So YAY ME!! I made it through one full week of eating healthier! I didn't write down everything I ate but at least if I were to try and list everything I ate I could probably get about 60-70% written down! I didn't have any red meat or pork but that's not because I'm giving those up, I'm not, just didn't eat them. I had a lot of fruit and Salad! I know, SALAD!!!! The only way I ate it was because it was the premixed, prebagged kind, and also because I was telling myself YOU HAVE TO!! There's the best choice and the wrong choice. Both have consequences and I'd like to have more good than bad in my life. If my weight is something that I CAN have control over (calm down fellow Christians because God didn't make anyone fat so I control this myself with His help) then I should be CONTROLLING it and not the other way around.
This week I did have too much trail mix in one sitting yesterday and I know that was emotional eating because I was home alone taking my own snow day and my son was here also; his daycare school was closed. Now I know I spend way too much time on this thing while I'm at home. If it were still the desktop computer I probably wouldn't even have a major social network page. But this is a laptop and I can surf the net with wifi in my bed and watch tv all at once. However, my son wants to play and grab me or the laptop all the time and when I tell him to stop then he gets frustrated and pissy and gets to hollering and crying and yelling and THAT makes me angry and pissy. However, I get sucked into the internet and it's not like I'm doing anything of great importance like researching things for work or the like. I'm checking my pages and email and YouTubing and all that crap. The major problem is there's not a lot of room for him to play here like he has at daycare so he wants me to be his jungle gym and if I weren't all sucked up into this laptop that'd be okay most of the time. Instead he's wanting to do it while I'm wanting to do this. Yesterday was just all day only me and him and I was already upset that I was at home but getting to work and possibly having to take him with me was not really a safe option with the conditions out there. He just wanted to crawl and climb and jump and then refuse to take his nap because he fights sleep and he's a toddler. So with the anger and frustration building up I just exploded at him verbally and then chowed down on some trail mix (it at least had no chocolate). I think I ate 6-8 ounces either in that sitting or all of yesteray. The serving size is one ounce so yeah...lotta calories, lotta fat.
I think that was the only bad thing, oh, some "broasted" chicken only because I put money in on the staff holiday dinner even though I shouldn't have because there was nothing ordered that I could have and I had prior knowledge of that. I could have saved $5 and had my chicken salad instead of the breaded roasted chicken. basically, just call it oven fried because for people trying to lose weight the flour breading is just as bad as the frying in oil! ugh, had she explained that to me when I was asking about what was being ordered and all I would have just saved my money and went to get my lunch I took and called it a day.
I have been doing good again at making sure I'm not hungry or POWERFULLY hungry when I leave work so I'm not tempted to get something on the way home. I'm good for pulling into a drive thru and ordering 2 sandwiches or a meal and an extra different sandwich and almost being finished with one sandwich within a mile of the joint! How do you taste and enjoy something when you've inhaled it so fast hot or not? That's a prime example of just eating to feel full and not really eating to enjoy what you're eating! As long as I have a vehicle while I'm trying to lose weight that's the one temptation I have to resist, especially on days when I'm just really tired or frustrated from work and cooking is not the #1 thing I want to do. However, I do it because my mom works in the same field as I do and she's 35 years older than me (yes, still working, times are hard even for those working horrible jobs, you can't quit!) so she shouldn't have to cook.
Anyway, this week is behind me. Next week will be tricky. I'm going to be at my other bro's overnight for Christmas and I'll have to make sure I have something that I can eat without so much guilt feelings. Yes, I'll have the traditional foods but I think this time I'll bake the sweet potato slices instead of dredging them in sugar and butter on the stovetop. I'll ask him to use skim milk ... which I think he does ...for his mac n cheese, I'm not sure what the dressing sub or modified version can be..maybe lentils instead of the box mix and mom's added homemade cornbread. I'm still trying to figure it out. Turkey and ham,wholewheat rolls instead of white. I can't believe it's not butter. .maybe regular butter. .I'll have to compare those labels really good. Who knows what dessert will be; all I know is while I am the one that needs to loose up to 2 people's worth of weight, EVERYONE in my family needs to lose SOME weight! So we really need to change at least our eating habits, if we won't increase are activity levels!
At least when I get there, some if not all of my workout dvds will be waiting for me! I need to work out a . .workout schedule but it will most likely be when I get home from work...possibly within the hour of my return. I still need to get my son a snack or a drink and maybe change him out of his school uniform. I'm sure my mom won't mind doing that but if we EVER get to move, I'm going to have to do this on my own if she doesn't move with me and right now that doesn't look like it's happening. But that's another blog for another purpose!
Have a great one!
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