust what she does to accommodate my need to lose weight and not see the uh oh and no no foods she wants to bring home. Too much of a hassle to "hide" the cake downstairs and have to go down there to that fridge every time she wants a piece (we live in a 2 flat with full basement and full attic btw so that's why there's a fridge up and downstairs...2 apartments). However, is it too much for her to remember there are things I need to be doing to change my lifestyle? I mean, every now and then she goes into rants about how I need to watch what I'm eating and I need to exercise and "we gonna walk together, put gran-man in a stroller and take him with us" and then, You want some chicken? WTF?! Besides, right now I'm thinking, she goes down there every day anyway so why not but, not my house, not my rules. However, my sis has never had to consciously try to eat better to lose weight because she has a condition where she's gonna drop weight anyway, most times without even trying.
I really REALLY hate knowing that cake is in there. I'm gonna have to wake up in the night to take a pee cuz I've been drinking water late in the day! I've been strong so far but this is probably similar to how a recovering addict feels when they roommate still drinks, smokes, or does whatever drug they've quit but they can't really afford to move yet. I'm fighting with my mind right now to say YOU DON'T NEED IT.
On top of the cake issue, I'm afraid of what's going to be on the menu for this party tomorrow that I'll be able to actually eat without have to scalp it first. I should probably take my water jug with me. Oh crap, I need to pack my son's bag "to take to work with me since I'm taking him with me" ... that's the cover story I told my mom in case she wanted to call the daycare and they tell her that I never dropped him off or that he's not there, whatever.
I do hope I will have an empowering post for you all to read tomorrow that I was able to say NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO to the cake. But right now there's this vampire that hasn't had a fresh stream in a day or two like pang in my stomach and mouth that's like...come ooooon, a lil bit won't hurt. Well, for me...as I've stated before, it will. I'm not at that stage in the game where I an have a sliver and be satisfied.
I should have been asleep so I'm going to do that now and pray for strength that the potty trip is just that....go potty, come back to bed. don't even LOOK in that direction!!!
later, *wave*
Monday, June 8, 2009
into week 4
So yeah, yesterday was the first day of Week 4 "Lose some More". I doubt the trend of giving each week a rhyming name will last! I'm wondering if counting the weeks is a good or bad idea for me? I've realized there are a lot of things that work for other people that don't work for me . Consciously counting calories, fat, carbs, etc., I mean, I do look at the labels to even check what I'm putting in my body from the serving amounts in each package to some of the ingredients. Is it real whole grain or whole wheat or is their caramel coloring in it? Is the flour bleached or enriched? Will I be floating for the next week because of the astronomical amount of sodium in each serving that has me bloated and swollen? I just don't journal what I've eaten during the day all too well. I' not saying that writing or using my hands to write is dead because I still doodle, draw, grade papers...I still have to use my hands for the ancient art of writing. It's just that I type WWWWAY faster than I write! I could blog my food intake for the day but then I'd have to remember what I ate. I realize that I'm only eating 3 or 3 1/2 times a day and it's not bothering me. I'd thought I was going to eat 5-6 smaller meals but well, I'm satisfied with what I'm getting so far so .. .
It's late but I wanted to blog something. I missed yesterday. This is the last week of school b4 break. I really should be trying to get a summer job to make some income on top of my pay from work over the summer. I probably won't. Will spend my summer at home in the garden/yard trying to manage the plum trees sprouting up everywhere, paying for a new fence for the backyard, and cleaning up inside the house. Maybe finally getting those floor tiles in the kitchen and bath and painting the walls. It's a lot but I've been doing it since 2006..yeah, it's not finished yet. go figure! At least the chance to burn some calories is there. I'm also hoping to get a good amount of painting completed and perhaps started. I have 4 works do complete that have been commissioned. Two are for my church and I'm probably not even gonna collect on the rest of that money. It's been since 2006 and they still aren't finished. So tell me why I took on two more posters last year? Cuz I have high hopes but then ..yeah...just like my grad courses....I take on projects that I should have some hindsight in by now.
For now, I'm thinking my health is first and foremost after my son's. I have to make sure I'm living so if that means just putting everything and everyone else on hold short of my job, so be it. I need to work on me. Even though I am working on some gifts those are no big deal They'll be finished by tomorrow (started them today). Time seemed to fly by today even though I had not a one student in my class today because hardly no one showed up and those who did chose to hang in another teacher's room. I'm going to have to take advantage of the down time to start the reading and finish the papers that are due.
Here's an ongoing prob for me though:
I'm wondering why I can't get through reading one page of reading before I'm yawning and just feeling overwhelmed with trying to get it read? Even magazine articles in a magazine I've bought because I like it! That's a real pisser when you're trying to browse through about 30 books and articles combined to get enough information to write two 10-12 page papers and one 5 page paper based on just one book. It really interferes with my progress in life recently. If I can't get the reading done I won't be able to get the papers written and there goes over $1600 down the drain because if I stay with this school and this degree then I'm going to have to take those two required courses again eventually...I don't have to repeat them asap...can take the courses in any order. Whatever course I take, whenever I take it, there's gonna be reading and paper writing and my brain is in "what are you crazy?!?" mode.
okay for real Good Night All
It's late but I wanted to blog something. I missed yesterday. This is the last week of school b4 break. I really should be trying to get a summer job to make some income on top of my pay from work over the summer. I probably won't. Will spend my summer at home in the garden/yard trying to manage the plum trees sprouting up everywhere, paying for a new fence for the backyard, and cleaning up inside the house. Maybe finally getting those floor tiles in the kitchen and bath and painting the walls. It's a lot but I've been doing it since 2006..yeah, it's not finished yet. go figure! At least the chance to burn some calories is there. I'm also hoping to get a good amount of painting completed and perhaps started. I have 4 works do complete that have been commissioned. Two are for my church and I'm probably not even gonna collect on the rest of that money. It's been since 2006 and they still aren't finished. So tell me why I took on two more posters last year? Cuz I have high hopes but then ..yeah...just like my grad courses....I take on projects that I should have some hindsight in by now.
For now, I'm thinking my health is first and foremost after my son's. I have to make sure I'm living so if that means just putting everything and everyone else on hold short of my job, so be it. I need to work on me. Even though I am working on some gifts those are no big deal They'll be finished by tomorrow (started them today). Time seemed to fly by today even though I had not a one student in my class today because hardly no one showed up and those who did chose to hang in another teacher's room. I'm going to have to take advantage of the down time to start the reading and finish the papers that are due.
Here's an ongoing prob for me though:
I'm wondering why I can't get through reading one page of reading before I'm yawning and just feeling overwhelmed with trying to get it read? Even magazine articles in a magazine I've bought because I like it! That's a real pisser when you're trying to browse through about 30 books and articles combined to get enough information to write two 10-12 page papers and one 5 page paper based on just one book. It really interferes with my progress in life recently. If I can't get the reading done I won't be able to get the papers written and there goes over $1600 down the drain because if I stay with this school and this degree then I'm going to have to take those two required courses again eventually...I don't have to repeat them asap...can take the courses in any order. Whatever course I take, whenever I take it, there's gonna be reading and paper writing and my brain is in "what are you crazy?!?" mode.
okay for real Good Night All
Saturday, June 6, 2009
oh yeah, forgot to mention this gem!
OH YEAH,
I treated the mom and son to a lunch at a restaurant that we had NEEEVER been to before despite their history of being just a few miles away. The food was delicious and I'm GLAD TO SAY, that there were not only two but THREE doggy bags leaving with us!!! Only a few weeks ago I would have devoured that plate/bowl of linguine with mushrooms, broccoli, and chicken in a white wine sauce that was enough for four people to get a decent helping. Instead, when I saw the food before the lovely waitress (Wendy, a doll :) ) was even good and ready to bring it to the table, I said ooooh, I'm so not gonna finish that food!! I had nibbled on salad and I think I did have too much bread before the food. There was just SOOO much salad that I couldn't finish it; I wanted to eat some of the entree. After lunch is when we went to Walmart so that was about an hour of on my feet time...enough for me to really realize that the new wedges I bought yesterday are for those times when you'll be sitting for the majority of your time wearing them! ouch! but it's not their fault . . . I need a wide width and they only camIe in regular but they still fit. I said, dab nabbit they're cute enough, Payless is having a BOGO sale, I want them. . . and and DOGGONIT I'd better be able to fit them better by summer's end! I'll always need a size 12...but not always a wide width. So I'm good.
I just had the contents of my doggy bag and when I put it on the plate that was when I realized that there was JUST SO MUCH of it! I ate it all and I feel full. Not stuffed, not still hungry or "hungry". Satisfied. I'm downing some water to help it along now and not to be gross but before I ate lunch and about an hour ago, I ..uuuh...emptied out and made room for more. So, I don't know if that sounds like I'm justifying eating the rest of the food but I don't feel like I just piled now food on top of old food so everything is just sitting around.
It seems like it was a bit of devine intervention to actually eat at that place. I'd planned on visiting a pancake house and hoping there would be something light like an eggwhite omelette and fresh fruit on the menu. BUUUUUUT, as I saw the first one that I'd forgotten about, too crowded...got to the one I was planning for, tooo crowded. Now, I know these kind of places usually have a high volume on Saturdays so I was expecting that but today? Today is graduation day for a lot of schools in the city so by 11:30am some were letting out and well, people wanna eat. No parking, looked like there was a standing room only wait, NEXT! So I was kinda in a bind. I was hungry; the Cheerios were wearing off, and I didn't want to go all the way to Red Lobster. Since I am still boycotting Applebees because of the crap service and food we received the last time we were there, it wasn't an option. I noticed the restaurant seemed to be open so I turned, parked, checked to see if they had seating, then checked the menu, saw some nice looking options (I was scanning for something healthy-esque and that I also didn't already have the makings for at home), went back out to scoop up the fam, then went back to check if they took cards cuz I don't carry cash much at all.
This was an Irish-style restaurant...I think mostly because it was in a historically Irish neighborhood (Evergreen Park). Actually, thinking about it, the menu was more Italian (pasta, pizza, oooh that pizza smelled divine!, etc.) than Irish...was there even a corned beef sandwich on the menu??? I had a thought about how the portions are so ... so huge. Then I thought about how greek restaurants (some) give you so much..hence, what I heard coined "Greek portions" or even Italian family style eating which seems to have nothing to do with the fact that you pass the platters of food around the family table and more to do with the fact that you get enough food for yourself to feed a family!! Yet, in the Mediteranean region where Italy and Greece are is where they're supposed to be so fit, etc. I think it's just because with Americanization comes the need to be bigger and better . . . however, that concept just DOESN'T WORK for every little thing. You can't have huge portions of food to justify the bigger price tag because well, you end up with over half of a country's occupants that are overweight, obese, or in my case morbidly obese. Okay, I know that it's about personal choices and no one told you to eat 4 Wendy's .99 burgers, fries, Frosty, and chicken nuggets or a TOTAL RAID of the McDonalds Dollar Menu!!!! But well, the whole concept of Americanization when it comes to marketing food to people is just sickening.
I think I lost my train of thought..............oh. Over in Italy and Greece...they do a loooooot of walking so they can have that big meal...but really, I don't even know if they have these BIG meals there like the "Italian" and "Greek" restaurants here in America...namely Chicago. But well, they have so much beautiful AWESOMELY BEAUTIFUL naturally beautiful and did I mention BEAUTIFUL landscape and old world architecture, art, and culture to walk and take in before, during, and after a meal. Where's my plane ticket and closed real estate deal at for Tuscany??? sigh
Well, despite my mini anti-American BIG EVERYTHING UP diet rant, I'm sure we'll eat there again...and I'm sure I'll be bringing home a doggy bag instead of forcing down an entree fit for four!
I think that's all. Gonna drink some more water. Peace and Blessings!
I treated the mom and son to a lunch at a restaurant that we had NEEEVER been to before despite their history of being just a few miles away. The food was delicious and I'm GLAD TO SAY, that there were not only two but THREE doggy bags leaving with us!!! Only a few weeks ago I would have devoured that plate/bowl of linguine with mushrooms, broccoli, and chicken in a white wine sauce that was enough for four people to get a decent helping. Instead, when I saw the food before the lovely waitress (Wendy, a doll :) ) was even good and ready to bring it to the table, I said ooooh, I'm so not gonna finish that food!! I had nibbled on salad and I think I did have too much bread before the food. There was just SOOO much salad that I couldn't finish it; I wanted to eat some of the entree. After lunch is when we went to Walmart so that was about an hour of on my feet time...enough for me to really realize that the new wedges I bought yesterday are for those times when you'll be sitting for the majority of your time wearing them! ouch! but it's not their fault . . . I need a wide width and they only camIe in regular but they still fit. I said, dab nabbit they're cute enough, Payless is having a BOGO sale, I want them. . . and and DOGGONIT I'd better be able to fit them better by summer's end! I'll always need a size 12...but not always a wide width. So I'm good.
I just had the contents of my doggy bag and when I put it on the plate that was when I realized that there was JUST SO MUCH of it! I ate it all and I feel full. Not stuffed, not still hungry or "hungry". Satisfied. I'm downing some water to help it along now and not to be gross but before I ate lunch and about an hour ago, I ..uuuh...emptied out and made room for more. So, I don't know if that sounds like I'm justifying eating the rest of the food but I don't feel like I just piled now food on top of old food so everything is just sitting around.
It seems like it was a bit of devine intervention to actually eat at that place. I'd planned on visiting a pancake house and hoping there would be something light like an eggwhite omelette and fresh fruit on the menu. BUUUUUUT, as I saw the first one that I'd forgotten about, too crowded...got to the one I was planning for, tooo crowded. Now, I know these kind of places usually have a high volume on Saturdays so I was expecting that but today? Today is graduation day for a lot of schools in the city so by 11:30am some were letting out and well, people wanna eat. No parking, looked like there was a standing room only wait, NEXT! So I was kinda in a bind. I was hungry; the Cheerios were wearing off, and I didn't want to go all the way to Red Lobster. Since I am still boycotting Applebees because of the crap service and food we received the last time we were there, it wasn't an option. I noticed the restaurant seemed to be open so I turned, parked, checked to see if they had seating, then checked the menu, saw some nice looking options (I was scanning for something healthy-esque and that I also didn't already have the makings for at home), went back out to scoop up the fam, then went back to check if they took cards cuz I don't carry cash much at all.
This was an Irish-style restaurant...I think mostly because it was in a historically Irish neighborhood (Evergreen Park). Actually, thinking about it, the menu was more Italian (pasta, pizza, oooh that pizza smelled divine!, etc.) than Irish...was there even a corned beef sandwich on the menu??? I had a thought about how the portions are so ... so huge. Then I thought about how greek restaurants (some) give you so much..hence, what I heard coined "Greek portions" or even Italian family style eating which seems to have nothing to do with the fact that you pass the platters of food around the family table and more to do with the fact that you get enough food for yourself to feed a family!! Yet, in the Mediteranean region where Italy and Greece are is where they're supposed to be so fit, etc. I think it's just because with Americanization comes the need to be bigger and better . . . however, that concept just DOESN'T WORK for every little thing. You can't have huge portions of food to justify the bigger price tag because well, you end up with over half of a country's occupants that are overweight, obese, or in my case morbidly obese. Okay, I know that it's about personal choices and no one told you to eat 4 Wendy's .99 burgers, fries, Frosty, and chicken nuggets or a TOTAL RAID of the McDonalds Dollar Menu!!!! But well, the whole concept of Americanization when it comes to marketing food to people is just sickening.
I think I lost my train of thought..............oh. Over in Italy and Greece...they do a loooooot of walking so they can have that big meal...but really, I don't even know if they have these BIG meals there like the "Italian" and "Greek" restaurants here in America...namely Chicago. But well, they have so much beautiful AWESOMELY BEAUTIFUL naturally beautiful and did I mention BEAUTIFUL landscape and old world architecture, art, and culture to walk and take in before, during, and after a meal. Where's my plane ticket and closed real estate deal at for Tuscany??? sigh
Well, despite my mini anti-American BIG EVERYTHING UP diet rant, I'm sure we'll eat there again...and I'm sure I'll be bringing home a doggy bag instead of forcing down an entree fit for four!
I think that's all. Gonna drink some more water. Peace and Blessings!
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