Ok, so I'm gonna b$#@! and then I'm gonna learn from it and move on.
I'm up 5 pounds in five days. I don't know if the scale needs a new battery because this is the second time I've had a 5# jump in less than a week. Either way, I could believe it thought because twice last week I indulged in fatty Chinese Food. I could have easily broken the meal up into 3 meals with a big salad and some fresh fruit to round it out. But no, I gorged on 6 big potstickers and 6 fried crab rangoons one day for lunch alone. I don't believe I had much else to eat later that day except some fresh fruit and water but still. too much.
Friday, being Friday and the day of the week where we leave with the students (a little after 2pm) I was feeling like some more potstickers and rangoons. This time, I added egg rolls and bbq pork to the mix. This time I had enough for my mom and my wee one. However, I gorged on the most because it's really like feeding 2 1/2 people because he's only 3. I REALLY need to just buy enough food for 2 people and then take part of our food and give that to him. Being 3, he's a picky eater.
So yeah, it may also be increased muscle because trust me...there's some new muscle in the short amount of time I've spent in that aerobics class because she had strength training and weights to it.
In conclusion, I must remember the old knowledge of not to be a slave to the scale. Muscle weighs more than fat right? Or it's denser? something like that. Anyway, I need to look at how my clothes fit more than what the scale says. Soooo yeah.
I also have to not beat myself up if I'm not in a size 26 or 28 by November 7th. As long as I keep pushing...I'll be at a size 28 guaranteed. Just need to give up all that food I KNOW I am not going to portion control, that I'm not going to take in moderation, that I'm not going to be able to just have a little bit of before I want to devour it all. I'll only have it if I'm out with 2 other GROWN people and we'll split the portions! And well, since I'm trying to get back to my discipline of no fast food or food made away from home (or non-homecooked, healthy food because sometimes I'm eating what someone else homecooked) I shouldn't have to worry about dividing an appetizer or whatnot up amongst people. I DO have 2 away from home eating engagements this weekend, possibly 3, and all will be to hang out/celebrate with family (my sis will be 35) and that's b4 my bday in November....and THAT'S supposed to be more about my "massive" weight loss which right now, isn't at the number I want it to be at.
But I won't be discouraged. Despite another situation rearing it's ugly head in my life, I will work through the pressure!!
Okay, he needs to be napping, I'm waiting for people to come over and pick up these pasta bakes I made for them, and I STILL had plans of running a few errands today. However, half of the day is already gone so I don't know if it's gonna happen.
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