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Single mom of two from Chicago.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

My Apologies! Now GET UP!

Hello everyone! I apologize for being away for so long again!! I haven't been slipping up bad with the food however. I have been, but not horribly! I've been recognizing my weaknesses in the food game so I'm trying to just let those things stay on the store shelf! No matter how pretty the packaging or how much I try to tell myself, oh I'll just have one serving at a time and that's it. Not gonna happen. I was at Marshalls a couple weeks ago and bought 2 cans of these chocolate filled crispy wafer rolls. the visible fat alone once I opened the cans was enough to make the most unhealthy eater cringe a bit but ...looked past that. I was jonesin' for some chocolate!

Anyway, enough of that. My aerobics class started last month on the 22nd. That first day was woooooow! I thought I was gonna puke when I got home. It's been over 5 years since I was hitting a gym and exercising regularly!! I was exhausted. The class is on Tuesday and Thursday 6:30-7:45pm. Thursdays I have a bit of time to work with but on Tuesdays my son, for the next few weeks, has a scheduled appt. at 4:30pm. That runs for about an hour and then it's about 15 minutes getting home. I have to try and eat something before the class because I don't want to eat so late after it. Sometimes the class starts late, I guess to give stragglers a chance to get there, and it lets out closer to 8pm!!! I learned that first class that a big meal is NOOOOOOT going to make for a happy workout and rest afterward!

So, what I did last Tuesday was eat some salad during his appointment and an apple on the way to pick him up from school before the appointment. I just stretched my dinner out so it was there but not all lumped in at once.
I've learned there are things this 300+ pound body CAN do but I just don't want to have to do again until I'm healthier, more flexible, and of course, smaller in weight!!!

My weight has been fluctuating...I don't believe it's a plateau I'm in...it's a bad cycle of rationalizing eating what I KNOW I need to avoid! I'm working out now so I can splurge a bit. The problem with THAT is that I'm not eating those foods AFTER a hard workout so the calories will burn faster and the food will digest a lil quicker. But on top of that, I'm still only exercising 2x a week in class!! I DID receive the once per year free fitness center access via a prescription for exercise from my doctor, I just have to start putting the fitness center in my schedule on Mondays and Wednesdays after work. I'm QUITE sure I'll be going in earlier than 6:30 so it doesn't take so much of my after work time away. But I DO need to go. I can't use "I need a refresher course in using fitness equipment" as an excuse either because both classes last week were in the fitness center!! I guess the problem with taking an aerobics class at a public city park district is that you're pretty much only guaranteed the time slot but not the place on the property to have the class??? I think last Tuesday's class was planned to be in the fitness center but Thursday's class was there because both of the gyms in the main building were being used for something else.

Fitness center work wasn't horrible though. . .and the soreness that followed..well, we all know that's a good thing. But just you know, I had to take a pill on Thursday because that's when the soreness peaked for my lower body! Only to go in Thursday evening and work the upper body (Tues=upper, Thurs=lower). I'm looking forward to the end goal though!

As for my birthday that almost exactly a month away, if I'm planning on fitting one of these dresses I've got hanging up then I'm going to...REALLY GOING TO have to knuckle down down and up the exercising to 4x a week...5 if I'm not going out of town for a weekend and leaving right after work that Friday. However, I'd most likely only be going to see my bro so if I just danced around or ran up and down the hallway with my son which is all he wants to do while he's out there...30 minutes of cardio with that and lifting some cans of baked beans....hey, free workout!!

I know, I know, so if I KNOW what to do and what I need to do why can't I either piss or get off the pot? Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeell, we're all blogging about our struggle/journey/backslides/successess and above all ENCOURAGING EACH OTHER for a reason. Something hasn't stayed consistent and it's not our body..it's our way of thinking...it's our minds. The body can't move without the brain saying to do it and our brain does or thinks nothing just on it's own. . .at least I don't think it does. Where're the docs/scientists out there?

I think about you guys out there even when I'm not blogging like I should be. I hope that everyone is doing well and that the pounds are still decreasing/shedding/melting away!!! I hope that no one has falling back off he wagon and decided to just give up the fight. It's a fight, sometimes you win, sometimes you lose, but I've never seen a fighter, even one that's been knocked out cold, not get back up eventually! Get up! For us, it's detrimental for us to LITERALLY GET UP! Get up and get moving!


Speaking of get moving....we took the lil guy to the ER a little over a week ago because he had blood in his stools. Now, for a lil 3 year old, his movements are like, grown person sized!! it was a lil blood but the couple of days before we took him it had sort of tripled in how much was there. So I left a msg with the nurse at our doc office. Called back the next day and wanted us to take him to ER to be seen sooner than trying to make an appt. or coming as a walk-in. He was just diagnosed with constipation and that's what causes the blood when he has to push so hard. Plus he doesn't go everyday. Rx: MORE FIBER! Well, since we ALL need more fiber because I know we're not getting enough of it at home or at his school I bought some Benefiber. While there I saw some All-Bran fiber products that were on clearance. could be because they were discontinued but most likely because they expire next month. But well, I've seen old stuff on the shelves before so maybe they weren't selling good. I don't know. I just stocked up on the lil drink packets, wafer rolls, and fiber bars. Now if they only made these things with HFCS!!

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